Tuesday, September 30, 2008
DEEP THOUGHTS
sians sians sians.
ohyah. i just rmbed something. HAHAS.
today jake&timo damn bad to ahlong lah.
i was like walking to the goodnews cafe.
then jake signal me to come over.
then he ask me to look at ahlong's back.
LOLS. and there was this no.34 sticker on his back.
they super bad lah. go paste on his back.
then timo walk over and hit the sticker on his back.
then they act act here act act there. LOLS.
super funny lah.
and while me&xian were strolling round the track.
hanpin shouted out to xian.
and then this UNKNOWN GIRL (p/s- i shall call her A).
shouted out my name. seriously i dont know who she was.
cos' it was seriously so dark tt i cant figure out her face.
so not wanting to be seen as unfriendly,i waved to her instead!
HAHAS. i waved to someone whom i dont even know who im waving to.
so till now i dont know who was tt girl who called out to me. LOLS.
abit pek chek lah. cos' it's like i want to know who she is.
i tried to see her face from a dist. away but to no avail.
so we just went off. but abit sians lah. damn curious loh. hehes.
super duper tired now.
and my brain is actually using up countless brain cells now.
cos' im like thinking about many many things.
sad ones actually. and i somehow feel abit sians now.
yahlah. i emo kid. SOBBS.
fine. fine. E-M-O. *sigh*
no mood to cont' writing.
nights.
sians sians sians.
ohyah. i just rmbed something. HAHAS.
today jake&timo damn bad to ahlong lah.
i was like walking to the goodnews cafe.
then jake signal me to come over.
then he ask me to look at ahlong's back.
LOLS. and there was this no.34 sticker on his back.
they super bad lah. go paste on his back.
then timo walk over and hit the sticker on his back.
then they act act here act act there. LOLS.
super funny lah.
and while me&xian were strolling round the track.
hanpin shouted out to xian.
and then this UNKNOWN GIRL (p/s- i shall call her A).
shouted out my name. seriously i dont know who she was.
cos' it was seriously so dark tt i cant figure out her face.
so not wanting to be seen as unfriendly,i waved to her instead!
HAHAS. i waved to someone whom i dont even know who im waving to.
so till now i dont know who was tt girl who called out to me. LOLS.
abit pek chek lah. cos' it's like i want to know who she is.
i tried to see her face from a dist. away but to no avail.
so we just went off. but abit sians lah. damn curious loh. hehes.
super duper tired now.
and my brain is actually using up countless brain cells now.
cos' im like thinking about many many things.
sad ones actually. and i somehow feel abit sians now.
yahlah. i emo kid. SOBBS.
fine. fine. E-M-O. *sigh*
no mood to cont' writing.
nights.
what we could have been, 9/30/2008 10:53:00 PM.
Monday, September 29, 2008
ON THE VERGE OF PUKING *bleah*
GOSH!
im dying im dying im dying im dying.
i came home with a dying stomach.
dying not as in feeling hungry.
but dying cos' of some weird problems.
and i feel like puking very badly now. :((
i think it's something that i've ate earlier in school.
and i think it's either the meiji coffee milk or the cheese sandwiches.
but i think it's the cheese sandwiches.
cos' i've drank the coffee before n i was alright.
not till i ate the CHEESE sanwhiches. :((
get what im trying to highlight here?
CHEESE=contains MILK content. LOLS.
so scared now lah. ltr they use the cheese tt have those bad bad milk.
am i thinking too much?! LOLS. i think so.
BUT STILL! i really feel like puking now.
i cant eat, sleep, drink now. SOBBS.
i've got a weak stomach. HAHAS.
sad lah.
PRE A's next week.
DEAD spells it.
A's in 34 soon-to-be 33 days.
scared. worried. nervous.
and cutecute ms tan gave us cutecute pencil case too.
HAHAS. she damn funny lah.
'imagine during exams in the hall. then all my 3classes
using the same pencil case. so cool right?!'
LOLS. i was like laughing lah. so cute lah she.
yahloh. hahas
haoba.
better go rest now.
im dying soon. my poor/weak stomach. T.T
GOSH!
im dying im dying im dying im dying.
i came home with a dying stomach.
dying not as in feeling hungry.
but dying cos' of some weird problems.
and i feel like puking very badly now. :((
i think it's something that i've ate earlier in school.
and i think it's either the meiji coffee milk or the cheese sandwiches.
but i think it's the cheese sandwiches.
cos' i've drank the coffee before n i was alright.
not till i ate the CHEESE sanwhiches. :((
get what im trying to highlight here?
CHEESE=contains MILK content. LOLS.
so scared now lah. ltr they use the cheese tt have those bad bad milk.
am i thinking too much?! LOLS. i think so.
BUT STILL! i really feel like puking now.
i cant eat, sleep, drink now. SOBBS.
i've got a weak stomach. HAHAS.
sad lah.
PRE A's next week.
DEAD spells it.
A's in 34 soon-to-be 33 days.
scared. worried. nervous.
and cutecute ms tan gave us cutecute pencil case too.
HAHAS. she damn funny lah.
'imagine during exams in the hall. then all my 3classes
using the same pencil case. so cool right?!'
LOLS. i was like laughing lah. so cute lah she.
yahloh. hahas
haoba.
better go rest now.
im dying soon. my poor/weak stomach. T.T
what we could have been, 9/29/2008 10:12:00 PM.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
RENAULT MAKES HISTORY UNDER LIGHTS
unexptected twist of events
Fernando Alonso actually won the SG Grand Prix.
this was what he told the press ytd:
"The race is lost.
You can't overtake here and I'm starting from 15th,
so I will be going out just to lap the track,
but it's over already," he said.
this race is seriously not about techniques.
it's about who makes the least mistakes.
i got a shocked when i saw him gg off with the oil pipe still attached.
and my dad frightened me when he shouted. LOLS.
i was alrd shocked when i saw tt and his shoutings shocked me even more!
but it's really a pity lah.
FERRARI gone. RENAULT now. HAHAS.
but it was seriously an exciting&thrilling race.
and i was basically sticking my butt to the sofa.
glueing my eyes to the tv screen throughout the whole race.
HAHAS. so yupps.
the sound of the cars ZOOM ZOOM ZOOM damn cool lah.
*SHIOK* XD
unexptected twist of events
Fernando Alonso actually won the SG Grand Prix.
this was what he told the press ytd:
"The race is lost.
You can't overtake here and I'm starting from 15th,
so I will be going out just to lap the track,
but it's over already," he said.
this race is seriously not about techniques.
it's about who makes the least mistakes.
i got a shocked when i saw him gg off with the oil pipe still attached.
and my dad frightened me when he shouted. LOLS.
i was alrd shocked when i saw tt and his shoutings shocked me even more!
but it's really a pity lah.
FERRARI gone. RENAULT now. HAHAS.
but it was seriously an exciting&thrilling race.
and i was basically sticking my butt to the sofa.
glueing my eyes to the tv screen throughout the whole race.
HAHAS. so yupps.
the sound of the cars ZOOM ZOOM ZOOM damn cool lah.
*SHIOK* XD
what we could have been, 9/28/2008 10:15:00 PM.
*SIGH* WHAT A PITY.
actually i kind of stopped thinking about prom night le.
until ytd when xh brought it up again.
then i keep thinking & thinking about it.
then i kept complaining to yx&yt about it ytd.
even yx thinks my class is super pathetic. SOBBS.
my heart break le. HAHAS.
yahloh. like tt loh.
they were like 'why like that???' HAHAS.
yahloh. i also dont know why like that.
super sians loh. come to think of it.
but really a pity lah.
cant go. super helpless&hopeless&sians-less. HAHAS.
*screams* x1000000000000 times.
doing GP essay plan is another sians thing.
i cant think of any arguments for the last essay qns.
so basically im super stucked now.
and i've not done anything else except gp for the whole day.
this seriously sucks lah. *screams*
i feel very the not so happy now cos' im super the not productive today!
35days to A's and im like . . . . . . . SOBBS.
actually i kind of stopped thinking about prom night le.
until ytd when xh brought it up again.
then i keep thinking & thinking about it.
then i kept complaining to yx&yt about it ytd.
even yx thinks my class is super pathetic. SOBBS.
my heart break le. HAHAS.
yahloh. like tt loh.
they were like 'why like that???' HAHAS.
yahloh. i also dont know why like that.
super sians loh. come to think of it.
but really a pity lah.
cant go. super helpless&hopeless&sians-less. HAHAS.
*screams* x1000000000000 times.
doing GP essay plan is another sians thing.
i cant think of any arguments for the last essay qns.
so basically im super stucked now.
and i've not done anything else except gp for the whole day.
this seriously sucks lah. *screams*
i feel very the not so happy now cos' im super the not productive today!
35days to A's and im like . . . . . . . SOBBS.
Labels: siansation
what we could have been, 9/28/2008 07:37:00 PM.
FORMULA ONE RACE & MOTORSHOW 2008 @ SUNTEC :))
went down to suntec to catch the motorshow today.
but a pity we came abit too late & there was no stunt perfomance le.
HAHAS. but nevermind!
at least i got to see the SEXY&HOT cars!
only 2 of them were SEXY. the rest all normal cars! HAHAS.
see see see! *points below*
still got 1 sexy girl with the race car one leh! LOLS.
*just kidding* hehs. >.<
but really got 1 sexy lady wearing orange standing behind me.
posing with the race car too. LOLS.
okok. i so bad. =X i was just kidding only.
but really mah. she pose until so funny. >.<
went to catch the 'warming-ups' of the F1 race at around 7+pm.
it's really a whole new experience for me.
and i nearly went deaf! HAHAS.
cos the sound was like 13db!
damn loud lah 13db!
then it's like super fast, all the cars ZOOM ZOOM ZOOM! HAHAS.
i was super excited that i stood at the bridge for an hour.
hahas. before i finally decided to go off.
and one thing was sure scary.
somehow i think there were too many ppl on the bridge.
and i could feel that the bridge was somehow tremoring.
damn scary. i was so afraid the whole bridge would collapse n i would die.
HAHAS. i always think too much but yupps. :))
i played neopets just a moment ago.LOLS.
stupiddarryl. hahas. ask me if i want to play.
and becos' i rmbed i made an acc centuries ago.
i decided to log in and check the status of my neopets.
and just as i expected. both of my pets dying of hunger.
hahas. i left them there in hunger n i went to play neogames.
*OOPS* hahas. but i love meerca chase 2 & tug-o-war.
i rmb it used to be my fave games in the past.
and the counting of potatoes thing too! HAHS.
and i recalled a few weeks ago.
me&peili were at uncle henry's bookshop.
then we overheard the s6 weibin telling his friends.
' must faster complete this now then can rush home play NEOPETS!'
HAHAS. then me&peili was like 'dots dots dots'
but yupps. just to revive the good old childish times. LOLS.
REDistheSEXZXZXZXZX.
earthDREAMS
SEXYsrjcianwithSEXYcar. LOLS. *just kidding lah* =P
went down to suntec to catch the motorshow today.
but a pity we came abit too late & there was no stunt perfomance le.
HAHAS. but nevermind!
at least i got to see the SEXY&HOT cars!
only 2 of them were SEXY. the rest all normal cars! HAHAS.
see see see! *points below*
still got 1 sexy girl with the race car one leh! LOLS.
*just kidding* hehs. >.<
but really got 1 sexy lady wearing orange standing behind me.
posing with the race car too. LOLS.
okok. i so bad. =X i was just kidding only.
but really mah. she pose until so funny. >.<
went to catch the 'warming-ups' of the F1 race at around 7+pm.
it's really a whole new experience for me.
and i nearly went deaf! HAHAS.
cos the sound was like 13db!
damn loud lah 13db!
then it's like super fast, all the cars ZOOM ZOOM ZOOM! HAHAS.
i was super excited that i stood at the bridge for an hour.
hahas. before i finally decided to go off.
and one thing was sure scary.
somehow i think there were too many ppl on the bridge.
and i could feel that the bridge was somehow tremoring.
damn scary. i was so afraid the whole bridge would collapse n i would die.
HAHAS. i always think too much but yupps. :))
i played neopets just a moment ago.LOLS.
stupiddarryl. hahas. ask me if i want to play.
and becos' i rmbed i made an acc centuries ago.
i decided to log in and check the status of my neopets.
and just as i expected. both of my pets dying of hunger.
hahas. i left them there in hunger n i went to play neogames.
*OOPS* hahas. but i love meerca chase 2 & tug-o-war.
i rmb it used to be my fave games in the past.
and the counting of potatoes thing too! HAHS.
and i recalled a few weeks ago.
me&peili were at uncle henry's bookshop.
then we overheard the s6 weibin telling his friends.
' must faster complete this now then can rush home play NEOPETS!'
HAHAS. then me&peili was like 'dots dots dots'
but yupps. just to revive the good old childish times. LOLS.
REDistheSEXZXZXZXZX.
earthDREAMS
SEXYsrjcianwithSEXYcar. LOLS. *just kidding lah* =Pthe orange lady more sexy can! see she pose until so professional! >.<
it was supposedly to be a great view to see the cars race by. but hp camera not good. hahas.
i think this lighting damn nice lah. the fence n everything! the F1 atmosphere is just there!:))
Labels: formula one race. :))
what we could have been, 9/28/2008 12:42:00 AM.
Friday, September 26, 2008
HAPPIER THAN USUAL. :))
i realised tt i've been emo-ing for the past 2days. i think.
hahs. finally at least today im happier than usual! :))
firstly, today me&peili were talking about tantohhwee.
and then we started going very happy&hyper. LOLS.
i was telling her seeing tantohhwee just makes me happy.
and she totally agreed with me! HAHAS.
i mean it's not like im in love with tantohhwee or something.
but seriously. he's really a very nice teacher.
and without having to do anything, he just makes us laugh.
i just miss the good old j1 days whr we had tut with tantohhwee. :))
ohh. ytd i've been slacking almost the whole day.
i feel so ashamed of myself. hehes.
basically, everyone frm our class except nic&xian agreed to pon phy.
cos basically we have done the 2007 A levels paper.
so we just went home loh. so i reached home at 3pm.
slacked on the com till 430pm.
slept at 430pm and woke up at 730pm. LOLS. XD
then i cont'ed slacking on the com
and tried doing transition metals at the same time.
then i slacked and went to mum's room watch dvd- moonlight resonance.
hahas. super nice lah the show. it's a HK drama serial by the way.
and ohmy. BOSCO is super super super HOT as usual! :))
but i kept complaining to mummy that he looks very old now. LOLS.
but he's still as HOT lah. reminds me of bosco-look-alike.
i seriously think kf damn cool lah. as in he's got the attitude.
LOLS.
my day at sch was super super productive! :))
running really helps keeping me awake during phy consultations. hehs.
cos' i was so enthu/hyper during consultation today.
and i managed to absorb eveything that mroh said.
except for 1qns on elctromagnetism which i kind of blurred for a while.
HAHAS. other than that. it's really smooth-sailing.
so im pretty much done on DC circuits- HOPEFULLY.
got to recap again tml. if i've got the time.
but time's really running out. GOSH.
managed to complete 2qns on paper3 for chem during that 1hour.
damn proud of myself lah. i usuallt take 45min for 1qns.
and now im like only talk 30min for 1qns. PRO MAY! :))
alright alright.
shant go on anymore.
if not it'll be never-ending.
in short. im happy.
and i love tan toh hwee! LOLS.
i realised tt i've been emo-ing for the past 2days. i think.
hahs. finally at least today im happier than usual! :))
firstly, today me&peili were talking about tantohhwee.
and then we started going very happy&hyper. LOLS.
i was telling her seeing tantohhwee just makes me happy.
and she totally agreed with me! HAHAS.
i mean it's not like im in love with tantohhwee or something.
but seriously. he's really a very nice teacher.
and without having to do anything, he just makes us laugh.
i just miss the good old j1 days whr we had tut with tantohhwee. :))
ohh. ytd i've been slacking almost the whole day.
i feel so ashamed of myself. hehes.
basically, everyone frm our class except nic&xian agreed to pon phy.
cos basically we have done the 2007 A levels paper.
so we just went home loh. so i reached home at 3pm.
slacked on the com till 430pm.
slept at 430pm and woke up at 730pm. LOLS. XD
then i cont'ed slacking on the com
and tried doing transition metals at the same time.
then i slacked and went to mum's room watch dvd- moonlight resonance.
hahas. super nice lah the show. it's a HK drama serial by the way.
and ohmy. BOSCO is super super super HOT as usual! :))
but i kept complaining to mummy that he looks very old now. LOLS.
but he's still as HOT lah. reminds me of bosco-look-alike.
i seriously think kf damn cool lah. as in he's got the attitude.
LOLS.
my day at sch was super super productive! :))
running really helps keeping me awake during phy consultations. hehs.
cos' i was so enthu/hyper during consultation today.
and i managed to absorb eveything that mroh said.
except for 1qns on elctromagnetism which i kind of blurred for a while.
HAHAS. other than that. it's really smooth-sailing.
so im pretty much done on DC circuits- HOPEFULLY.
got to recap again tml. if i've got the time.
but time's really running out. GOSH.
managed to complete 2qns on paper3 for chem during that 1hour.
damn proud of myself lah. i usuallt take 45min for 1qns.
and now im like only talk 30min for 1qns. PRO MAY! :))
alright alright.
shant go on anymore.
if not it'll be never-ending.
in short. im happy.
and i love tan toh hwee! LOLS.
Labels: randomness
what we could have been, 9/26/2008 10:09:00 PM.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
FOREVER?
not in a very good mood today.
i took quite some time before i found the courgae
to take on the battle againts the A's.
but somehow i've lost my fighting spirit&confidence today.
and sad to say, physics was the cause of it again. *sigh*
long story.
it all happened during phy consultation. :((
we were given quantum practice to do.
and obviously idk wth was going on.
and there they were ranting on and on abt quantum.
and there i was trying to absorb everything tt i could.
but apparantly it was a failed attempt.
i was basically hit hard. *sigh*
another thing.
not going for prom again this year. :((
sians. half of the class were firm with their decision.
then the other half was like ............
then in the end no one going..... sad loh...
me&herm kind of disappointed about it cos' we both v enthu.
but then *sigh*. nvm lah. i cant do anything about it.
it's very difficult to change people's mindset.
*sigh*
seems like there are so many things abt sch tt's bothering me.
graduation day is another thing that's bothering me.
i was there listening to the yr head breifing us abt grad day.
there i was emo-ing again. idk why.
i just felt sad. it's like 2yrs in srjc gone in a flash.
it's like super super duper duper fast lah. *sigh*
i really felt like crying then. i know it's too early to cry yet.
hahas. but then. it's really that 'bu she de' feeling.
but afterall it's super one-sided thing again lah.
i doubt anyone will miss me. :(( thats sad.
i hope i dont cry on grad day. but i've a bad feeling tt i will.
*sigh* im just still not used to handling this kind of situations yet.
SAD LAH! *SOBBS SOBBS*
u know?!?!?!? sad sad sad. bu she de.
suan le. FOCUS MAY FOCUS AH!
*sigh*
not in a very good mood today.
i took quite some time before i found the courgae
to take on the battle againts the A's.
but somehow i've lost my fighting spirit&confidence today.
and sad to say, physics was the cause of it again. *sigh*
long story.
it all happened during phy consultation. :((
we were given quantum practice to do.
and obviously idk wth was going on.
and there they were ranting on and on abt quantum.
and there i was trying to absorb everything tt i could.
but apparantly it was a failed attempt.
i was basically hit hard. *sigh*
another thing.
not going for prom again this year. :((
sians. half of the class were firm with their decision.
then the other half was like ............
then in the end no one going..... sad loh...
me&herm kind of disappointed about it cos' we both v enthu.
but then *sigh*. nvm lah. i cant do anything about it.
it's very difficult to change people's mindset.
*sigh*
seems like there are so many things abt sch tt's bothering me.
graduation day is another thing that's bothering me.
i was there listening to the yr head breifing us abt grad day.
there i was emo-ing again. idk why.
i just felt sad. it's like 2yrs in srjc gone in a flash.
it's like super super duper duper fast lah. *sigh*
i really felt like crying then. i know it's too early to cry yet.
hahas. but then. it's really that 'bu she de' feeling.
but afterall it's super one-sided thing again lah.
i doubt anyone will miss me. :(( thats sad.
i hope i dont cry on grad day. but i've a bad feeling tt i will.
*sigh* im just still not used to handling this kind of situations yet.
SAD LAH! *SOBBS SOBBS*
u know?!?!?!? sad sad sad. bu she de.
suan le. FOCUS MAY FOCUS AH!
*sigh*
what we could have been, 9/25/2008 03:10:00 PM.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
SLEEPY SLEEPY DAY! >.<
summary of my day in sch today.
cold. almost late. tiring. sleepy.
nachos. irritated. reach for the stars.
night study. shivered. heartbeat x100000 times/sec.
damn summarised lah. LOLS.
tml is going to be a very taxing day.
cos' there's maths/phy time trial.
and there's going to be GP consultation tml.
like finally but not at a very good time.
no lunch tml. :((
so i have to endure for like 9hours before i can eat.
gosh. it's like fasting lah. HAHAS.
*sigh* sians. tired. sleepy. cant think.
stupid nationalism.
tml go sch then rush AQ during the short short break
T.T sobbs.
summary of my day in sch today.
cold. almost late. tiring. sleepy.
nachos. irritated. reach for the stars.
night study. shivered. heartbeat x100000 times/sec.
damn summarised lah. LOLS.
tml is going to be a very taxing day.
cos' there's maths/phy time trial.
and there's going to be GP consultation tml.
like finally but not at a very good time.
no lunch tml. :((
so i have to endure for like 9hours before i can eat.
gosh. it's like fasting lah. HAHAS.
*sigh* sians. tired. sleepy. cant think.
stupid nationalism.
tml go sch then rush AQ during the short short break
T.T sobbs.
what we could have been, 9/24/2008 11:54:00 PM.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
FORGETFUL DAY >.<
today just wasnt my day.
i actually forgot to put on my watch+bring my ipod!
i was complaining to peili&xian the whole day.
HAHAS. i think they cant stand it liao. =X
now i think i cant live without music.
so music=my life=my everything. HAHAS.
it's not tt im over reliant on technology.
but rather music is like part&parcel of my life.
just like how u need ur eyes noes mouth yea.
LOLS. weird analogy but u get the idea? :))
im feeling super duper sleepy now. *yawns*
shall go sleep soon. maybe an hour later.
or maybe even earlier. hahas.
ohh. im surprised tt i pass my chem ionic time trial.
miracle u know. hahas. i dont know how i did it.
but i guess it's becos the qns was rather easy.
cos' kay yoke got like full marks for the whole paper.
i was like 'wow. ok. thats really WOW. hahas.'
graduation&a's is coming soon.
graduation day in less than 1month.
A levels in less than 2months.
it's like super fast.
i was telling xian how much i will miss the life in srjc.
those daily tutorials, lectures, lunch, break etc.
as for friends....... hmnmmms. really close ones are still alright.
cos' i know will get to see them anytime i want! :))
but as those normal friends.... i will really miss them a lot.
i was asking xian how should i maintain friendships w/ friends tt aint tt close.
she didnt give me a definite reply. so i've got no idea how to go abt doing it.
i do cherish friendships a lot. so if i were to lose them, it's really a pity.
i do have a tinge of disappointment deep down there in my heart.
but then. i just dont know how to maintain those friendships.
but then agn. it takes 2 hands to clap. both parties to make the effort isnt it?
*sigh* i dont know lah. dont feel like thinking about it le.
brain too tired to think of anything.
but yah. very sad loh. cos' of some reasons. yah loh.
i guess i need to find BFFs talk to them about it.
*sigh* not too convenient to say here anw.
*sigh*. nvm. tml go tell yongyong when i see her. hahas.
my very good emotional support pillar. XD
ohyah. today's maths lecture damn funny lah.
cos i needed to go down to take the attendance.
so i walked out of my row to the side.
then i stood there and wait.
cos' a lot of people mah. so i wait first loh.
then stupid sherm suddenly 'OEI' me. hmph.
then we all started laughing.
cos she said that she thought i wanted to take the list.
then in the end still standing beside her nv go down.
hahas. so she 'OEI' me loh. hahas.
damn funny lah. then when i came back.
gary suddenly LAUGHED OUT LOUD! n i really mean loud.
hahas. damn funny lah. laughing is contagious! XD
shall stop here.
my eyes cant take it le.
staring at this screen can be very taxing for the eyes.
nights loves. :))
today just wasnt my day.
i actually forgot to put on my watch+bring my ipod!
i was complaining to peili&xian the whole day.
HAHAS. i think they cant stand it liao. =X
now i think i cant live without music.
so music=my life=my everything. HAHAS.
it's not tt im over reliant on technology.
but rather music is like part&parcel of my life.
just like how u need ur eyes noes mouth yea.
LOLS. weird analogy but u get the idea? :))
im feeling super duper sleepy now. *yawns*
shall go sleep soon. maybe an hour later.
or maybe even earlier. hahas.
ohh. im surprised tt i pass my chem ionic time trial.
miracle u know. hahas. i dont know how i did it.
but i guess it's becos the qns was rather easy.
cos' kay yoke got like full marks for the whole paper.
i was like 'wow. ok. thats really WOW. hahas.'
graduation&a's is coming soon.
graduation day in less than 1month.
A levels in less than 2months.
it's like super fast.
i was telling xian how much i will miss the life in srjc.
those daily tutorials, lectures, lunch, break etc.
as for friends....... hmnmmms. really close ones are still alright.
cos' i know will get to see them anytime i want! :))
but as those normal friends.... i will really miss them a lot.
i was asking xian how should i maintain friendships w/ friends tt aint tt close.
she didnt give me a definite reply. so i've got no idea how to go abt doing it.
i do cherish friendships a lot. so if i were to lose them, it's really a pity.
i do have a tinge of disappointment deep down there in my heart.
but then. i just dont know how to maintain those friendships.
but then agn. it takes 2 hands to clap. both parties to make the effort isnt it?
*sigh* i dont know lah. dont feel like thinking about it le.
brain too tired to think of anything.
but yah. very sad loh. cos' of some reasons. yah loh.
i guess i need to find BFFs talk to them about it.
*sigh* not too convenient to say here anw.
*sigh*. nvm. tml go tell yongyong when i see her. hahas.
my very good emotional support pillar. XD
ohyah. today's maths lecture damn funny lah.
cos i needed to go down to take the attendance.
so i walked out of my row to the side.
then i stood there and wait.
cos' a lot of people mah. so i wait first loh.
then stupid sherm suddenly 'OEI' me. hmph.
then we all started laughing.
cos she said that she thought i wanted to take the list.
then in the end still standing beside her nv go down.
hahas. so she 'OEI' me loh. hahas.
damn funny lah. then when i came back.
gary suddenly LAUGHED OUT LOUD! n i really mean loud.
hahas. damn funny lah. laughing is contagious! XD
shall stop here.
my eyes cant take it le.
staring at this screen can be very taxing for the eyes.
nights loves. :))
what we could have been, 9/23/2008 10:57:00 PM.
Monday, September 22, 2008
some random post.
but i saw this very touching phrase just now.
so i thought i should blog about it.
hahs. provide a good tip for guys out there as well.
LOLS.
就好像每个女生都愿意去相信
对方说 ' 我很爱你 '
我再问 ' 那你会爱我多久? '
他的回答是 ' 那就要看你会让我爱你多久'
nice right?!?!?!
HAHAS.
yongxin. i finally found one v v v touching phrase le.
HAHAS. :))
but i saw this very touching phrase just now.
so i thought i should blog about it.
hahs. provide a good tip for guys out there as well.
LOLS.
就好像每个女生都愿意去相信
对方说 ' 我很爱你 '
我再问 ' 那你会爱我多久? '
他的回答是 ' 那就要看你会让我爱你多久'
nice right?!?!?!
HAHAS.
yongxin. i finally found one v v v touching phrase le.
HAHAS. :))
what we could have been, 9/22/2008 11:08:00 PM.
SUPERPOSITION= A POSITION TT IS SUPER!
LOLS. okok. abit lame here.
yupps. i did superposition with ohoh today. HAHAS.
only completed part or interference.
coming to an end soon i guess. >.<
at least now i know what's what and what's not what.
HAHAS. okok. abit the lame.
but yupps.
tml's a start of a whole new day agn.
guess i'd better welcome what's in for me tml.
and say goodbye to ytd and today. :))
JIAYOUU bah!
LOLS. okok. abit lame here.
yupps. i did superposition with ohoh today. HAHAS.
only completed part or interference.
coming to an end soon i guess. >.<
at least now i know what's what and what's not what.
HAHAS. okok. abit the lame.
but yupps.
tml's a start of a whole new day agn.
guess i'd better welcome what's in for me tml.
and say goodbye to ytd and today. :))
JIAYOUU bah!
what we could have been, 9/22/2008 10:39:00 PM.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
GP makes me zZzZzZzZzz + unproductive.
i have been doing my gp essay plans+research since 12pm.
i just completed them at 73opm.
so that means i took 7hours30minutes to complete.
GOSH. im like super super unproductive lah. :((
this is so so bad. i've been slacking too much ytd.
i only did set 3 and mjc paper 2.
so slack loh. i think im going sch to study next sat.
staying at home just makes me wanna zZzZZZzzzz.
just an overview of what i did ytd.
930am- kor woke me up asking me what i want from mac for breakfast.
went back to sleep after that.
10am- alarm rang. i snoozed it for nearly half an hour.
1030am- kor finally came home with breakfast.
woke up and ate my breakfast.
11am- on the TV and layed on my bed.
2pm- got off my bed and on my com.
3pm- went back to watching TV. feeling very sleepy.
layed on my bed again trying to force myself to sleep.
but to no avail.
4pm- mum bought lunch home. i ate and went back to use com.
8pm- bathed.
830pm- finally took out my maths set 3 n get down to work.
10pm- completed math n took chem mjc paper 2 out.
1230am- finally completed mjc paper 2. then went to watch tv.
2am- went to bed.
see see see.
super super de unproductive loh.
so i think next sat i'll be going to sch to study le.
if not i can just forget about studying. >.<
ugh. super angry with myself for not having a sense of urgency.
ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh. *slap slap* XD
Even if happiness forgets you a little bit,
never completely forget about it.
~Jacques Prévert
i have been doing my gp essay plans+research since 12pm.
i just completed them at 73opm.
so that means i took 7hours30minutes to complete.
GOSH. im like super super unproductive lah. :((
this is so so bad. i've been slacking too much ytd.
i only did set 3 and mjc paper 2.
so slack loh. i think im going sch to study next sat.
staying at home just makes me wanna zZzZZZzzzz.
just an overview of what i did ytd.
930am- kor woke me up asking me what i want from mac for breakfast.
went back to sleep after that.
10am- alarm rang. i snoozed it for nearly half an hour.
1030am- kor finally came home with breakfast.
woke up and ate my breakfast.
11am- on the TV and layed on my bed.
2pm- got off my bed and on my com.
3pm- went back to watching TV. feeling very sleepy.
layed on my bed again trying to force myself to sleep.
but to no avail.
4pm- mum bought lunch home. i ate and went back to use com.
8pm- bathed.
830pm- finally took out my maths set 3 n get down to work.
10pm- completed math n took chem mjc paper 2 out.
1230am- finally completed mjc paper 2. then went to watch tv.
2am- went to bed.
see see see.
super super de unproductive loh.
so i think next sat i'll be going to sch to study le.
if not i can just forget about studying. >.<
ugh. super angry with myself for not having a sense of urgency.
ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh. *slap slap* XD
Even if happiness forgets you a little bit,
never completely forget about it.
~Jacques Prévert
what we could have been, 9/21/2008 07:36:00 PM.
Saturday, September 20, 2008
SAD-ED. EMO-ED. CRIED. DISAPPOINTED.
something happened today. something not very pleasant.
i just felt very disappointed. with some people.
maybe i should blame myself instead.
i guess i've been doing so much for others.
always putting them before me.
to the extent that they no longer make the effort to know how i feel.
is this what i get for being too nice. too tolerant. too happy-go-lucky?
that im taken for granted & not being respected?
arent promises meant to be kept?
why is it that those promises are always broken?
im fine with everything. always going with the flow.
never once complained of the troubles i had to go thru'.
and does this mean that some people can just go overboard?
and break their promises that they've made with me?
*sigh*
initially,i wanted to bury this deep down in my heart.
forget about this matter n just remain ignorant.
but i almost suffocated. to death.
luckily dear peili kept me thru'.
THANKS PEILI! :))
i really felt so much better after telling u.
truckloads loves.
but then again.
im just really very disappointed.
mum questioned me again today.
she was puzzled as to why it happened this way.
i told her few months back then.
but when she knew it wasnt the case after that incident.
she kept probing in & it really triggered me even more.
she's pratically rubbing into my wound.
cant she also feel that im hurting inside now.
i just dont get it why my beloved ones just dont understand how i truly feel.
or rather at least make the effort to find out how i really feel.
why is it only me who's constantly making the effort?
i just dont get it. seriously.
it just disappoints me a lot. and i mean a lot.
truly deeply heartbreaking.
guess im just the post-it sticker.
people use me when they need it.
and after using it, they just throw it away.
it's convenient and u can get it easily.
just some reference to the 'fated to love u' drama.
i just like the post-it sticker girl in that show.
*sigh*
guess im just not significant enough. :((
something happened today. something not very pleasant.
i just felt very disappointed. with some people.
maybe i should blame myself instead.
i guess i've been doing so much for others.
always putting them before me.
to the extent that they no longer make the effort to know how i feel.
is this what i get for being too nice. too tolerant. too happy-go-lucky?
that im taken for granted & not being respected?
arent promises meant to be kept?
why is it that those promises are always broken?
im fine with everything. always going with the flow.
never once complained of the troubles i had to go thru'.
and does this mean that some people can just go overboard?
and break their promises that they've made with me?
*sigh*
initially,i wanted to bury this deep down in my heart.
forget about this matter n just remain ignorant.
but i almost suffocated. to death.
luckily dear peili kept me thru'.
THANKS PEILI! :))
i really felt so much better after telling u.
truckloads loves.
but then again.
im just really very disappointed.
mum questioned me again today.
she was puzzled as to why it happened this way.
i told her few months back then.
but when she knew it wasnt the case after that incident.
she kept probing in & it really triggered me even more.
she's pratically rubbing into my wound.
cant she also feel that im hurting inside now.
i just dont get it why my beloved ones just dont understand how i truly feel.
or rather at least make the effort to find out how i really feel.
why is it only me who's constantly making the effort?
i just dont get it. seriously.
it just disappoints me a lot. and i mean a lot.
truly deeply heartbreaking.
guess im just the post-it sticker.
people use me when they need it.
and after using it, they just throw it away.
it's convenient and u can get it easily.
just some reference to the 'fated to love u' drama.
i just like the post-it sticker girl in that show.
*sigh*
guess im just not significant enough. :((
Labels: disappointed.
what we could have been, 9/20/2008 08:40:00 PM.
RANDOM BUT........
IT'S REALLY A NICE SONG! :))
*credits to rice*
你微微的笑温暖我心
让我有了冲劲动力
于是又鼓起了勇气
决定要疯狂爱上你
千千万万的爱意
等不及
凉风徐徐的提醒
我和你
只欠一句我爱你
没胆亲口告诉你
想要照顾你
好好疼你
只差一句你答应
点头说你也愿意
和我在一起
手牵着你
紧紧抱着你
千千万万的爱意
等不及
凉风徐徐的提醒
我和你
只欠一句我爱你
没胆亲口告诉你
想要照顾你
好好疼你
只差一句你答应
点头说你也愿意
和我在一起
手牵着你
紧紧抱着你
盛夏的回忆
在偷偷想起
你就是剩下的唯一
我站在这里
用最真的心
想对你说请相信
我们之间距离
只欠一句我爱你
没胆亲口告诉你
想要照顾你
好好疼你
只差一句你答应
点头说你也愿意
和我在一起
手牵着你
紧紧抱着你
手牵着你
紧紧抱着你
IT'S REALLY A NICE SONG! :))
*credits to rice*
你微微的笑温暖我心
让我有了冲劲动力
于是又鼓起了勇气
决定要疯狂爱上你
千千万万的爱意
等不及
凉风徐徐的提醒
我和你
只欠一句我爱你
没胆亲口告诉你
想要照顾你
好好疼你
只差一句你答应
点头说你也愿意
和我在一起
手牵着你
紧紧抱着你
千千万万的爱意
等不及
凉风徐徐的提醒
我和你
只欠一句我爱你
没胆亲口告诉你
想要照顾你
好好疼你
只差一句你答应
点头说你也愿意
和我在一起
手牵着你
紧紧抱着你
盛夏的回忆
在偷偷想起
你就是剩下的唯一
我站在这里
用最真的心
想对你说请相信
我们之间距离
只欠一句我爱你
没胆亲口告诉你
想要照顾你
好好疼你
只差一句你答应
点头说你也愿意
和我在一起
手牵着你
紧紧抱着你
手牵着你
紧紧抱着你
what we could have been, 9/20/2008 05:00:00 PM.
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY XIAOHUI! :))
sch was seriously tiring ytd.
although it was supposedly to be a slack day.
HAHAS. it was indeed a slack afterall.
firstly, maths consultation was cancelled cos' anuar wasnt ard.
secondly, maths lect was v slack cos' anuar wasnt ard either.
thirdly, maths lect was v slack cos' of constant bugging by herm&shane.
tired becos' of this birthday girl & the 5K run in the evening.
it's really nice running with xian though. good motivation! hehs.
nic told me something funny ytd.
nic- 'eh may. u know what. i dreamt of u last night.'
may-'oh really? what was the dream all about?'
nic- 'i dreamt of u telling me that one of ur 'diamonds' came off frm ur watch'
may- 'OMG?! REALLY?! u know what! it really came off ytd! HAHS!'
(me nic & peili couldnt stop laughing)
this is like so freaky! dont u think so?! LOLS.
is it simply coincidence or what?! HAHAS.
i really dont know. >.<
but it's sure freaky!
slacking now cos' im super tired.
shall start later.
kor bought mac breakfast today.
was forced to eat but i felt guilty after eating.
cos' ytd i ate too much fattening food alrd. SOBBS.
the worst thing was the curry baked rice!
for once in my entire life, i've never eaten SO MUCH RICE!
i ate till i almost felt like vomitting.
and poor me was forced to finish up everything. :((
my poor stomach almost exploded. >.<
anw.
im loving life the way it is now.
no more strings attached.
no more barriers.
no more restrictions.
most imptly, it's 'free&easy' plus comfy now.
in certain aspects of cos. :))
so other than that, it's I WILL. I CAN. I AM. thing now.
pre A's and A's. i will come prepared! :))
"Self-confidence gives you the freedom
to make mistakes and cope with failure
without feeling that your world
has come to an end or
that you are a worthless person.”
sch was seriously tiring ytd.
although it was supposedly to be a slack day.
HAHAS. it was indeed a slack afterall.
firstly, maths consultation was cancelled cos' anuar wasnt ard.
secondly, maths lect was v slack cos' anuar wasnt ard either.
thirdly, maths lect was v slack cos' of constant bugging by herm&shane.
tired becos' of this birthday girl & the 5K run in the evening.
it's really nice running with xian though. good motivation! hehs.
nic told me something funny ytd.
nic- 'eh may. u know what. i dreamt of u last night.'
may-'oh really? what was the dream all about?'
nic- 'i dreamt of u telling me that one of ur 'diamonds' came off frm ur watch'
may- 'OMG?! REALLY?! u know what! it really came off ytd! HAHS!'
(me nic & peili couldnt stop laughing)
this is like so freaky! dont u think so?! LOLS.
is it simply coincidence or what?! HAHAS.
i really dont know. >.<
but it's sure freaky!
slacking now cos' im super tired.
shall start later.
kor bought mac breakfast today.
was forced to eat but i felt guilty after eating.
cos' ytd i ate too much fattening food alrd. SOBBS.
the worst thing was the curry baked rice!
for once in my entire life, i've never eaten SO MUCH RICE!
i ate till i almost felt like vomitting.
and poor me was forced to finish up everything. :((
my poor stomach almost exploded. >.<
anw.
im loving life the way it is now.
no more strings attached.
no more barriers.
no more restrictions.
most imptly, it's 'free&easy' plus comfy now.
in certain aspects of cos. :))
so other than that, it's I WILL. I CAN. I AM. thing now.
pre A's and A's. i will come prepared! :))
"Self-confidence gives you the freedom
to make mistakes and cope with failure
without feeling that your world
has come to an end or
that you are a worthless person.”
what we could have been, 9/20/2008 01:44:00 PM.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
HAPPINESS FILLS ME AS EACH DAY PASSES.
just like peili, we both dread thurs. why?
cos' thurs is the 'all brainer' day. LOLS.
as in we have to use up trillions of our brain cells on thurs.
reason being, all our tutorials fall on thurs.
furthermore, math & phy time trials fall on thurs too. :((
so thats what makes thurs super unnattractive! hehs.
im getting happier each n every day.
im getting stressed too but happy at the same time.
i dont really know the exact reason to account for this too.
maybe probably because things seems be more relaxing after tt incident.
at least my brain isnt thinking as much as it's supposed to be.
so i tend to worry less about certain things.
hence i think thats what makes me happier? hahs. not sure either.
but it's alright. im happy and thats it. hahas.
so lesliepohjiahao pon sch today. idiot him. LOLS.
i have a very 'nice' classmate by the name of lesliepohjiahao.
if u dont know him then nvm. cos u dont need to know. LOLS.
he's 'nice' cos last night, he psycho-ed me to pon sch today.
idiot lah he. hahas. he pon sch still want me to pon tgt with him.
luckily im firm with my decision. hahas.
if not peili will kill me if i pon sch. XD *kidding*
i dont wish to leave dear peili too. LOLS.
me&peili thinks that we're so fated with 'michael jackson' & his friend.
LOLS. this michael jackson has really nice sexy legs tt look like a girl.
HAHAS. which really makes us go gaga and jealous over it. XD
anw. the main point is. we are really super duper fated.
everywhere we go also will see them. LOLS. sians.
not exactly sians. but everytime we see michael jackson we feel like laughing.
and this situation can be real bad especially while we're eating.
cos' we wont be able to eat cos' we'll be too busy laughing. HAHAS.
but yeah. he has super sexy legs and i love........his legs......a lot..... =X
sherm bought this really cute 'mechanical' eraser to sch ytd.
but i only got to experiment w/ it today. hahas.
it's really cool u know. super cool. damn cool. uber cool. whatever cool. XD
all u have to do is press onto this button n it will do the erasing for u!
CUTE right?! RIGHT??! RIGHT?!?!?!?! =P
and it's so cute that when herm experimented it on shane's college tee.
the eraser dust stained shane's college tee with a white circle on it.
hahas. i couldnt stop laughing. and i practically rant on n on about it.
HAHAS. couldnt help it. =P
peili thinks ahpek is a potential sex maniac. LOLS.
super funny. but i cant dismiss that possibility either.
LOLS. his mind is just super corrupted. SUPER. =X
me- 'this eraser so cute! oh my god! *super excited*
xian- 'is the eraser strong?'
me- 'yes! very leh!' *super excited*
from behind
ahpek- ' strong?! HAHAS STRONG. ' *thinking dirty*
xian- 'why dont u use ur hand to rub? why use this mechanical eraser?'
from behind
ah pek- 'USE HAND RUB?! HAHAS. *thinking dirty again*
LOLS. ahpek super the u know lah. hahas.
peili couldnt stand him. LOLS.
we both think he needs to be brainwashed.
and he needs to be purified too. hahas.
he just loves to think dirty.
are guys all like that?
stereotypes i guess? hahas.
quotes of the day :))
memories are timeless treasures of the heart
To love means loving the unlovable. To forgive means pardoning the unpardonable. Faith means believing the unbelievable. Hope means hoping when everything seems hopeless.
G. K. Chesterton
If you want to be confident, but don’t normally act that way, today, just this once, act in the physical world the way you believe a confident person would.
Wayne Dyer
just like peili, we both dread thurs. why?
cos' thurs is the 'all brainer' day. LOLS.
as in we have to use up trillions of our brain cells on thurs.
reason being, all our tutorials fall on thurs.
furthermore, math & phy time trials fall on thurs too. :((
so thats what makes thurs super unnattractive! hehs.
im getting happier each n every day.
im getting stressed too but happy at the same time.
i dont really know the exact reason to account for this too.
maybe probably because things seems be more relaxing after tt incident.
at least my brain isnt thinking as much as it's supposed to be.
so i tend to worry less about certain things.
hence i think thats what makes me happier? hahs. not sure either.
but it's alright. im happy and thats it. hahas.
so lesliepohjiahao pon sch today. idiot him. LOLS.
i have a very 'nice' classmate by the name of lesliepohjiahao.
if u dont know him then nvm. cos u dont need to know. LOLS.
he's 'nice' cos last night, he psycho-ed me to pon sch today.
idiot lah he. hahas. he pon sch still want me to pon tgt with him.
luckily im firm with my decision. hahas.
if not peili will kill me if i pon sch. XD *kidding*
i dont wish to leave dear peili too. LOLS.
me&peili thinks that we're so fated with 'michael jackson' & his friend.
LOLS. this michael jackson has really nice sexy legs tt look like a girl.
HAHAS. which really makes us go gaga and jealous over it. XD
anw. the main point is. we are really super duper fated.
everywhere we go also will see them. LOLS. sians.
not exactly sians. but everytime we see michael jackson we feel like laughing.
and this situation can be real bad especially while we're eating.
cos' we wont be able to eat cos' we'll be too busy laughing. HAHAS.
but yeah. he has super sexy legs and i love........his legs......a lot..... =X
sherm bought this really cute 'mechanical' eraser to sch ytd.
but i only got to experiment w/ it today. hahas.
it's really cool u know. super cool. damn cool. uber cool. whatever cool. XD
all u have to do is press onto this button n it will do the erasing for u!
CUTE right?! RIGHT??! RIGHT?!?!?!?! =P
and it's so cute that when herm experimented it on shane's college tee.
the eraser dust stained shane's college tee with a white circle on it.
hahas. i couldnt stop laughing. and i practically rant on n on about it.
HAHAS. couldnt help it. =P
peili thinks ahpek is a potential sex maniac. LOLS.
super funny. but i cant dismiss that possibility either.
LOLS. his mind is just super corrupted. SUPER. =X
me- 'this eraser so cute! oh my god! *super excited*
xian- 'is the eraser strong?'
me- 'yes! very leh!' *super excited*
from behind
ahpek- ' strong?! HAHAS STRONG. ' *thinking dirty*
xian- 'why dont u use ur hand to rub? why use this mechanical eraser?'
from behind
ah pek- 'USE HAND RUB?! HAHAS. *thinking dirty again*
LOLS. ahpek super the u know lah. hahas.
peili couldnt stand him. LOLS.
we both think he needs to be brainwashed.
and he needs to be purified too. hahas.
he just loves to think dirty.
are guys all like that?
stereotypes i guess? hahas.
quotes of the day :))
memories are timeless treasures of the heart
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To love means loving the unlovable. To forgive means pardoning the unpardonable. Faith means believing the unbelievable. Hope means hoping when everything seems hopeless.
G. K. Chesterton
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If you want to be confident, but don’t normally act that way, today, just this once, act in the physical world the way you believe a confident person would.
Wayne Dyer
Labels: sleepy sleepy sleepy
what we could have been, 9/18/2008 07:34:00 PM.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
GETTING THE HANG OF IT
somehow im beginning to condition myself.
finally. yes finally. but this came a little too late though.
still. i do stop n stone for quite some time before doing my work agn.
staying out in sch till night can be tiring yet fruitful & relaxing.
somehow. i dont know why but i do dread gg home at times.
i guess it's prolly of the distractions & constant nagging by my mummy.
i seriously cant stand her when she keeps bugging me while im trying to study.
but other than that.... home's still the best. :))
finally went running with xian ytd. 5km. :))
it really feels great to run. at least i wont feel guilty after eating too much! LOLS.
initially i only targetted to complete 4km.
somehow i just decided to make it 5 cos it's a nice number! tsktsk.
stupid reasoning but yupps. hehs.
got my class into some hardcore thrashing ytd.
just wanna really apologise to them.
somehow i really didnt listen to the announcement.
then it's like i only passed the assignment to them on the day of lect itself.
and i guess luck wasnt on my side. anuar somehow decided to spot check.
TADAH. all of us had a clean sheet of paper.
and he called us back after lect.
he was like 'may, why didnt u collect the assignment?!' :((
gosh. i was like ' i forgot that there was an assignment to be collected'
DANGS. this is so so so so so saddening.
im just upset with myself. me and my responsibility thing.
guess i expect too much from myself.
idk what happened after i left.
but i heard tt he started reprimanding the rest of the class.
so sorry about tt. i promise it wont happen agn.
phy time trial p3 tml. sians.
super dont feel like sitting for it. hahas.
but no choice lah. can only try my best loh.
just no confidence mah. (p/s-fen. i cant help it. i cant boost my confidence!)
shall end of with a nice nice qoute today. :))
-Dennis Waitley
The winners in life
think constantly in terms
of I can, I will, and I am.
Losers, on the other hand,
concentrate their waking thoughts
on what they should have
or would have done,
or what they can't do.
somehow im beginning to condition myself.
finally. yes finally. but this came a little too late though.
still. i do stop n stone for quite some time before doing my work agn.
staying out in sch till night can be tiring yet fruitful & relaxing.
somehow. i dont know why but i do dread gg home at times.
i guess it's prolly of the distractions & constant nagging by my mummy.
i seriously cant stand her when she keeps bugging me while im trying to study.
but other than that.... home's still the best. :))
finally went running with xian ytd. 5km. :))
it really feels great to run. at least i wont feel guilty after eating too much! LOLS.
initially i only targetted to complete 4km.
somehow i just decided to make it 5 cos it's a nice number! tsktsk.
stupid reasoning but yupps. hehs.
got my class into some hardcore thrashing ytd.
just wanna really apologise to them.
somehow i really didnt listen to the announcement.
then it's like i only passed the assignment to them on the day of lect itself.
and i guess luck wasnt on my side. anuar somehow decided to spot check.
TADAH. all of us had a clean sheet of paper.
and he called us back after lect.
he was like 'may, why didnt u collect the assignment?!' :((
gosh. i was like ' i forgot that there was an assignment to be collected'
DANGS. this is so so so so so saddening.
im just upset with myself. me and my responsibility thing.
guess i expect too much from myself.
idk what happened after i left.
but i heard tt he started reprimanding the rest of the class.
so sorry about tt. i promise it wont happen agn.
phy time trial p3 tml. sians.
super dont feel like sitting for it. hahas.
but no choice lah. can only try my best loh.
just no confidence mah. (p/s-fen. i cant help it. i cant boost my confidence!)
shall end of with a nice nice qoute today. :))
-Dennis Waitley
The winners in life
think constantly in terms
of I can, I will, and I am.
Losers, on the other hand,
concentrate their waking thoughts
on what they should have
or would have done,
or what they can't do.
Labels: chomp chomp this friday. *whee*
what we could have been, 9/17/2008 10:40:00 PM.
Monday, September 15, 2008
MIRACLES. LOVE. FAITH.
dropped by at fen's blog just now.
and she has triggered me to blog on miracles. love. faith. :))
so i took some time off to look for qoutes which i thought was meaningful.
[and credits to fen for the first 3 qoutes]
I realize the odds, and science, are against me. But science is not the total answer; this I know, this I have learned in my lifetime. And that leaves me with the belief that miracles, no matter how inexplicable or unbelievable, are real and can occur without regard to the natural order of things.
-Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook
“Miracles happen to those who believe in them.”
-Bernard Berenson
“I have found in life that if you want a miracle you first need to do whatever it is you can do - if that's to plant, then plant; if it is to read, then read; if it is to change, then change; if it is to study, then study; if it is to work, then work; whatever you have to do. And then you will be well on your way of doing the labor that works miracles.”
-Jim Rohn
" If we live our lives as a gift it is possible to reach a blissful state of eternal happiness. It is those who live their life with a sense of entitlement that undermine peace , freedom and liberty. Know that every breath is a miracle and every moment a blessing and you will achieve your dreams."
Micheal Teal
Source: Micheal Teal - Poet , Philosopher and Shaman
Often the real test of courage is not to die, but to live.
Conte Vittorio Alfieri
Italian Dramatist
If there are a hundred stepsIn thy path to success
And ye have not reached it
In ninety-nine of them
Do not conclude
That the journey is a failure.
Press on and up...
the prizes are generally at the end of an effort,
not at its beginning...
and not to go on is to miss them.
Be valiant... have faith in yourself.
Success belongs to him
who dares to win it.
George S. Forest
this really inspired me a lot.
and i guess i shall press on and up.
work towards the A's.
cos' i'll never know the ending until i've reached it.
so jiayouu bah.
Love is what we are born with. Fear is what we learn. The spiritual journey is the unlearning of fear and prejudices and the acceptance of love back in our hearts. Love is the essential reality and our purpose on earth. To be consciously aware of it, to experience love in ourselves and others, is the meaning of life. Meaning does not lie in things. Meaning lies in us.
Marianne Williamson
"Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it...It really is worth fighting for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk everything, you risk even more."
- Erica Jong
"For every love there is a heart somewhere to receive it."
- Ivan Panin
It is better to have loved and lost than never to have lost at all.
-Samuel Butler
Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means
that you are strong enough to let go.
-American Author and Social Activist
ohkays.
this qoute was really influential.
it really gave me the courage to give up on u know.
and rest assured. i've alrd put everything behind me.
A's is my current boyfriend & i love 'him' & i hope to be loved in return.
LOLS. to be loved in return as in to recieve fab A's results next year! tsktsk.
so yupps. see the qoute! im strong enough to let it go!
so *whee* MAY IS STRONG- MENTALLY! LOLS.
yupps yupps! =P
dropped by at fen's blog just now.
and she has triggered me to blog on miracles. love. faith. :))
so i took some time off to look for qoutes which i thought was meaningful.
[and credits to fen for the first 3 qoutes]
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-Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook
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“Miracles happen to those who believe in them.”
-Bernard Berenson
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“I have found in life that if you want a miracle you first need to do whatever it is you can do - if that's to plant, then plant; if it is to read, then read; if it is to change, then change; if it is to study, then study; if it is to work, then work; whatever you have to do. And then you will be well on your way of doing the labor that works miracles.”
-Jim Rohn
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" If we live our lives as a gift it is possible to reach a blissful state of eternal happiness. It is those who live their life with a sense of entitlement that undermine peace , freedom and liberty. Know that every breath is a miracle and every moment a blessing and you will achieve your dreams."
Micheal Teal
Source: Micheal Teal - Poet , Philosopher and Shaman
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Often the real test of courage is not to die, but to live.
Conte Vittorio Alfieri
Italian Dramatist
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If there are a hundred stepsIn thy path to success
And ye have not reached it
In ninety-nine of them
Do not conclude
That the journey is a failure.
Press on and up...
the prizes are generally at the end of an effort,
not at its beginning...
and not to go on is to miss them.
Be valiant... have faith in yourself.
Success belongs to him
who dares to win it.
George S. Forest
this really inspired me a lot.
and i guess i shall press on and up.
work towards the A's.
cos' i'll never know the ending until i've reached it.
so jiayouu bah.
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Love is what we are born with. Fear is what we learn. The spiritual journey is the unlearning of fear and prejudices and the acceptance of love back in our hearts. Love is the essential reality and our purpose on earth. To be consciously aware of it, to experience love in ourselves and others, is the meaning of life. Meaning does not lie in things. Meaning lies in us.
Marianne Williamson
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"Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it...It really is worth fighting for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk everything, you risk even more."
- Erica Jong
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"For every love there is a heart somewhere to receive it."
- Ivan Panin
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It is better to have loved and lost than never to have lost at all.
-Samuel Butler
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Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means
that you are strong enough to let go.
-American Author and Social Activist
ohkays.
this qoute was really influential.
it really gave me the courage to give up on u know.
and rest assured. i've alrd put everything behind me.
A's is my current boyfriend & i love 'him' & i hope to be loved in return.
LOLS. to be loved in return as in to recieve fab A's results next year! tsktsk.
so yupps. see the qoute! im strong enough to let it go!
so *whee* MAY IS STRONG- MENTALLY! LOLS.
yupps yupps! =P
Labels: nights my loves.
what we could have been, 9/15/2008 08:55:00 PM.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
UNPRODUCTIVE WEEKEND :((
sometimes i really do wonder.........
do miracles really happen in life?
and why do people believe that true love last forever?
how can true love last forever when we humans dont even last forever?
maybe........hmmms.......i really dont know......
can someone just enlighten me? :))
ironically, though i really seem to question this statement.
somehow, deep in my heart, i choose to believe in it.
but i know in reality, this doesnt happen at all.
all those love novels which i've read so far.
they are just fantasies. fantasies that arent meant to exist in reality.
sad huh. it's just so 'reality'. HAHAS.
coming to this.
i really hope that im still a baby lying in the arms of my loved ones now.
u get all the attention, love and care - effortlessly.
everyone just wants a chance to cuddle u close in their arms.
singing a lullaby & making funny faces(but stupid) to cheer them up.
arent they just so fortunate,as compared to adults?
it's not as if i hadnt gone thru' this part of my life.
but it's just that i really miss those good times.
life's just miserable now. and i dont like it.
i hate it when relatives thinks jc life is easy.
i hate it when they ask me to get a part-time job on wkends.
i hate it when they equate me to those poly students.
and they will start saying 'i've got friends whose child are working while studying'.
'why arent u doing the same too? why are u wasting ur time?'
it's like please lah. get ur facts right.
jc is not equal to poly & vice versa.
it's just so irritating. :((
i dont know how am i gg to face them if i really cant get thru' A's.
i dont know how am i gg to face them if i were to repeat my 2nd year.
i really dont know how. *sigh*
guess i'd better not think of the IFs now.
shall just get down to work & work towards good grades bah.
JIAYOUU. :))
anw.
im yearning to learn french now!
and i've learnt a new french word today- C'est La Vie :))
it means 'thats life'. the way they pronounce word is just so SEXY! XD
now i know why some people says that french is one of the sexiest language.
so yupps. hahas. C'est La Vie. hehs.
nights.
sometimes i really do wonder.........
do miracles really happen in life?
and why do people believe that true love last forever?
how can true love last forever when we humans dont even last forever?
maybe........hmmms.......i really dont know......
can someone just enlighten me? :))
ironically, though i really seem to question this statement.
somehow, deep in my heart, i choose to believe in it.
but i know in reality, this doesnt happen at all.
all those love novels which i've read so far.
they are just fantasies. fantasies that arent meant to exist in reality.
sad huh. it's just so 'reality'. HAHAS.
coming to this.
i really hope that im still a baby lying in the arms of my loved ones now.
u get all the attention, love and care - effortlessly.
everyone just wants a chance to cuddle u close in their arms.
singing a lullaby & making funny faces(but stupid) to cheer them up.
arent they just so fortunate,as compared to adults?
it's not as if i hadnt gone thru' this part of my life.
but it's just that i really miss those good times.
life's just miserable now. and i dont like it.
i hate it when relatives thinks jc life is easy.
i hate it when they ask me to get a part-time job on wkends.
i hate it when they equate me to those poly students.
and they will start saying 'i've got friends whose child are working while studying'.
'why arent u doing the same too? why are u wasting ur time?'
it's like please lah. get ur facts right.
jc is not equal to poly & vice versa.
it's just so irritating. :((
i dont know how am i gg to face them if i really cant get thru' A's.
i dont know how am i gg to face them if i were to repeat my 2nd year.
i really dont know how. *sigh*
guess i'd better not think of the IFs now.
shall just get down to work & work towards good grades bah.
JIAYOUU. :))
anw.
im yearning to learn french now!
and i've learnt a new french word today- C'est La Vie :))
it means 'thats life'. the way they pronounce word is just so SEXY! XD
now i know why some people says that french is one of the sexiest language.
so yupps. hahas. C'est La Vie. hehs.
nights.
Labels: french is the sex.
what we could have been, 9/14/2008 11:36:00 PM.
REFLECTIONS
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saw this post at fenfen's blog just now.
and it somehow enlightened me.
so i thought maybe i could share with u guys too. :))
it's really meaningful.
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It was so damn hard to find love in this world, to locate someone who could make you feel that there was a reason you'd been put on this earth. A child, I imagined, was the purest form of that. A child was the love you didn't have to look for, didn't have to prove anything to, and didn't have to worry about losing. Which is why, when it happened, it hurt so badly.There are also sorts of experiences that we can't really put a name to.
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The birth of a child, for one. Or the death of a parent. Falling in love. Words are like nets - we hope they'll cover what we mean, but we know they can't possibly hold that much joy, or grief, or wonder. Finding God is like that too. If it's happened to you, you know what it feels like. But try to describe it to someone else - and language only takes you so far.
-Jodi Picoult, Change of Heart
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oh~~塞纳河的水 是心的眼
泪流过了 一去不回
我会在你的记忆 看到我自己
看到了结局爱在错过后 更珍惜
oh~~塞纳河的水 是心的眼
泪流过了 漂泊的 人生风景
愿我们各自都有
美好的一生美好的憧憬
爱在遗憾里 更清晰
Labels: that's life- c'est la vie
what we could have been, 9/14/2008 11:39:00 AM.
Saturday, September 13, 2008
CINNAMONROLL SUGARBUNNIES U*SA*HA*NA
before i really blog.
just a note: please please let me know if u see this pencil case(pic below)
ohkey pohkey dohkey?!?!?!?! :))
i've been going lala~ over sanrio characters lately.
especially those 3 which i've mentioned at the very top. :))
i dont know why but they make me smile when i see them. hahas.
dont you think that they are super duper cute?!?!? hehes.
SUGAERBUNNIESu know why i like sugarbunnies in particular?
but first. FYI. Shirousa is the white bunny & Kurousa is the brown one. :))
These twin brothers bake delicious treats for people with special dreams and wishes,
because when they are eaten a magical thing occurs!
it's really a very nice fairytale.
how i really wished sugarbunnies existed.
thats why i really love them a lot.
they are like u know..... our hopes? :))
but yah. it's reality afterall.
U*SA*HA*NA
hebe loves her too! so do i! XD
i happen to chance upon this picture while surfing the net.
i was like 'ohmy. this is SUPER cute!' when i first saw this.
i dont really like or rather i dont like hello kitty at all.
but this is really so so so so so so unique.
i wonder if she makes cinnamonroll, sugarbunnies & u*sa*ha*na too.
haahs. it's really like WOW. i mean who makes such stuff right? :))
i think my heart will melt if someone, just anyone, no sexual preferences.
gives me a bouquet of such flowers w/ cinnamonroll,
sugarbunnies or u*sa*ha*na! tsktsk.
ohkays. before i end.
please please help me keep a lookout for the cinnamonroll box
when u guys are out somehwere kkays?! hehs. THANKS! :))
what we could have been, 9/13/2008 11:05:00 PM.
Friday, September 12, 2008
INDESCRIBABLE
weekend is finally here! :))
ohkays. actually im not that looking forward to it.
i seriously dont know why. weird eh?
but i guess prolly cos' i know tt it also means A's is a day closer.
i just cant describe the kind of fear that's built up in me.
it's just....... just....... just there.
studied in sch today w dear yongyong & xian.
somehow it wasnt as productive as i expected to be.
doing physics just makes me super unproductive :((
had chem consultation w mstan today.
somehow we chatted more than i consulted. LOLS.
but nvm! i love teachers whom i can chat happily with!
i complain to her about many things too.
and i didnt know that she misses her S6 so much.
she dont miss S5... so sad.... HAHAS.
and i've got 3 mini chupa chups from mstan today!
SO HAPPY! hehes. XD
just got home from sch today.
time noted: 1026pm
actually not exactly back from sch.
went w dad to pick my mum from my granny's house after i left sch.
and we waited 1 hour for her u know. i was a lil' pissed off.
but not exactly lah. just that i was TOO TIRED le.
so i just fell asleep in the car & nap for an hour.
feeling kind of sleepy now too.
so i shall slack for a teeny weeny bit before i go to bed. :))
and i just rmb-ed.
my econs essay was used as a model ans again.
super paiseh lah. handwriting super ugly.
this is my 1ST & i really mean 1ST time writing so fugly-ly. LOLS.
no face to see people le. >.<
something happen today that didnt make me feel too good.
i tried my very best to face the matter positively.
but somehow it still seems very weird. i dont know.
i just dont know how to put it in words. just weird u know.
*sigh*
maybe..............
weekend is finally here! :))
ohkays. actually im not that looking forward to it.
i seriously dont know why. weird eh?
but i guess prolly cos' i know tt it also means A's is a day closer.
i just cant describe the kind of fear that's built up in me.
it's just....... just....... just there.
studied in sch today w dear yongyong & xian.
somehow it wasnt as productive as i expected to be.
doing physics just makes me super unproductive :((
had chem consultation w mstan today.
somehow we chatted more than i consulted. LOLS.
but nvm! i love teachers whom i can chat happily with!
i complain to her about many things too.
and i didnt know that she misses her S6 so much.
she dont miss S5... so sad.... HAHAS.
and i've got 3 mini chupa chups from mstan today!
SO HAPPY! hehes. XD
just got home from sch today.
time noted: 1026pm
actually not exactly back from sch.
went w dad to pick my mum from my granny's house after i left sch.
and we waited 1 hour for her u know. i was a lil' pissed off.
but not exactly lah. just that i was TOO TIRED le.
so i just fell asleep in the car & nap for an hour.
feeling kind of sleepy now too.
so i shall slack for a teeny weeny bit before i go to bed. :))
and i just rmb-ed.
my econs essay was used as a model ans again.
super paiseh lah. handwriting super ugly.
this is my 1ST & i really mean 1ST time writing so fugly-ly. LOLS.
no face to see people le. >.<
something happen today that didnt make me feel too good.
i tried my very best to face the matter positively.
but somehow it still seems very weird. i dont know.
i just dont know how to put it in words. just weird u know.
*sigh*
maybe..............
Labels: should i......
what we could have been, 9/12/2008 10:09:00 PM.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
SLEEPY
ohmy. im seriously seriously very very TIRED. :((
im so glad tt i could finally go home before 8pm.
it has really been a very tiring day u know.
i just dont like thurs. super packed lah.
especially with the phy time trial from 330-5pm.
it can really really be very taxing.
and my brain just cant think at all.
today was paper 2 & i was already dying. HAHAS.
what's more next thurs would be paper 3!
i think i will faint on the spot lah. >.<
now i've got 3physics consultation a week. *sigh*
i've got to endure. it's just for less than 2more months.
think thats about it. shall go do my chem revision le.
maybe i shall come back later or something.
see my mood first. HAHAS.
if i really KO-ed. then i dont think i coming back.
HAHAS. aiyah. in short, see my mood lah. =P
i talk too much le.
S.H.E—沿海公路的出口
专辑《我的电台》
用半截烟蒂烧一场蜃楼
借着场大雨让自己逃走
荒忙公路无人的漂泊
寂寞海啸把我卷走
倘若放一次手 像咳一个嗽
我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔
我睡在公路的出口
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
路灯一盏一盏的破
连想你都是种残酷的切磋
我目送沿海的日落
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
学会宽容懂得放手
未知的前路让我 慢慢游走
（未完的一切让它 子虚乌有）
用一段感情换一个朋友
每一句再见割一到伤口
躺在万劫不复的街头
微笑参透覆水难收
ohmy. im seriously seriously very very TIRED. :((
im so glad tt i could finally go home before 8pm.
it has really been a very tiring day u know.
i just dont like thurs. super packed lah.
especially with the phy time trial from 330-5pm.
it can really really be very taxing.
and my brain just cant think at all.
today was paper 2 & i was already dying. HAHAS.
what's more next thurs would be paper 3!
i think i will faint on the spot lah. >.<
now i've got 3physics consultation a week. *sigh*
i've got to endure. it's just for less than 2more months.
think thats about it. shall go do my chem revision le.
maybe i shall come back later or something.
see my mood first. HAHAS.
if i really KO-ed. then i dont think i coming back.
HAHAS. aiyah. in short, see my mood lah. =P
i talk too much le.
S.H.E—沿海公路的出口
专辑《我的电台》
用半截烟蒂烧一场蜃楼
借着场大雨让自己逃走
荒忙公路无人的漂泊
寂寞海啸把我卷走
倘若放一次手 像咳一个嗽
我又何苦在乎得不到的温柔
我睡在公路的出口
等待天黑以后无边的寂寞
路灯一盏一盏的破
连想你都是种残酷的切磋
我目送沿海的日落
紧抱一个醉生梦死的枕头
学会宽容懂得放手
未知的前路让我 慢慢游走
（未完的一切让它 子虚乌有）
用一段感情换一个朋友
每一句再见割一到伤口
躺在万劫不复的街头
微笑参透覆水难收
what we could have been, 9/11/2008 07:18:00 PM.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
HAPPY YET SAD. HYPER YET EXHUASTED.
ohkays.
today was so-called the START of my NEW LIFE :))
it was kind of a good-but-not-that-good-day to start ANEW.
by today. i would have gotten ALL my PRELIMS results alrd.
to set aside PHYSICS. im relatively fine but not satisfied w the results.
just a view of my PRELIMS results:
General Paper- S
Economics- D
Mathematics- S
Chemistry- D
Physics- U
the reason why i said i was relatively fine w the results was becos'
i didnt PASS (i dont mean a sub-pass but a pass of E) any subjects for MYE.
thats how bad it really was for MYE.
but at least now it's a totally different story.
at least i made improvements thou' not significant for my prelims.
maybe thats 1 good thing i should be happy abt setting aside physics yah.
now lets re-visit my MYE results:
General Paper- U
Economics- S
Mathematics- S
Chemistry- S
Physics- U
see the difference? :))
i was kind of surprised when i got back my econs paper.
[1] i predicted that i would only get 5marks for case 2 & i really did! PRO ME!
[2] i didnt expect to get >20 for my essay :))
[3] i didnt expect myself to get above S.
[4] most imptly, i didnt expect to get myself a D. :))
seriously.
i was really surprised when i total up the marks.
it's like 'am i dreaming?!oh please give me a tight slap' kind of feeling. HAHAS.
physics banding wasnt that bad.
just that i miss complaining to peili about phy during phy! LOLS.
so i got sandwhiched btw timo&leslie. HAHAS.
but nvm. im just glad that i've got MrOh as the tutor for my band :))
idk why but it's only the 3rd day of sch & i feel like im gg to faint soon.
actually, i almost died on the 1st day of sch.
FIRST DAY of sch leh. i was already falling asleep during lect/tut >.<
somehow after the sept break, i've become MORE stressed.
and most imptly, i seem to be more exhuasted/sleepy than ever.
thats not a very good thing cos i cant concentrate in sch.
today's 6pm phy consultation was horrible lah.
i almost fell asleep but i cant u know.
thats 1 good/bad thing about 1 to 1 consultation.
good in a way that u would try to keep urself awake & absorb the info.
bad in a way that u would be questioned & when u cant think, it's really bad.
HAHAS. aiyah. cant help it mah. my FIRST 1 to 1 consultation.
sometimes 1 to 2 consultation i will stone for awhile. hehs. =P
yahloh. like that loh. now my eyes like cmi le.
eyelids as heavy as uhm..... elephant?! kekes.
aiyah. cant think le lah. brain dead- very dead.
stop here le. tml's gg to be a LONG day. :((
i need some pill to keep me awake-WIDE AWAKE.
ohkays.
today was so-called the START of my NEW LIFE :))
it was kind of a good-but-not-that-good-day to start ANEW.
by today. i would have gotten ALL my PRELIMS results alrd.
to set aside PHYSICS. im relatively fine but not satisfied w the results.
just a view of my PRELIMS results:
General Paper- S
Economics- D
Mathematics- S
Chemistry- D
Physics- U
the reason why i said i was relatively fine w the results was becos'
i didnt PASS (i dont mean a sub-pass but a pass of E) any subjects for MYE.
thats how bad it really was for MYE.
but at least now it's a totally different story.
at least i made improvements thou' not significant for my prelims.
maybe thats 1 good thing i should be happy abt setting aside physics yah.
now lets re-visit my MYE results:
General Paper- U
Economics- S
Mathematics- S
Chemistry- S
Physics- U
see the difference? :))
i was kind of surprised when i got back my econs paper.
[1] i predicted that i would only get 5marks for case 2 & i really did! PRO ME!
[2] i didnt expect to get >20 for my essay :))
[3] i didnt expect myself to get above S.
[4] most imptly, i didnt expect to get myself a D. :))
seriously.
i was really surprised when i total up the marks.
it's like 'am i dreaming?!oh please give me a tight slap' kind of feeling. HAHAS.
physics banding wasnt that bad.
just that i miss complaining to peili about phy during phy! LOLS.
so i got sandwhiched btw timo&leslie. HAHAS.
but nvm. im just glad that i've got MrOh as the tutor for my band :))
idk why but it's only the 3rd day of sch & i feel like im gg to faint soon.
actually, i almost died on the 1st day of sch.
FIRST DAY of sch leh. i was already falling asleep during lect/tut >.<
somehow after the sept break, i've become MORE stressed.
and most imptly, i seem to be more exhuasted/sleepy than ever.
thats not a very good thing cos i cant concentrate in sch.
today's 6pm phy consultation was horrible lah.
i almost fell asleep but i cant u know.
thats 1 good/bad thing about 1 to 1 consultation.
good in a way that u would try to keep urself awake & absorb the info.
bad in a way that u would be questioned & when u cant think, it's really bad.
HAHAS. aiyah. cant help it mah. my FIRST 1 to 1 consultation.
sometimes 1 to 2 consultation i will stone for awhile. hehs. =P
yahloh. like that loh. now my eyes like cmi le.
eyelids as heavy as uhm..... elephant?! kekes.
aiyah. cant think le lah. brain dead- very dead.
stop here le. tml's gg to be a LONG day. :((
i need some pill to keep me awake-WIDE AWAKE.
what we could have been, 9/10/2008 10:21:00 PM.
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
IT'S TIME TO START AFRESH FROM TML ONWARDS.
ohkays.
as i promised myself ytd.
today shall be the end of 2days of emo-ing.
but seriously.
today was a very very very bad day to begin with.
mroh finally talked to me this morning after assembly.
apparantly, i could sense that he was trying to be not so direct.
but somehow, i guess he was able to express himself well enough.
and of cos', he said things that were very insensitive.
tears filled my eyes when he talked to me.
but i held them back somehow.
tears finally rolled down after i walked off.
but luckily i managed to control my emotions.
i guess dear peili&xian didnt know what to do with me.
i told xian to leave me alone before talking to me abt anything agn.
cos' i would cry even more if she were to cont' consolling me.
whole new GP banding tml again. i'll miss dear peili. :((
i've only got myself to blame for not doing well for paper 2.
me&peili's paper 1 same standard de so overall she still do better.
then it's like hai. at most get an S only loh. demoralising.
at least she can pass her GP with at least a D or E.
maths p2 was alright cos' i managed to pass.
BUT maths p1 was very badly done. 29marks.
if it werent for P1 i could have passed my maths.
ugh!!!!!!!!!! as i flipped thru' my paper 1.
i realised that i must have been possessed during the exams.
somehow the graph is in the gc for me to see.
i drew the graph exactly the way it is.
BUT. somehow i dont know why it shifted 1unit down the graph. -.-
GOSH. and the steps also! careless careless careless!
cant stand myself u know.
*sigh*
emo-ed the whole day today.
uhm. i mean 3/4 of the day today. :((
managed to cheer myself up for a moment today.
maybe a little during lunch cos' of stupid xh/wt who made me laughed.
and after which i made peili&xian laugh like mad cos of the char siew!
poor me right. sad le still try & make people laugh. >.<
but nvm. at least i enjoyed myself at that very moment.
then thanks to mdm saddiah who made me happy during econs.
somehow i guess heaven made her HIGH to cheer me up. hehs. XD
studied phy after sch.
it was a good start but not as good.
however i still couldnt finish nuclear today.
but at least i kind of know part of the sub topics.
seriously idk wth nuclear was abt before the prelims.
thanks to yongyong for accompanying me tonight too.
complained quite a lot to her too.
sharing our experiences n sutffs.
it was really great to have her by my side! :))
lets have more of these sesssions ohkays??
haahs. i know must book one day in advance de! LOLS.
我相信这段童话故事并不属于我
紧紧抓住也没有用 放手也许会更好过
一定要永远相信 终有一天
我会找到一个 非我莫属的童话故事
也是时候踏出这个圈圈了
好好看清楚这个世界
也许会发现这个世界
并不是想象中的那么黑白
记得 一定要相信.......
before i end off.
share something which bff told me tt enlightened me.
失恋是另一段感情的开始. :))
ohkays.
as i promised myself ytd.
today shall be the end of 2days of emo-ing.
but seriously.
today was a very very very bad day to begin with.
mroh finally talked to me this morning after assembly.
apparantly, i could sense that he was trying to be not so direct.
but somehow, i guess he was able to express himself well enough.
and of cos', he said things that were very insensitive.
tears filled my eyes when he talked to me.
but i held them back somehow.
tears finally rolled down after i walked off.
but luckily i managed to control my emotions.
i guess dear peili&xian didnt know what to do with me.
i told xian to leave me alone before talking to me abt anything agn.
cos' i would cry even more if she were to cont' consolling me.
whole new GP banding tml again. i'll miss dear peili. :((
i've only got myself to blame for not doing well for paper 2.
me&peili's paper 1 same standard de so overall she still do better.
then it's like hai. at most get an S only loh. demoralising.
at least she can pass her GP with at least a D or E.
maths p2 was alright cos' i managed to pass.
BUT maths p1 was very badly done. 29marks.
if it werent for P1 i could have passed my maths.
ugh!!!!!!!!!! as i flipped thru' my paper 1.
i realised that i must have been possessed during the exams.
somehow the graph is in the gc for me to see.
i drew the graph exactly the way it is.
BUT. somehow i dont know why it shifted 1unit down the graph. -.-
GOSH. and the steps also! careless careless careless!
cant stand myself u know.
*sigh*
emo-ed the whole day today.
uhm. i mean 3/4 of the day today. :((
managed to cheer myself up for a moment today.
maybe a little during lunch cos' of stupid xh/wt who made me laughed.
and after which i made peili&xian laugh like mad cos of the char siew!
poor me right. sad le still try & make people laugh. >.<
but nvm. at least i enjoyed myself at that very moment.
then thanks to mdm saddiah who made me happy during econs.
somehow i guess heaven made her HIGH to cheer me up. hehs. XD
studied phy after sch.
it was a good start but not as good.
however i still couldnt finish nuclear today.
but at least i kind of know part of the sub topics.
seriously idk wth nuclear was abt before the prelims.
thanks to yongyong for accompanying me tonight too.
complained quite a lot to her too.
sharing our experiences n sutffs.
it was really great to have her by my side! :))
lets have more of these sesssions ohkays??
haahs. i know must book one day in advance de! LOLS.
我相信这段童话故事并不属于我
紧紧抓住也没有用 放手也许会更好过
一定要永远相信 终有一天
我会找到一个 非我莫属的童话故事
也是时候踏出这个圈圈了
好好看清楚这个世界
也许会发现这个世界
并不是想象中的那么黑白
记得 一定要相信.......
before i end off.
share something which bff told me tt enlightened me.
失恋是另一段感情的开始. :))
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what we could have been, 9/09/2008 10:22:00 PM.
