Saturday, September 20, 2008
SAD-ED. EMO-ED. CRIED. DISAPPOINTED.
something happened today. something not very pleasant.
i just felt very disappointed. with some people.
maybe i should blame myself instead.
i guess i've been doing so much for others.
always putting them before me.
to the extent that they no longer make the effort to know how i feel.
is this what i get for being too nice. too tolerant. too happy-go-lucky?
that im taken for granted & not being respected?
arent promises meant to be kept?
why is it that those promises are always broken?
im fine with everything. always going with the flow.
never once complained of the troubles i had to go thru'.
and does this mean that some people can just go overboard?
and break their promises that they've made with me?
*sigh*
initially,i wanted to bury this deep down in my heart.
forget about this matter n just remain ignorant.
but i almost suffocated. to death.
luckily dear peili kept me thru'.
THANKS PEILI! :))
i really felt so much better after telling u.
truckloads loves.
but then again.
im just really very disappointed.
mum questioned me again today.
she was puzzled as to why it happened this way.
i told her few months back then.
but when she knew it wasnt the case after that incident.
she kept probing in & it really triggered me even more.
she's pratically rubbing into my wound.
cant she also feel that im hurting inside now.
i just dont get it why my beloved ones just dont understand how i truly feel.
or rather at least make the effort to find out how i really feel.
why is it only me who's constantly making the effort?
i just dont get it. seriously.
it just disappoints me a lot. and i mean a lot.
truly deeply heartbreaking.
guess im just the post-it sticker.
people use me when they need it.
and after using it, they just throw it away.
it's convenient and u can get it easily.
just some reference to the 'fated to love u' drama.
i just like the post-it sticker girl in that show.
*sigh*
guess im just not significant enough. :((
something happened today. something not very pleasant.
i just felt very disappointed. with some people.
maybe i should blame myself instead.
i guess i've been doing so much for others.
always putting them before me.
to the extent that they no longer make the effort to know how i feel.
is this what i get for being too nice. too tolerant. too happy-go-lucky?
that im taken for granted & not being respected?
arent promises meant to be kept?
why is it that those promises are always broken?
im fine with everything. always going with the flow.
never once complained of the troubles i had to go thru'.
and does this mean that some people can just go overboard?
and break their promises that they've made with me?
*sigh*
initially,i wanted to bury this deep down in my heart.
forget about this matter n just remain ignorant.
but i almost suffocated. to death.
luckily dear peili kept me thru'.
THANKS PEILI! :))
i really felt so much better after telling u.
truckloads loves.
but then again.
im just really very disappointed.
mum questioned me again today.
she was puzzled as to why it happened this way.
i told her few months back then.
but when she knew it wasnt the case after that incident.
she kept probing in & it really triggered me even more.
she's pratically rubbing into my wound.
cant she also feel that im hurting inside now.
i just dont get it why my beloved ones just dont understand how i truly feel.
or rather at least make the effort to find out how i really feel.
why is it only me who's constantly making the effort?
i just dont get it. seriously.
it just disappoints me a lot. and i mean a lot.
truly deeply heartbreaking.
guess im just the post-it sticker.
people use me when they need it.
and after using it, they just throw it away.
it's convenient and u can get it easily.
just some reference to the 'fated to love u' drama.
i just like the post-it sticker girl in that show.
*sigh*
guess im just not significant enough. :((
Labels: disappointed.
what we could have been, 9/20/2008 08:40:00 PM.
