Wednesday, April 16, 2008
the day started quite well but i ended up emoing.
morning was quite alright.
i enjoyed my stay at choir's booth.
kinda last min thing though.
but i enjoyed it cos i got so many free food frm many ppl! XD
marshmallows/cookies/twisties/satays/jellies....LOLS.
i can say hello to my new friend-1kg. -.-
most imptly,i could enjoy watching matches tt were ongoing.
it was very entertaining to watch the teachers pit against the students.
volleyball is really nice. HAHAS. ah jiang so cool! =D
become a dummy some time in the afternn.
it was eriously stupid n unconvincing though.
and most imptly, so dulan.
i got a pic of myself taken with the other 2winners with 'my' medal.
i got a shock when they said they were gg to take a pic!
ohman. this is seriously so dulian.
and the most dulian part was the winner was bside me but i didnt even know.
then i ben4 ben4 de4 walk up n take the medal.
ohwell. it's all over.
got very moody+emo in the late afternn.
reagarding some very sensitive issues so i shall not tok abt it here.
but i was really really really super upset.
sometimes i really think i can no longer cope with it.
i feel so tired faking many things. my smile n everything.
i try very hard to liven things up but sometimes it just doesnt work.
i get very lil' or rather no response at all. -hai-
i've really tried very hard to accomodate to everything.
but it seems so pointless doing so.
i just get nothing in return.
i know this is how fate wants my life to be.
but then again, i really cant take it.
aftr today's SR olympics, i somehow found a different may.
and i had many regrets today. :(
i became very solemn. erm not solemn maybe.
maybe very quiet very not enthu very...... just....hai.
i miss everything and i miss myself back then.
i just cant stand being so hai.
i just feel very very xinku. this sucks.
I WANT TO BE HAPPY!
sometimes i really hope i have the courage to just let u knw.
having to keep everything within me is too much for me to handle.
morning was quite alright.
i enjoyed my stay at choir's booth.
kinda last min thing though.
but i enjoyed it cos i got so many free food frm many ppl! XD
marshmallows/cookies/twisties/satays/jellies....LOLS.
i can say hello to my new friend-1kg. -.-
most imptly,i could enjoy watching matches tt were ongoing.
it was very entertaining to watch the teachers pit against the students.
volleyball is really nice. HAHAS. ah jiang so cool! =D
become a dummy some time in the afternn.
it was eriously stupid n unconvincing though.
and most imptly, so dulan.
i got a pic of myself taken with the other 2winners with 'my' medal.
i got a shock when they said they were gg to take a pic!
ohman. this is seriously so dulian.
and the most dulian part was the winner was bside me but i didnt even know.
then i ben4 ben4 de4 walk up n take the medal.
ohwell. it's all over.
got very moody+emo in the late afternn.
reagarding some very sensitive issues so i shall not tok abt it here.
but i was really really really super upset.
sometimes i really think i can no longer cope with it.
i feel so tired faking many things. my smile n everything.
i try very hard to liven things up but sometimes it just doesnt work.
i get very lil' or rather no response at all. -hai-
i've really tried very hard to accomodate to everything.
but it seems so pointless doing so.
i just get nothing in return.
i know this is how fate wants my life to be.
but then again, i really cant take it.
aftr today's SR olympics, i somehow found a different may.
and i had many regrets today. :(
i became very solemn. erm not solemn maybe.
maybe very quiet very not enthu very...... just....hai.
i miss everything and i miss myself back then.
i just cant stand being so hai.
i just feel very very xinku. this sucks.
I WANT TO BE HAPPY!
sometimes i really hope i have the courage to just let u knw.
having to keep everything within me is too much for me to handle.
Labels: tattered and torn inside.
what we could have been, 4/16/2008 08:32:00 PM.
