Thursday, January 10, 2008
im really very very stressed out this year.
it isnt as easy i thought it to be.
but most imptly.
the teachers play a big role in the stress i got too.
seriously, they are doing all this for our OWN GOOD.
but this is seriously too much for me to handle.
i miss mryang,tantohhwee and belindalin and of cos, LTS.
SIGH.
at times, i really envy other classes.
they've got their previous tutors.
ok. maybe not all but at least ONE.
recently, i went to visit my fren's class.
i sat there for quite some time.
and the ambience there was really good.
i miss that so familiar yet stranger ambience.
teachers crap with them, etc. frens crapping ard.
how i miss those good old days.
where there were jokers ard like colin,mingkai,maybellyn etc. ard.
i really miss those crappy times. sigh.
i used to think that 2007 was the suckiest year of my entire life.
but it seems 2008 sucks so much more than 2007.
and i seriously made a wrong choice to come to SR.
i should have just stayed in Ngee Ann poly.
life would have been so much easier.
or rather i shld hav made the decision to retain.
and then i could change my combi, threw phy away.
and most imptly, build up my foundation.
but what's done cant be undone.
and the only thing is to just work hard towards my goal.
but it's really hard.
i really wanna give up RIGHT NOW!
it's like siao lah.
for tutorial u dont do ur work of cos will get punished n noted in CLR.
but dont u think it's ridiculous to be treated the same way for not reading the notes?!
it's like we've done all our assigned work.
only that we dont quite rmb about the content tts all.
and she wants us to STAND n note this down in CLR!
damnit. it's too ABSOLUTE! (LOLS.)
GP comes in. XD
ugh. ohwell. enough of ranting.
my bro went to visit the fortune teller last night.
and the fortune teller told him tt this yr he wld keep gg for operation.
-sigh- i guess it's due to his constant smoking.
and most imptly, he coops himself in the rm when he smokes.
so he's like both the smoker n passive smoker at the same time.
im so worried abt him.
plus the fortune teller also mention tt my mummy wld go for small operation nxt yr.
he's really spot on cos my mum's health really not good.
her eye retina or whatever dont knw what lah.
only know her vision is kinda blurred now.
ask her seek treatment she dont want. -sigh-
im really super damn worried.
the fortune teller is really spot on.
he even knws tt we had thought of moving house too! OHMY!
he encourages us to move hse n hav a change of envt.
but i dont want. T.T i love my place. it's super convenient.
both the purple and red mrt line are just 1-2 bus stops away!
my dad's and my life is relatively good. so im relieved! hehs.
at least i know im doing fine in my life.
but still. i think my life sucks to the max.
kk. shall just stop here.
if not it will nv end.
and i nd to do my work now. T.T
so no life.
it isnt as easy i thought it to be.
but most imptly.
the teachers play a big role in the stress i got too.
seriously, they are doing all this for our OWN GOOD.
but this is seriously too much for me to handle.
i miss mryang,tantohhwee and belindalin and of cos, LTS.
SIGH.
at times, i really envy other classes.
they've got their previous tutors.
ok. maybe not all but at least ONE.
recently, i went to visit my fren's class.
i sat there for quite some time.
and the ambience there was really good.
i miss that so familiar yet stranger ambience.
teachers crap with them, etc. frens crapping ard.
how i miss those good old days.
where there were jokers ard like colin,mingkai,maybellyn etc. ard.
i really miss those crappy times. sigh.
i used to think that 2007 was the suckiest year of my entire life.
but it seems 2008 sucks so much more than 2007.
and i seriously made a wrong choice to come to SR.
i should have just stayed in Ngee Ann poly.
life would have been so much easier.
or rather i shld hav made the decision to retain.
and then i could change my combi, threw phy away.
and most imptly, build up my foundation.
but what's done cant be undone.
and the only thing is to just work hard towards my goal.
but it's really hard.
i really wanna give up RIGHT NOW!
it's like siao lah.
for tutorial u dont do ur work of cos will get punished n noted in CLR.
but dont u think it's ridiculous to be treated the same way for not reading the notes?!
it's like we've done all our assigned work.
only that we dont quite rmb about the content tts all.
and she wants us to STAND n note this down in CLR!
damnit. it's too ABSOLUTE! (LOLS.)
GP comes in. XD
ugh. ohwell. enough of ranting.
my bro went to visit the fortune teller last night.
and the fortune teller told him tt this yr he wld keep gg for operation.
-sigh- i guess it's due to his constant smoking.
and most imptly, he coops himself in the rm when he smokes.
so he's like both the smoker n passive smoker at the same time.
im so worried abt him.
plus the fortune teller also mention tt my mummy wld go for small operation nxt yr.
he's really spot on cos my mum's health really not good.
her eye retina or whatever dont knw what lah.
only know her vision is kinda blurred now.
ask her seek treatment she dont want. -sigh-
im really super damn worried.
the fortune teller is really spot on.
he even knws tt we had thought of moving house too! OHMY!
he encourages us to move hse n hav a change of envt.
but i dont want. T.T i love my place. it's super convenient.
both the purple and red mrt line are just 1-2 bus stops away!
my dad's and my life is relatively good. so im relieved! hehs.
at least i know im doing fine in my life.
but still. i think my life sucks to the max.
kk. shall just stop here.
if not it will nv end.
and i nd to do my work now. T.T
so no life.
Labels: im feeling numb now.
what we could have been, 1/10/2008 06:34:00 PM.
