Saturday, April 11, 2009

have been MIA-ing for the past 1week.
reason being kor took the lappy away cos' his one was down.
and he needed to use it for his work so yupps.
i was lappy-less for the past 1week.
i survived this whole week with 'table of glory' and 'offline diary'.

5th april-TOPONE with loves.
great day. great fun. great companion.
but still certain songs, certain lyrcis reminded me of you.

6th april- PRESTAT @ TAKA
morning shift for first day of work.
sucks totally cos' i was seriously exhuasted.
no mood for work cos' im still trying to stop thinking about what u said.

11th april(part 1)- work+royce chocs+OUTING w/ yiling&hanrong.
dear ling&her friend(JESSLY) popped by at PRESTAT early today! :D
we barely knew each other for an hour and hr thought we were workmates! >.<

HAHAS. cooooooooooooooooooooooool :D

we were so tempted by royce chocs so much so tt we bought the dark ones.

and we gobbled approx 7 each in less than 30min! >.<

had dinner..bball-ed at cine..supper at BBQ Chicken. =.=

hr had 3meals with us since dinner! LOLS.

11th april(part 2)- enlisted. (but i freaking didnt know about it *sigh*)

had a freaking dream of him last night. seriously not a good one.

visited his site the moment i got home and damnit.

this is freaking @!$#%^$^%&*&*^&(*)&

wrong choice that i've made. too wrong. T.T

i saw what he wrote for her.

and i saw what she wrote for him.

i thought i was slowly getting over him over these past few days.

but i guess i was wrong. so wrong.

it felt like the world came falling down on me.

i know i should be happy for him but...............

i guess i wasnt as strong as i thought i was to be...

*sigh*

u got enlisted today but i freaking didnt know about it.

you had us all duped didnt you.......

and what hurts me most now is that i never had a chance to text you...

now that you are already enlisted i guess it's pointless for any texts.

i know you'll never see this...

but still... take great care in army...

hope that the next time when i see you...

i would have gotton over you completely...

& i would smile and wish u HAPPINESS right from the bottom of my heart...

i know i once told u that i was afraid of losing a friend after telling you
but u reassured me after everything has happened & i was glad for that.

now...for once in my eighteen years of life...i guess the problem lies with me now...

i guess im the one who's unable to face u like how i used to now...

and i really hope i would never have to face you again till i've put everything down...

but still..i truly know running away is never a solution to problems...

guess i'll have to face you afterall...

but at least not so soon...

Labels: i miss you so but you'll never know...

what we could have been, 4/11/2009 11:41:00 PM.