Wednesday, September 05, 2007
i tried very hard to resist the temptation of using the com.
apparently i managed for only one day.
cos i really wanted to talk to some1 n i didnt want to waste money toking on the phone.
so i decided to just on the com n log in to msn.
i thought today was relatively a happy day for me.
things went pretty well since morning.
i even got excited n happy over him.
but as i was walking with ah li from the general office,
i saw him there and then.
i was so happy telling ah li he havent go home yet leh.
but the next thing i knew, we both saw him n her together.
i was so devastated. i just felt like crying.
i wanted to forget him.
ah li told me to do so too.
but i just cant seem to do it.
i almost cried on my lonely journey home.
and for once.
he made my eyes filled with tears.
my dad saw my listless, emo face when i got home.
kept asking me what happen, he asked if i was just too tired.
so i just said yah.
deep down i really wanted to say no and tell him all abt my troubles.
but i knw he wld lecture me if i were to say it out.
deep down in my heart, i seriously feel terrible.
i dont wish to go sch anymore.
what i see would make me breakbrown.
i just dont want.
imagine seeing a guy whom u like starts hanging out with this girl.
not once not twice but very often.
and then u see the girl who keeps talking about him.
and all of her conversation is about him.
friends keep pairing them up.
he keeps cheering her up.
she promises him lots of things.
she buys him presents.
how would you feel?!
terrible right?!
please help me forget him.
it's really tiring n heartbreaking.
i really dont know what to do.
i feel so helpless.
i love him.
but loving him is a torture for me.
apparently i managed for only one day.
cos i really wanted to talk to some1 n i didnt want to waste money toking on the phone.
so i decided to just on the com n log in to msn.
i thought today was relatively a happy day for me.
things went pretty well since morning.
i even got excited n happy over him.
but as i was walking with ah li from the general office,
i saw him there and then.
i was so happy telling ah li he havent go home yet leh.
but the next thing i knew, we both saw him n her together.
i was so devastated. i just felt like crying.
i wanted to forget him.
ah li told me to do so too.
but i just cant seem to do it.
i almost cried on my lonely journey home.
and for once.
he made my eyes filled with tears.
my dad saw my listless, emo face when i got home.
kept asking me what happen, he asked if i was just too tired.
so i just said yah.
deep down i really wanted to say no and tell him all abt my troubles.
but i knw he wld lecture me if i were to say it out.
deep down in my heart, i seriously feel terrible.
i dont wish to go sch anymore.
what i see would make me breakbrown.
i just dont want.
imagine seeing a guy whom u like starts hanging out with this girl.
not once not twice but very often.
and then u see the girl who keeps talking about him.
and all of her conversation is about him.
friends keep pairing them up.
he keeps cheering her up.
she promises him lots of things.
she buys him presents.
how would you feel?!
terrible right?!
please help me forget him.
it's really tiring n heartbreaking.
i really dont know what to do.
i feel so helpless.
i love him.
but loving him is a torture for me.
Labels: could some1 just brainwash me? i wanna forget him, everything about him. T.T
what we could have been, 9/05/2007 07:50:00 PM.
