Wednesday, October 17, 2007

gosh.
i like got on just not long ago!
damn pw. it's total crap.

with a subject tt is so crap, there's bound to be crap sessions.
crappy subject with crappy meetings with crappy people!
LOLS.

i've still got lots to do.
and it's pw again.
damn pw. =((

anw.
told my mum about my thoughts of continuing JC.
she seems to be like encouraging me to withdraw.
and then apply for a poly course.
cos she's been seeing me mugging n mugging.
and she feels that im really having a v hard n miserable time.
i guess she's feeling the heartache for her poor girl. =D
i dont know but im having 2nd doubts.
my mind is in a whirl.
sometimes i really admire those who can really come to a decision.
i just dont seems to be having a control over my own life.
my mum questioned me 'why did u go to jc in the first place?'
i gave it some thoughts.
and i guess it was becos i wanted to prove ppl wrong.
'if they can do it, why can't i?!'.
that was what that really affected my decision.
and tt was what that motivated me.
you can say it's my belief.
im still holding on to it.
but im just afraid.
physics and chem?
sigh.

it's really time tt i've got to plan for my future.

Labels: confused. dubious. sad. afraid. exhuasted.

what we could have been, 10/17/2007 10:44:00 PM.