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Monday, August 31, 2009

FINALLY A DAY W/ FOD OG! ^^

it has been quite a while since i've hang around w/ them.
have been spending too much time w/ odac and foc.
so much so that i havent had the chance to meet fod.
ohwell. really thankful to all my fod og mates! :D
never once had to care about political issues when im with them!

didnt know chinatown had this 10bucks ktv for SAFRA members. COOL.
maybe i could plan bumblebees K outing there instead of teoheng! :D
10bucks for 5hrs singing+free flow of drinks+1 fake shark fins soup! LOL.
but i would definitely prefer kbox singing system((:

was craving for chinatown's super uber nice stir-fried beehoon noodles
and had that for dinner today! WOOTS. cheap+nice((:

aint looking forward to ibm lecture tmr.
super uber uber sians. =/
cant wait to see my 1st class honours mugger group tmr! LOL.

what we could have been, 8/31/2009 08:10:00 PM.

when u know things dont happen the way u want them too......

what we could have been, 8/31/2009 12:00:00 AM.
Saturday, August 29, 2009

sometimes i wished i could be more self conscious.
and be responsible for own actions.
guessed i was too used to patting my girlfriend's faces.
so much so that i even cont'ed this habit with the guys.
really apologize to e 2dudes whom i 'patted' their faces today.
(uhmm,ohkays,it may seem as slapping in ur opinions)
but i really didnt mean it. GOSH. really sorry.
i didnt mean to offend u guys.

anw, src first mgm today. wasnt too bad. just e usual fod routine.
hahaha. maybe because it's only the kickstart. so yupps.
nothing much to comment.
im just dead tired.

time for my flu tablets! ZZzzZzzz....


Chris Daughtry-Life After You
All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you

what we could have been, 8/29/2009 05:56:00 PM.
Friday, August 28, 2009

BUMBLEBEES FIRST 3D MOVIE OUTING LAST NIGHT!((:

i dont know what came over us.
but we had the laugh bug with us the whole night! GOSH!
HAHAHA. we couldnt stop laughing for a moment!
celebrated edwin's birthday in advance as well! :D
COOLIOS^^

LOVED THE BUA-ing OF CAKE ONTO HIS FACE! TSKTSK.

FD4 in 3D is totally way so cooool!
other than that i think the movie's nothing special =/

almost didnt manage to survive in school today.
it all started out w/ a blocked nose which proceeded to runny nose.
and then a combination of both. T.T and an awful voice as well! RAHRAH!

someone complimented my eyes today! AWESOME! LOL.
i didnt know my eyes could send electric waves over! WOOTS.
but i cant deny the fact that it's true that i've NICE EYES! =P
HAHAHAHA.
maybe next time i shld try putting on contacts instead.
then the electric waves being sent over would be of FULL strength! LOL.

ohwell.
just took my PANADOL COLD RELIEF tablets.
does it cause drowsiness? hahaha.
im feeling kind of sleepy now.
guess i should head to bed early tonight.^^

and i hope flu would be gone tmr! *SHOOSHOO*

first src mgm tmr.
there goes my geylang serai outing! :((

what we could have been, 8/28/2009 07:56:00 PM.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009

when u realise u're not e only one who feels that way,
it's really time for u to accept e truth and move on in life.

feeling so lost now.
i cant differentiate right from wrong.
and neither can i separate the truth from lies.
everything has happened so quickly that it's tiring me out-mentally.

I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO REAL BADLY. *SIGH*

sidenote: why torture yourself and put on a smile when u're actually
in no mood to entertain anyone at all?


P.S. sorry for the extreme sadist post recently.
my life is just so F*cked up. (pardon me for the vulgarities as well)

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what we could have been, 8/26/2009 03:13:00 PM.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009

sometimes,
there're guys who make u wonder why u fell in love w/ them back then.
and very often,
u realise u end w/ a guy whom is totally diff from what u're looking for.

ugh.
really love having HTHT but sometimes it really makes me think alot.
maybe im just too afraid to bring myself into a complicated love affair.
giving more than i take and asking for nothing in return.
guess that's just me.

sidenote: aint gg to love a guy who makes u love miserably even if
u love him that much cos'... u'll never be able to find happiness this way.

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what we could have been, 8/25/2009 09:14:00 PM.
Monday, August 24, 2009

I SLEPT AT 12AM LAST NIGHT! XD

like finally im turning in early!
guess i was just too too tired.
i simply KO-ed.

kept dozing off during lect despite having slept early.
thankfully there's no school tmr! :D
no need to wake up at 630am! HEHS.
but i aint gg to waste my time and rot at home either!
shall con't the same routine lunch+revision in school tmr! ^^

hopefully K turns out well this thurs!
planning/organising is never an easy task! =/

sidenote: sometimes we've just got to admit it.

what we could have been, 8/24/2009 08:53:00 PM.
Sunday, August 23, 2009

22ND AUG,SUN
BUMBLEBEE SEND OFF! :D

seriously it was damn bitch of me to be late for an hr ytd.
really sorry to all who were there punctually or earlier!
i've really got to change that very bad and irritating habit of mine.
ytd was my first in my 19yrs of life for being late for more than 30min! =/

anw,
hope our dear bumblebee is doing his best in his comp over there.
and most importantly, come back in one piece! =X
i mean, SAFETY FIRST right?! ^^

last min mahjong plans at gen's house.
left early cos of curfew. SAD but ohwell.
i've got to be contented with what i'm given.

time to plan for K outing next week.

dead dead dead dead tired. *YAWNS*

sidenote: sometimes, we should really just see things as it is.
afterall,complicating them would only make us confused.
it's just as simple as ABC. :D

what we could have been, 8/23/2009 03:58:00 PM.
Saturday, August 22, 2009

就让别人去猜测 我们清白的很
就让自己去承受 那种清白的闷
就算我只是朋友 能不能有要求
如果会发生什么 也是我想太多
啊 好朋友 就只是好朋友
不小心说出口 微笑中藏着难过
我们就站在落地窗的两边
就算触碰也有了界限
如果跨越过彼此那道边界
是靠近还是更遥远
你会不会也曾闪过这感觉
一念之间就要差一点
要是我爱你 变成了利剑
什么会被消灭 什么才会复原
那是我的底线 继续将你暗恋

my emotions seemed to have overpowered my rational thinking lately.
i can no longer think right, think straight, think ahead.
trying hard to deny the truth yet trying hard to accept it.
ironic. self-delusion. mentally tiring.
when will i ever get things right?

ohwell.
have been enjoying myself the whole week.
trying my best to balance studies and fun as well as i could.
that includes studying in school before heading out for fun in the evening! :D
wed: scissors curry rice for dinner w/ odac rebels+mustafa+prata hse((:
thurs: lunch at NP+orphan at cathay w/ OG10+dinner+hangover w/ bumblebees at lido((:
fri: dinner+hunt for odac jersey at vivo addidas w/ odac rebels((:
sat(TODAY): dear bumblebee send off in the evening! :D
sun(TMR): dance dance dance- THE BOOGIE THAT BE! ^^

WOOTS.
cant wait for ruben's+laopo's birthday, paintball, K and final destination 3D! ^^

what we could have been, 8/22/2009 02:40:00 PM.
Thursday, August 20, 2009

SUPPER W/ LOVES PART II :D

went for supper w/ bumblebees at ecp afterall.
damn random. felt guilty bout what i've done.
after being nagged by someone on my journey hm. tsktsk.
but ohwell. i've never regretted my decision. :D
simply becos' i had one the best companions.
and they chased my TUESDAY BLUES away! ^^

happy day today as well. except for the fact that im dead tired.
my fave poa lecture. great lecture buds. great revision time.
splendid dinner. great time being bullied(as usual =/)
and home before 12am! :D

but i doubt i wouldnt want to stay out late even if im allowed to.
7th month is here and im so freaking scared when i walked hm just now! =/
seeing the incense,smoke and everything, it's giving me goosebumps.
ohwell. this might be good at helping me practice self-control.
had some time thinking what i've doing for the past few days.
and seriously, i think im overdoing it.
sigh.

time to set my priorites right.

nights all. :D

what we could have been, 8/20/2009 12:01:00 AM.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009

TUESDAY BLUES! :'((

knew today wasnt going to be a good day for me.
apart from the fact tt i've seen the most no. of friends in a day at sch,
(which really brightened up my day quite a bit)
there was really nothing much looking forward to today.
BLUE-est day i ever had since sch started.
damn. idk what's wrong with me today.
sigh. just felt so out of place.
simply,a damn screwed up day.

talked to dear over the phone just now.
(really thanks alot for e listening ear!((: )

just had to pour everything out.
hated that feeling so much.
maybe it's just me.
or maybe it's really that case.
i seriously dont know.
confused and helpless.
all back to square one.
sigh.






what we could have been, 8/18/2009 06:56:00 PM.
Monday, August 17, 2009

5.2K in 25min.

supposedly it's good.
BUT. i almost died after that 5.2K.
this means my stamina really drop alot! :'((
UGH. think i need to build up my stamina.
10k used to be nothing to me.
now 5k is good enough to kill me! UGH.

i think i've spend my time to the fullest today!
it's like damn packed. HAHA.
830am~1130am: econs lect
1130am~12+: lunch
12+~5+pm: study study study
630pm: Home sweet home
630pm-715pm: maths
715pm~815pm: Running
9pm~now: Quality time with the lappy! XD

LOL.
kept dozing off during econs lecture today.
dont know why but i was seriously dead tired.

im having trouble thinking of my 2 eights freestyle.
plenty of ideas but just cant seem to let them flow well.
ugh.

back to running again after a month. guilty. super guilty.
time to build my stamina((:

what we could have been, 8/17/2009 11:12:00 PM.
Sunday, August 16, 2009

injured my ankle just 1min before dance today :'((
dear jazel TICKLED me,caught me unexpectedly and 'BANG!',
my ankle hit right into the corner of the bench. *ouch*
ohwell. nothing much to complain anyway. HAHA.

dont know why but recently friends have started 'tickling' me. =/
even jazel is doing that to me today! :'((
ahhhh. i sincerely request u guys to let me off please!!!
im freaking freaking scared and im gg to lose my voice w/ all e screaming!

ANYWAY!
have been really really troubled recently.
i've got no idea how to put them into words.
i just feel as if im going round and round in circles.
getting nowhere at all. frustrating.
taking my breath and my soul away.
utterly lost. confused. uncertained.
it's time i need someone to guide me along.

会长大的幸福

what we could have been, 8/16/2009 03:36:00 PM.
Saturday, August 15, 2009

NICKELBACK-IF TODAY WAS UR LAST DAY

My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride
If today was your last day
and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
If today was your last day
Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the prize is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you'll never live it twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life



what we could have been, 8/15/2009 01:47:00 PM.

SUPPER!((:

finally had my supper which daddy promised me! :D
daddy got lost on his way to chompchomp.
changed our plans to thomson instead.
reason being-i had to reach home by 1230! :'((
i felt so guilty,esp when jm was alrd at chompchomp when we left!
thanks daddy for sending me home-AGAIN.
this time really really have to thank him. felt so bad.
anw, got home and realised no one's home! UGH.
ohwell. never be greedy. be contented with what i get and what i have now.
cos' we all know, we'll never be contented with what we're given,
if we dont realise that what we're given is alrd more than what we deserve.
so yupps. trying to be optimistic here! ^^

jb trip for odac rebels tmr. EXCEPT ME! :'((
im going to miss out all the fun and food and camwhoring! RAHRAH! =/
ohwell. i'll just have to be a good girl and earn my freedom slowly.

P.S- i think im seriously beginning to ________ _________.
(fill in the blanks yourself. thank you =P )

what we could have been, 8/15/2009 01:49:00 AM.
Friday, August 14, 2009

MAY HENG DOESNT LIKE TO BE RESTRICTED :'((

what we could have been, 8/14/2009 10:03:00 AM.
Thursday, August 13, 2009

I'M LOVIN' IT((:

12thAug2009

1)OVERSLEPT!(woke up at 7.10am) =X
3)but wasnt late afterall cos'
2)nice of clarence to drive me and jimmy to school! :D
4)1st thing that ppl started asking in e morning was 'WHERE'S MY MASK?!'
5)sam didnt want to sit beside me during lecture.he said one arm's length away.LOL.
6)lunch-ed w/ bumblebees.
7)hopped over to og10 and had a nice enjoyable chat!
8)finally caught up w/ edwin after dino ages.
9)and found out he was the reason behind why i was falling sick! LOL.
10)couldnt stop laughing when u he took out 1 BIG BIG PCKET OF TISSUE!
11)studied at library w/ charm,gen,jm,jw.
12)nice of daddy to drive us to town. :D
13)as usual kena bullied by odac rebels. :(( dont let me take NICE PHOTOS! HAHA.
14)g.i joe w/ odac rebels. damn nice movie. ((:
15)dinner-ed w/ bumblebees at ps.
16)caught UP. super cute,funny,sweet,touching! ^^ (I LIKE KEVIN E BIRD! XD)
17)daddy was a spoiler. keep telling me and fiona the story. hmph!
18)played circle of death at smu.
19)and i just rmbed it's similar the drinking game i always played.
20)nice of daddy to send me home.
21)nice car ride,but it's not so nice to always get a lift home. feel bad. =/
22)didnt get to have a peaceful sleep afterall. (stupid cough :(( )

13thAug2009
1)SRC INTERVIEW LATER ON! :D

what we could have been, 8/13/2009 01:23:00 AM.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009

FINALLY A VISIT TO THE DOCTOR!

1)my bus came at 8am today :((
2)but luckily managed to reach at 830am sharp :D
3)me and tiff had qns marks all over us during lect :((
4)lunch-ed at megabites w/ tiff and dear peili((:
5)their coleslaw seriously taste weird like some rotten apple. *bleah*
6)saw alvin n he keeps saying tt i have H1N1 n asks me to stay away frm him:((
7)chatted w/ jw and andre's SP XD
8)bus-ed down to amk polyclinic
9)was asked to proceed to the tentage to seek medical consultation
10)had to put on the freaking mask for 1.5hours :((
11)had no one to talk to for 1.5hours! *torturing sia*
12)accompanied daddy for dinner
13)nice of daddy to offer me a car ride home ^^
(so pls, ppl with car, jio me out often! i chopchop confirm turn up! :D )

seems like a pretty nice day today :D
cant wait to have more fun w/ odac rebels and bumblebees tmr! ^^
as well as POA lecture w/ og10,jw and jm ((:
a day worth looking forward to!


what we could have been, 8/11/2009 07:26:00 PM.
Monday, August 10, 2009

sometimes, it really takes alot of courage to be just who u are...

have always wanted to gain perfection in everything i do.
but it seems like it's mission impossible for all i know.
though 19 this year, i guess my brain still works like 9.
i've always been living in my own fairytale.
doing things as i deem fit.

maybe it's time to grow up and be a young adult.
think and act responsibly.

physical pain can never be compared to the emotional one.
it's torturing you in every single way.
the guilt in me never seems to fade.

reflecting on what i've done made me realise tt i suck badly.
guess i'd failed miserably at my attempt of being a good friend.

it's time to change to way i deal w/ people.
spare a thought for others and stop being naive.
this is no longer a world of a 3 year old kid.

and maybe, to protect myself from further emotional harm.
i'd better shut myself up from now.
it's pointless to be like an open book.

now,
I'VE GOT TO LEARN FROM MISTAKES AND PREVENT THEM FRM RE-OCCURING AGN((:







anw,
celebrated national day w/ ODACians at marina barrage.
we put across our plan as to catch the fireworks tgt.
but in actual fact, our main objective is our camwhore session! :D
it's a whole great deal of fun when u're with the right company((:
even if u're stucked on an island, there would still be endless fun!
the only spoiler of the night was my curfew at 11pm. :((
having a curfew on the day of national day is like WTH!
had to give my dinner+supper at chinatown a miss.
i didnt want to ruin my plans for wednesday! :D

ohwell,
today's a new day.
be happy and live the moment((:

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what we could have been, 8/10/2009 01:53:00 PM.
Saturday, August 08, 2009

NIGHT CYCLING IS LOVES! :D

met up w/ OG3.1.27 ytd evening for dinner.
it was claimed by vincent as the nicest claypot rice! :D
but seriously it was really nice lah!
xiaowei joined us as well!
it's been long since i've seen her! ^^

headed back to school for preparation of night cycling
stupid yian kept picking on me. like wth. karma karma.
blame me for complaining to him tt i was suay to be in his og. LOL.
and even nathaniel knows i said that him. RAH!
i was just kidding anw. =P

set off at 10plus.
cycled from SIM to MANDAI to JLN KAYU to HOUGANG to ECP
hated the road at mandai. seriously tiring.
UPHILL UPHILL NOTHING BUT UPHILL. =/
was super happy when we reached ecp the next morning! ^^

and viola!
50KM OF NIGHT CYCLING ACCOMPLISHED! ((:
(P.S my first night cycling exp . hehs. phobia of roads overcomed! ^^)

mac,then cab home.
bathed then slept for 5hrs.
still feeling drowsy. hai.
i need energy booster now!




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what we could have been, 8/08/2009 04:38:00 PM.
Thursday, August 06, 2009

YESTERDAY WAS A BLAST! :D

had POA w/ jiawei,junming,sam,chunglin ytd.
the best lecture ever for the week.
balwant singh just rocks so much.
enjoyed my time throughout e whole lecture! ^^
great lecture buds+great lecturer=fun!

TRIED to help out at odac booth after class.
but...FAILURE lah! i really CANNOT MAKE IT!
they said i was 'selling my smile' rather than promoting. LOL.

lunched w/ OG10 at holland v (half strength only though)
dont know why they opted for nasi lemak but it's nice anw! :D
i wanted my sushi tei. hai. HAHA.

got a shocked when pearl and ah min shouted my name!
i was like thinking 'am i hearing things or?'
then when i turned my back i was like OMG!WTH!
LOL. seriously a coincidence lah!

essential brew and had my fave earl grey tea with vanilla ice cream!
chilled while waiting for jaime and headed to town.
feels so great to have someone driving us ard! :D
W-O-N-D-E-R-F-U-L!
(p/s-friends who have car please jio me out ohkays? HAHA :D )

it's always fun visiting the arcade once in awhile!
i love my street basketball and bishi bahshi soooo much! ^^
if only i have my own street bball machine at home!
how wonderful would that be! XD

met bumblebees for dunner at manhattan.
fun fun fun and nothing more but fun! :D
but i dont know what's wrong with me last night.
first, i said 'HEY' to a random stranger whom i thought was one of us.
second, i walked stupidly towards minds cafe while the others headed other dir.
thirdly, i almost walked into the concrete barrier.
fourth, i started to talk rubbish. =/
played the polar bear game at smu. COOLIOS :D
movie-ed at cine w/ the remaining at cine.
i think overheard has a good movie plot.

lost my voice after the whole movie ended. :'((
super duper uber jialat. im yongsheng no.2 now.

I WANT NOTHING BUT MY SWEET VOICE BACK!



what we could have been, 8/06/2009 10:51:00 AM.
Tuesday, August 04, 2009

THE EMOTIONS KEEP SPINNING OUT AND OUT.......

falling deeper and deeper every second :((
feels like a trap and i hate it.

why am i always troubled by the same old issues?!
what sins have i exactly committed in the past to deserve all this?!

i can never read someone easily.
i can never understand what's going thru their head.
i can never know what they exactly want and what they dont.

and then it's always me who gets played out.
hai.

feeling so lost-emotionally.

do sick ppl tend to get upset emotionally? =/
hate the sudden rush of emotions.
and
WHAT THE HELL EXACTLY DO I WANT?!
UGH.

what we could have been, 8/04/2009 09:04:00 PM.
Sunday, August 02, 2009

SCHOOL'S STARTING TMR! ^^

this is like boom boom pow!
suuuuuuper duuuuuper fast can! HAHA!
i seem sooooo unprepared. =/

i wonder how's uni life going to be like. :D
kind of looking forward yet reluctant to hit the books.
what an irony but yea. this is a situation im in now.

late for dance today AGAIN.
but was still early cos' mel ended her class late. ((:
it's always fun to dance and laugh at my stupid dumbass moves.
and going crazy with jazel and acting like a 7yr old kid. LOL.
finally had my sun moulin mochi bread after dance. ^^
my cravings are gone for now!

i cant wait to see daddy,mummy and bumblebees on wed! ^^
just loving life the way it is now. :D

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what we could have been, 8/02/2009 06:37:00 PM.
Saturday, August 01, 2009

TIME FOR A BREAK BEFORE SCHOOL STARTS

im back to my super-no-life life. HAHA.
seriously felt as if im wasting my time away. :((
fb,msn,sugoideas,funshion
fb,msn,sugoideas,funshion
fb,msn,sugoideas,funshion
SO NOOOOOOOO LIFE RIGHT?!?!?!?!? =/

but ohwell.
school's starting and i need to recharge my energy.
i wouldnt want to be caught dozing off during lectures.
and then screw up my whole education in SIM. LOL.

life's getting soooo happening and i like that! :D
but that means i've got to learn how to balance work+play.
it's going be tough for me but i shall try((:

p.s-craving for sun moulin's bread!hehs.
:
current addiction((:
:
Colbie Caillat-Fallin' For You
I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
And now I found ya
I don’t know where to
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

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