Monday, April 28, 2008
my energy level is seriously decreasing at a rapid rate.
im starting to doze off during tut/lectures.
and i almost fell hard on the table during GP tut.
thank god i didnt.
i cant seem to squeeze some time for revision.
when i dont even have the time to complete my tut. T.T
-sigh- i dont want to do that badly of MYE again.
i just hope musical would be over asap.
although i would miss some of the J1s.
but then agn, i really nd to focus on my studies.
just pray that i can cope with all the stress n everything.
anyway, today's choir was still ok.
but xh kept reminding me of the lionel's pose.
LOLS. it was seriously very funny. i couldnt help but laugh.
and daniel's singing is seriously 'er xin' the nice! LOLS.
if only i could sing like him! HAHAS.
his zuan ying super the good lorh.
even challenged us the leehom song' ni bu zai'.
we tried but we failed in our attempt. haahs.
and i was telling them 10yrs later after we have mastered it.
we would challenge him again. LOLS.
and choir is having another practice this wed n this totally sucks.
ugh ugh ugh. so not fair. :((
hai.
havent finish my nitro cpds assignment+econ case study due tml.
super duper uber sians.
im seriously super drained out!
hai.
im starting to doze off during tut/lectures.
and i almost fell hard on the table during GP tut.
thank god i didnt.
i cant seem to squeeze some time for revision.
when i dont even have the time to complete my tut. T.T
-sigh- i dont want to do that badly of MYE again.
i just hope musical would be over asap.
although i would miss some of the J1s.
but then agn, i really nd to focus on my studies.
just pray that i can cope with all the stress n everything.
anyway, today's choir was still ok.
but xh kept reminding me of the lionel's pose.
LOLS. it was seriously very funny. i couldnt help but laugh.
and daniel's singing is seriously 'er xin' the nice! LOLS.
if only i could sing like him! HAHAS.
his zuan ying super the good lorh.
even challenged us the leehom song' ni bu zai'.
we tried but we failed in our attempt. haahs.
and i was telling them 10yrs later after we have mastered it.
we would challenge him again. LOLS.
and choir is having another practice this wed n this totally sucks.
ugh ugh ugh. so not fair. :((
hai.
havent finish my nitro cpds assignment+econ case study due tml.
super duper uber sians.
im seriously super drained out!
hai.
Labels: ^5
what we could have been, 4/28/2008 10:30:00 PM.
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
i seriously dont know what came over me ytd.
i actually lost control of my emotions and there it goes.
i felt diamonds coming from my eyes onto my face.
but i guess it's becos' i felt very demoralised.
all her nasty words which mrs seth directed at me was just too much.
and i broke down just there n then.
i just couldnt suppress my feelings any longer.
i just couldnt take it,she's lowering my self esteem drastically.
i mean it's not as if i wanted my GP to be that bad bad bad.
ugh. idiot. she's seriously a bitch(quoted frm her =X)
T.T
on the happy note.
chem SPA is finally over! O-V-E-R! over! o over! =D
thank god i mangaged to complete everything smoothly!
and i can happily burn all my chem spa materials now! YAY!
my cough is getting from bad to worse.
i hope it will get better cos' i seriously hate coughs.
it's super noise polluting and it's making me suffer.
and it's causing unneccessary tearing too! T.T
in general, im kind of happy.
cos of some very small lil' lil' things tt happened today.
i just think that fate is being very very nice to me. =D
LOLS.
and musical is just in a week's time!
ohgosh. it's super duper fast!
and i seriously hope we wont screw the whole musical up!
*cross my fingers toes hands legs tongue hair nose whatever! LOLS
i actually lost control of my emotions and there it goes.
i felt diamonds coming from my eyes onto my face.
but i guess it's becos' i felt very demoralised.
all her nasty words which mrs seth directed at me was just too much.
and i broke down just there n then.
i just couldnt suppress my feelings any longer.
i just couldnt take it,she's lowering my self esteem drastically.
i mean it's not as if i wanted my GP to be that bad bad bad.
ugh. idiot. she's seriously a bitch(quoted frm her =X)
T.T
on the happy note.
chem SPA is finally over! O-V-E-R! over! o over! =D
thank god i mangaged to complete everything smoothly!
and i can happily burn all my chem spa materials now! YAY!
my cough is getting from bad to worse.
i hope it will get better cos' i seriously hate coughs.
it's super noise polluting and it's making me suffer.
and it's causing unneccessary tearing too! T.T
in general, im kind of happy.
cos of some very small lil' lil' things tt happened today.
i just think that fate is being very very nice to me. =D
LOLS.
and musical is just in a week's time!
ohgosh. it's super duper fast!
and i seriously hope we wont screw the whole musical up!
*cross my fingers toes hands legs tongue hair nose whatever! LOLS
Labels: ^5. =D
what we could have been, 4/22/2008 10:38:00 PM.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
the day started quite well but i ended up emoing.
morning was quite alright.
i enjoyed my stay at choir's booth.
kinda last min thing though.
but i enjoyed it cos i got so many free food frm many ppl! XD
marshmallows/cookies/twisties/satays/jellies....LOLS.
i can say hello to my new friend-1kg. -.-
most imptly,i could enjoy watching matches tt were ongoing.
it was very entertaining to watch the teachers pit against the students.
volleyball is really nice. HAHAS. ah jiang so cool! =D
become a dummy some time in the afternn.
it was eriously stupid n unconvincing though.
and most imptly, so dulan.
i got a pic of myself taken with the other 2winners with 'my' medal.
i got a shock when they said they were gg to take a pic!
ohman. this is seriously so dulian.
and the most dulian part was the winner was bside me but i didnt even know.
then i ben4 ben4 de4 walk up n take the medal.
ohwell. it's all over.
got very moody+emo in the late afternn.
reagarding some very sensitive issues so i shall not tok abt it here.
but i was really really really super upset.
sometimes i really think i can no longer cope with it.
i feel so tired faking many things. my smile n everything.
i try very hard to liven things up but sometimes it just doesnt work.
i get very lil' or rather no response at all. -hai-
i've really tried very hard to accomodate to everything.
but it seems so pointless doing so.
i just get nothing in return.
i know this is how fate wants my life to be.
but then again, i really cant take it.
aftr today's SR olympics, i somehow found a different may.
and i had many regrets today. :(
i became very solemn. erm not solemn maybe.
maybe very quiet very not enthu very...... just....hai.
i miss everything and i miss myself back then.
i just cant stand being so hai.
i just feel very very xinku. this sucks.
I WANT TO BE HAPPY!
sometimes i really hope i have the courage to just let u knw.
having to keep everything within me is too much for me to handle.
morning was quite alright.
i enjoyed my stay at choir's booth.
kinda last min thing though.
but i enjoyed it cos i got so many free food frm many ppl! XD
marshmallows/cookies/twisties/satays/jellies....LOLS.
i can say hello to my new friend-1kg. -.-
most imptly,i could enjoy watching matches tt were ongoing.
it was very entertaining to watch the teachers pit against the students.
volleyball is really nice. HAHAS. ah jiang so cool! =D
become a dummy some time in the afternn.
it was eriously stupid n unconvincing though.
and most imptly, so dulan.
i got a pic of myself taken with the other 2winners with 'my' medal.
i got a shock when they said they were gg to take a pic!
ohman. this is seriously so dulian.
and the most dulian part was the winner was bside me but i didnt even know.
then i ben4 ben4 de4 walk up n take the medal.
ohwell. it's all over.
got very moody+emo in the late afternn.
reagarding some very sensitive issues so i shall not tok abt it here.
but i was really really really super upset.
sometimes i really think i can no longer cope with it.
i feel so tired faking many things. my smile n everything.
i try very hard to liven things up but sometimes it just doesnt work.
i get very lil' or rather no response at all. -hai-
i've really tried very hard to accomodate to everything.
but it seems so pointless doing so.
i just get nothing in return.
i know this is how fate wants my life to be.
but then again, i really cant take it.
aftr today's SR olympics, i somehow found a different may.
and i had many regrets today. :(
i became very solemn. erm not solemn maybe.
maybe very quiet very not enthu very...... just....hai.
i miss everything and i miss myself back then.
i just cant stand being so hai.
i just feel very very xinku. this sucks.
I WANT TO BE HAPPY!
sometimes i really hope i have the courage to just let u knw.
having to keep everything within me is too much for me to handle.
Labels: tattered and torn inside.
what we could have been, 4/16/2008 08:32:00 PM.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
havent been updating for dino ages.
and since tml is a very slack day-SR OLYMPICS DAY.
im able to take a small lil' break and slack! XD *yayy*
first thing first, i got an A for my PW! *claps* =D
herman and theo got an A too! *whee*
jason got a B which is quite alright too.
im so glad my group did pretty well on the whole.
the grp comment which we got on our OP was quite good.
they mentioned tt the video we presented was very 'POWDERFUL'.
it created a very huge impact on the assessors. HAHS.
so i guess i must really thank herman for having found tt video. LOLS.
i've bought the new J1 uniform.
and im starting to regret having bought the untucked blouse.
reason being i bought 1size bigger n it doesnt go well with the skirt.
T.T
i've got quite a few pleasant surprises here and there each day.
just keeps my day going. haahs. =D
i've got 2 nice surprises today too! *yayy*
but i gave a very stupid face. LOLS.
sometimes i really think tt im reaching my destination soon.
haahs.
i've been complaining abt SR musical some time back.
but im starting to love it since like last sat? haahs.
cos im beginning to see the bits and pieces coming together.
somehow i just feel kind of connected to this whole thing.
although im not part of the acting cast/highlight of musical or whatsoever.
i mean, sometimes it's really great being out there on stage.
anything besides tt, i really hate having 4 pratices a week! T.T
i mean which CCAs have 4practice a week?!
*yawns*
i've got chem equi test this thurs. SIANS!
i totally forgot all about the J1 topics lerh. -hai-
just realised tt there's no coherence in my post.
but who cares. im too lazy/tired to type things nicely.
and 1 last thing.
PW has inspired me to work hard for my As.
and most imptly, allowed me to realise tt i can score well for phy! =D
all it takes is hard work hard work and more hard work!
*jiayouu people!* =D
and since tml is a very slack day-SR OLYMPICS DAY.
im able to take a small lil' break and slack! XD *yayy*
first thing first, i got an A for my PW! *claps* =D
herman and theo got an A too! *whee*
jason got a B which is quite alright too.
im so glad my group did pretty well on the whole.
the grp comment which we got on our OP was quite good.
they mentioned tt the video we presented was very 'POWDERFUL'.
it created a very huge impact on the assessors. HAHS.
so i guess i must really thank herman for having found tt video. LOLS.
i've bought the new J1 uniform.
and im starting to regret having bought the untucked blouse.
reason being i bought 1size bigger n it doesnt go well with the skirt.
T.T
i've got quite a few pleasant surprises here and there each day.
just keeps my day going. haahs. =D
i've got 2 nice surprises today too! *yayy*
but i gave a very stupid face. LOLS.
sometimes i really think tt im reaching my destination soon.
haahs.
i've been complaining abt SR musical some time back.
but im starting to love it since like last sat? haahs.
cos im beginning to see the bits and pieces coming together.
somehow i just feel kind of connected to this whole thing.
although im not part of the acting cast/highlight of musical or whatsoever.
i mean, sometimes it's really great being out there on stage.
anything besides tt, i really hate having 4 pratices a week! T.T
i mean which CCAs have 4practice a week?!
*yawns*
i've got chem equi test this thurs. SIANS!
i totally forgot all about the J1 topics lerh. -hai-
just realised tt there's no coherence in my post.
but who cares. im too lazy/tired to type things nicely.
and 1 last thing.
PW has inspired me to work hard for my As.
and most imptly, allowed me to realise tt i can score well for phy! =D
all it takes is hard work hard work and more hard work!
*jiayouu people!* =D
Labels: i just love surprises. XD ^5
what we could have been, 4/15/2008 09:49:00 PM.
Friday, April 04, 2008
i really cant imagine how i managed to do it.
but im really glad i've put my heart&soul into doing it.
im starting to get what i want but im not there yet.
there's still some time before i can reach my destination.
hopefully in a month or 2 i will be able to stop at my final destination.
im getting emo&emoier&emoier-ier each day.
im starting to bottle up my feelings agn.
and this time i intend to cont bottling up my feelings.
maybe im feeling very insecure & uncertain.
i've lost all my confidence in myself somehow.
maybe i'll gain when i reach my final destination.
but im afraid i'll lose something somehow by then.
just like in physics work,energy,power.
u'll tend to lose some form of energy when u gain another form of energy.
-hai-
sometimes u try very hard to hide ur feelings from others.
u try very very hard to act as if nothing has happened.
u try super uber hard to think positively.
u try duper hard to make urself try to do the above mentioned.
but i sincerely pray that i wont lose everything in the end.
come to think of it. it has already been 3months.
thats really really long. im quite surprised at the figure too.
but i seriously hope this time will be totally different.
i dont want things to be the way they are as before.
i want some changes n i pray for changes to occur.
i hope for a miracle n i want my life to be better.
i know i have so much to say.
but somehow when i just start typing
i dont seem to know what i wanna say.
it's super duper contradicting.
im getting kind of irritated during choir practice.
someone is obviously not putting our section into her eyes.
she didnt even realise when we didnt even sing at all.
and besides tt someone there's another somewho who's pissing me off.
i got super irritated esp ytd for some reasons.
i dont know why but i just felt so UGH.
sch's keeping me super busy and so is the musical.
time seems to be pushing me to a corner n i can hardly breathe.
im feeling so suffocated here. -hai-
seriouusly. after saying so much.
i've not said what i really wanted to say yet.
but i wont be saying what i really wanna say.
cos' i guess it's really just not the time yet.
so please give me some time.
i really cant take it any longer.
-hai-
maybe afterall, i need to rely on someone.
i cant seem to be independent any longer.
on the happy note, at least i enjoyed choir today!
and i had an unexpected surprise so tt kinda brightened up my day!
we played double wacko at the end our choir session today.
it was seriously seriously seriously fun.
adele cheated lorh. so bad. purposely stand so close to me.
and i got a big shocked when daniel pointed at me.
so did tt andre. he said my name but the poor J1 dont knw who.
so he asked him to come over to him, and pointed at me. T.T
and i was like sitting just beside him lah.
but cos i knew he didnt know who i was so took the risk.
sat there n wait for him to come before calling someone else. HAHS.
we tried sabotaging adele and we finally managed to.
i must really salute firdaus cos he was the one who managed to wack adele.
i mean we tried v hard to sabotage adele but to no avail.
and firdaus saved he day by wacking adele! *yayy!im so evil XD*
so the choir ended with adele n daniel doing a forfeit- college dance! XD
it was hilarious and entertaining! =D
爱情 是一种怪事
我开始全身不受控制爱情
本事我开始连自己都不是
为你我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是为你写诗
为你写诗 为你静止为
为你我学会弹琴写词
为你失去理智
为你写诗 为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你弹奏所有情歌的句子
我忘了说最美的是你的名字
爱情 是一种怪事
你的笑容是唯一宗旨
爱情 是一种本事
我在你心里什么位置
为你我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是为你写诗
为你写诗 为你静止为
你做不可能的事
为你我学会弹琴写词
为你失去理智
为你写诗 为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你弹奏所有情歌的句子
我忘了说最美的是你的名字
为你写诗 为你静止为
你做不可能的事
为你我学会弹琴写词
为你失去理智
为你写诗 为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你弹奏所有情歌的句子
我忘了说最美的是你的名字
我什么都能忘记
但唯一不忘的是你的名字
我什么都能忘记
但唯一不忘的是你的样子
我什么都能忘记
但唯一不忘的是你的名字
我什么都能忘记
但唯一不忘的是你的样子
but im really glad i've put my heart&soul into doing it.
im starting to get what i want but im not there yet.
there's still some time before i can reach my destination.
hopefully in a month or 2 i will be able to stop at my final destination.
im getting emo&emoier&emoier-ier each day.
im starting to bottle up my feelings agn.
and this time i intend to cont bottling up my feelings.
maybe im feeling very insecure & uncertain.
i've lost all my confidence in myself somehow.
maybe i'll gain when i reach my final destination.
but im afraid i'll lose something somehow by then.
just like in physics work,energy,power.
u'll tend to lose some form of energy when u gain another form of energy.
-hai-
sometimes u try very hard to hide ur feelings from others.
u try very very hard to act as if nothing has happened.
u try super uber hard to think positively.
u try duper hard to make urself try to do the above mentioned.
but i sincerely pray that i wont lose everything in the end.
come to think of it. it has already been 3months.
thats really really long. im quite surprised at the figure too.
but i seriously hope this time will be totally different.
i dont want things to be the way they are as before.
i want some changes n i pray for changes to occur.
i hope for a miracle n i want my life to be better.
i know i have so much to say.
but somehow when i just start typing
i dont seem to know what i wanna say.
it's super duper contradicting.
im getting kind of irritated during choir practice.
someone is obviously not putting our section into her eyes.
she didnt even realise when we didnt even sing at all.
and besides tt someone there's another somewho who's pissing me off.
i got super irritated esp ytd for some reasons.
i dont know why but i just felt so UGH.
sch's keeping me super busy and so is the musical.
time seems to be pushing me to a corner n i can hardly breathe.
im feeling so suffocated here. -hai-
seriouusly. after saying so much.
i've not said what i really wanted to say yet.
but i wont be saying what i really wanna say.
cos' i guess it's really just not the time yet.
so please give me some time.
i really cant take it any longer.
-hai-
maybe afterall, i need to rely on someone.
i cant seem to be independent any longer.
on the happy note, at least i enjoyed choir today!
and i had an unexpected surprise so tt kinda brightened up my day!
we played double wacko at the end our choir session today.
it was seriously seriously seriously fun.
adele cheated lorh. so bad. purposely stand so close to me.
and i got a big shocked when daniel pointed at me.
so did tt andre. he said my name but the poor J1 dont knw who.
so he asked him to come over to him, and pointed at me. T.T
and i was like sitting just beside him lah.
but cos i knew he didnt know who i was so took the risk.
sat there n wait for him to come before calling someone else. HAHS.
we tried sabotaging adele and we finally managed to.
i must really salute firdaus cos he was the one who managed to wack adele.
i mean we tried v hard to sabotage adele but to no avail.
and firdaus saved he day by wacking adele! *yayy!im so evil XD*
so the choir ended with adele n daniel doing a forfeit- college dance! XD
it was hilarious and entertaining! =D
爱情 是一种怪事
我开始全身不受控制爱情
本事我开始连自己都不是
为你我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是为你写诗
为你写诗 为你静止为
为你做不可能的事
为你我学会弹琴写词
为你失去理智
为你写诗 为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你弹奏所有情歌的句子
我忘了说最美的是你的名字
爱情 是一种怪事
你的笑容是唯一宗旨
爱情 是一种本事
我在你心里什么位置
为你我做了太多的傻事
第一件就是为你写诗
为你写诗 为你静止为
你做不可能的事
为你我学会弹琴写词
为你失去理智
为你写诗 为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你弹奏所有情歌的句子
我忘了说最美的是你的名字
为你写诗 为你静止为
你做不可能的事
为你我学会弹琴写词
为你失去理智
为你写诗 为你静止
为你做不可能的事
为你弹奏所有情歌的句子
我忘了说最美的是你的名字
我什么都能忘记
但唯一不忘的是你的名字
我什么都能忘记
但唯一不忘的是你的样子
我什么都能忘记
但唯一不忘的是你的名字
我什么都能忘记
但唯一不忘的是你的样子
Labels: 为你写诗 为你静止 为你做不可能的事~
what we could have been, 4/04/2008 08:14:00 PM.
