something really bad just happened.

yenyen,
im so sorry!!!
the bearbear which u bought for me broke into 2!
T.T
it just broke you know!!!!!! =((
i came out of the toilet then i took out my phone.
suddenly i hear something dropped.
and the next thing i know, the bear was broken into 2 on the floor.


for no reasons the bear broke.
it was in good condition all this while.
how could it have broken when i merely took it out of my pocket?!
does this spell something?
does it gt to do with tml's maths paper?
haish.
it doesnt seem too good. =((

Labels: it has to break now. sigh. sorry yenyen., of all times

gosh.
maths promos is just tml Tml TML! =((
i've got a very very bad feeling about it.
i dont wanna sit there and look at the paper cluelessly for 3hrs.
im just super duper uber afraid.
i want my C!
oh man.
i've gotta tell myself that i can do it!
YES MAYMAY! YOU CAN DO IT! =))
GO GO GO MAYMAY!~
it wont be long before u know that those worries all these while are for nothing!

Labels: MAYMAY WILL BE PROMOTED TO JC2- 2S06 IN YUEAR 2008~ =D

told you my future is ruined!
i screwed up my chinese paper 2 again!
damn the first section.
i've lost 8marks already for just those 2 stupid ans.
i practically gave up halfway thru' the paper 2.
the never-ending waterfall frm my nose worsened my day.
and i dont knw wth paper2 is talking about.
i got so fed up i tt i just took my own sweet time n do my paper.
and i gave up reading o'er n 'er again to search for the right ans.
wth is wrong with me?!
im here worrying tt i would retain n yet im giving up on myself.

orange used to be my motivation.
but it seems so pointless now.
my only source of motivation is now so damn far away frm me.
haish.

just let me rot here.

Labels: does this mark the end of my jc journey?? =((

today was a damn bad day as the bad weather suggest.
i freakingly and kukuly screwed up my DA essay as well as AQ.
damn the singaporeans who are afraid of making mistakes.
i guess i was writing rubbish all the way.
and i freakingly regretted not doing the celebraties qns.
damnit.

i thought econs would be better.
hmms. actually it was a lil' better.
but it didnt help much.
i was damn glad when i finished my essay.
and found myself exactly 45min left for DRQ.
damnit again.
45min left for a 30marks section.
i got paranoid and started panicking.
i did my ans sloppishly.
and i didnt do the 4 n 6marks qns at all.
i repeat my words NOT AT ALL.
and tt freaking 8marks qns.
i only briefly state them.
i didnt discuss about them at all.
i guess i'll prolly can 2 out of 8 for tt?!
so tt means i've lost 16marks in total.
not counting the potential mistakes in my qns.
haish.
i guess my goal of 30 marks out of 55 is now so impossible.
and im ruining my own future with my bloody own hands.
bye guys.
i'll prolly slip into depression aftter promos.
and my heart broken into many pieces when i recieve my results.
and that's the very end of me.
good luck for other upcoming papers! =))

Labels: im dead. seriously dead. future ruined and maybe left with nothing soon.

GOSH!
it's really been super long since i've been so so so tired.
past few days i've been drilling myself with econs till 12am.
it worked out pretty well.
i thought it goes the same for today too.
but i guess i really could take it no longer.
when it was 8plus 9pm, i was on the verge of falling aslp.
i forced myself and i got knocked out at 10pm.
i just got home and i found myself blogging.
i should be sleeping by now.
ohwell.
i will be slping right after i finish blogging.

'study-break' tml.
i would faint if i were to go sch tml.
i guess less than 10 of my classmates will be there.
pretty much confirmed tt many ppl wont be gg.
and im pretty much one of them.
except for peipei who initially wanted to have 'study break' too.
but cos her mother thinks she's crazy and for the sake of fadee.
cos fadee finds it diff to pon sch again.

after working so hard for econs.
i really dont know if i can make it.
i've got a feeling tt my efforts would go down the drain.
im so afraid.
and im full of regrets.
sigh.
im getting worse each day.
someone save me! T.T

ohh!
i overheard this fella's conversation.
he was asking his fren 'u want to see ghost'?
he repeated this qns o'er n o'er again.
then he said i took a pic of one u knw.
his fren refuse to believe in such things.
till he took his handphone n saw the pic.
intitally he told his fren there aint ghost but a man instead.
but his fren told him it'a a ghost not a man.
his fren was shocked n realised there aint a head nor arms.
GOSH.
freaking scary man.
and tt guy said he has alrd sent this pic to STOMP.
LOLS.

oh well.
better stop here.
nite my loves.
promos in 1day!
JIAYOUU! =))

Labels: silence.

im falling sick at such a wrong time.
gosh.
it's guess it's due to fatigue.
the continuous 3-4hr slp a day is what tt caused it.
and the continuous mugging sessions.
so i guess falling sick was signal for me to take a rest.
i feel so bad leaving peili alone in sch cos fadee's absent too.
but seems like she's passing her time in sch quite well.

was supposed to study at yong's hse.
i told her 430.
but it seems tt she's MIA.
ohwell.
maybe she's sick of studying with me!
LOLS.

im dying here.
the doc gave me tons of medicine.
i feel so drowsy after consuming them.
and i feel like gg to bed now.

linlin's bdae was ytd.
and im so glad it was a successful one.
she's pretty shocked to have seen joleen n yenting.
the photos was a right choice.
thanks to the pro may.
went to kovan for dinner with yenyen n yongyong.
and then we proceeded to yong's hse for a round of games.
it's so damn fun and i hydrated myself to much!
LOLS.
hated the part whr we got scolded by tt idiotic security guard.

ohwell.
i'd better start revising now.
take guys.
i dont know when i'll be coming back again. =))

Labels: orange n sunflower will be together one day. sigh.

AHHHHHHHHHHHH

Labels: credits to PEILI who wrote did this when i was away. LOLS.

i dont know why but i've been exceptionally siao today.
must be due to the bad bad peer influence of herman n gang.
and theo owes me tons of sweets tml!
LOLS. =))

and i've made a new discovery today.
5 of my classmates live in terraces.
and 4 of my classmates live in condos.
GOSH.
that's like almost half of the class lah!
haahs.
maymay just lives in a 4 room HDB flat. =((
hehs. kidding lah.
HDB flat rocks man!
it's so cosy and nice. =))

i didnt really bother about him today.
neither did i keep thinking of him.
only that i would notice certain things.
but yah.
seems like im not gg care if they get together or not.
hope i'll cont' to stay like this in future.
cos it really makes me a lot happier! =))
'pui' li tried brain-washing/convincing me with other guys.
but it was a failed attempt.
cos i just like him simply.
i dont know why but yah.

promos is in 9days.
im freaking stressed up.
but i dont seem to be doing anything tt is of help.
here i am blogging, then touch-up on my EoM.
prolly i shall do a lil' of ionic equil if by then my brain is still working.
GOSH!

Labels: i will be right here waiting for euu

anw. now i really wonder if i have the chance to get promoted this class. SIGH. =((

Labels: it's too late now but i've got to give it a shot.

maybe i should spend more time studying in sch afterall.
went back to sch for studying with yongyong.
though it was like still early in the morning.
but i felt it was quite worthwhile afterall.
my revision process is a lil' too slow though.
but at least i managed to do half my chinese hw.
and differentiation tut + revision.
but the thing is.
i stayed in sch for 7hrs and i've only done the above.
GOSH.
be more productive girl! =))

anw.
do u know that u guys almost cant get to see me forever?!
ohmyohmy.
i felt as if i had just escaped from death.
me n yong was at the cheers near our sch thinking what to eat.
suddenly, frm the corners of my eyes, i saw something black wriggling at feets.
i was curious so i decided to take a look.
GOSH!
guess what i saw?!
CENTIPEDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FYI, i was wearing filp-flops kkays!
so my feet was like not covered n it's just 0.5cm away frm my feet!
and O cm away frm yong's shoes!
im just so thankful that i realised it early enough.
and im so thankful that it didnt wriggle to me.
and im so thankful that i wasnt bitten by it!
GOSH!
could u imagine?!
what if i got bitten?!
ohmyohmy!
i wont live till tml to see all my loved ones again!
that was uber scary lah.

i just feel so blessed.

Labels: missing euu.

got back my maths lecture test.
i was so happy tt i got 20/25.
and i was thinking, 'hmms.this can pull my grade up'
the next thing i rmbed.
we have many other tests to include too.
GOSH.
tt includes functions which i got like only 3/10?!
and inequalities which i failed by a mere mark.
plus the differentiation test which i failed too!
ohmyohmy.
that 20/25 marks test aint going to give me a gd grade afterall.

ytd sylvia mentioned abt how scared she is for promos.
not for the promo papers but rather the combined marks.
the freaking grades we got for mid yr is gg to kill us.
we need at least a 60plus marks for chem in order to get an E.
which im afraid i cant cos the past promo papers r like super diff.
anw. this conversation got us quite depressed and worried.
i couldnt help but fret.
i couldnt help but be afraid.
i couldnt help but think 'what if i get kicked out of sch?!'
i couldnt help but think 'what if i get retained?!'
im bucking up only at this moment.
which i know is seriously too late.
with like only 10days left.
and i've a bad feeling that i would flunk econs badly.
T.T

now it's not only up to me if i wanna pass.
luck has a big role to play now.
and i just hope i'll be blessed with lots of luck.

Labels: it's been so serious tt i cant stop going ga-ga over euu.

we arrived at raffles landing site at 9.30am.

me n kailin got so bored tt we decided to roam abt n we saw HER! n kailin went mad. LOLS.

im so sorry sasa! my phone lagged and the end product was this face! tsk tsk.

the duckie chop which was meant for the kids who played the inflatable balloon! but i got one for myself too!


the 3duckies got to reunite after such a long day! haahs.

he's the SIM guy whom i've been gg abt telling ppl. he's nice,lame and gentlemanly! LOLS.
and the camera wasnt directed at him actually but he thought it was and he decided to twist. oh well. as alicia said, to satisfy him, this photo was taken! [p/s-he's cute right?! hehs.] =D

it was 5plus and the duck race finally ended. =))

finally the journey home. (unsuccessful one cos our LONG hair! hahs)

so we decided to take another one. this time, we're clever to put out hair in front.

this sums up the whole duck race day.

and we're so proud to be the DUCK CREW! XD

Labels: feel like giving up my love for him now. it seems pointless at time goes by.

im so dead and burnt now.
details for today's duck race event shall come maybe tml.
cos i was busy looking for the SIMguy on friendster.
LOLS.

im not being 'hua chi' here by the way.
he's just a nice,lame,gentlemanly SIMguy which i forgot to ask for his friendster.
so i decided to try my luck but cant make it.
HAHS.

im so tired now.
night my loves. =))

i love the duck race! tsk.

Labels: unfated SIM guy. i've still yet to send euu ur pic provided i can find euu. LOLS.

the weather this morning was freaking cold.
the moment i stepped out of my house, i was freezing.
the wind was so strong that it almost blewed my jacket away,
while i was trying to oppose the wind resistence n put it on.
HAHS.

my parents recommended me this fishball noodle at rochor.
the queue was so so so so long n we waited for like 45min?
i would say it's relatively nice.
and could u believe tt my parents actually forgot abt me?!
i was there waiting for them to finish praying to the gods.
so i waited and waited so patiently.
and i was like thinking, 'eh,why are they taking so long today?!'
the next thing, i saw my mum walking frm a direction not frm the temple.
i was so puzzled n before i could ask her.
she replied my yet-to-ask qns.
'we totally forgot about u n we went to see the fortune-teller. halfway
through, we then remembered tt u came out with us today.'
GOSH. i felt so hurt. they forgot about me! =((

me n my parents overheard this funny conversation.
it was super duper uber funny.
u see, we were sitting in this v plain n simple fortune telling shop
it has nothing but a table, fortune teller,chairs,fan n customers.
very very very simple.
so there was this couple who walked past the fortune telling shop.
and the husband was like asking ' it's this shop isnt it?'
and the wife replied 'no lah, this is a clinic not that shop'
LOLS. it's super hilarious lah.
since when did a fortune telling shop turn into a clinic?!
me n my parents had a good laugh.
HAHS.

battle against the yellow rubber duckies starts tml.
i wonder if we'll win or the duckies win?
LOLS.
i hope i wont die there again.
the tagging of ducks was enough.
ohmyohmy.
it's going to be a long day.
which means i wont be able to do my revision tml.
=((

Labels: constantly thinking of euu.

i went to sch in the morning till 2pm.
yong said she spotted him in the late afternn.
GOSH!
guess we're just not fated lah. =((

went to collect my darling.
*ahem*
i meant my darling handphone. XD
i love everything now.
except for the stupid camera capture tone.
gosh. it's the last thing i ever wanted.
now i can never snap pics of ppl on the sly.
awwwwwww. esp him.
LOLS.
the upgraded software just sucks.

threeLs.
i guess i'll just stick to being his guardian angel.
although i dont think i'll be able to fufil my duty as one too.
cos it seems he has her to his guardian angel.
and there'll not b a chance for me to do so.
oh well.
nevertheless.
i would still try. =))

sad,happy,angry,depressed moments.
it's inevitable.
but still, im thankful that God gave me a chance to know euu.
and not forgetting, my 7darlings! =))
i think i should change it to 9.
including my dearest ah li and fadee now. =D

Labels: i shall jus stick to being ur guardian angel ok?

if only days like today would continue.
i was over the moon today.
and i couldnt stop smiling.
i would consider it a surprise cos i didnt expect to see him.

consultions are effective afterall. =))
just 1/2 hr session w/ mr lim on oscillations.
and viola!
i know what the whole topic is about.
at least i know the basics.
only need to learn how to apply.
cos the freaking online quiz on oscillations almost killed me.
lady luck was really on my side.
i managed a 14/21 so im relatively satisfied.
managed to understand the 2nd book of econs.
thanks to mr tan toh hwee. =))
read through again after i got home.
and im glad to say tt at least i know parts of the book now!
im now kinda motivated to study.
so yupps!
i'll be mugging 100times more than usual.

i guess im kinda siao now.
i get happy n sad at an instant sec.
look at my post ytd n today.
the contrast is like omg.
but i hope happy posts like today's will cont'!
haahs.

ohh!
yenyen got for JI* a bearbear hp accessory each!
and mine is pink pink pink in colour!
thanks yenyen!
i love it so much! hehs.

but my phone's still at nokia service centre.
and i'll only be collecting it 2ml afternn.
i cant wait! i just miss my phone lots!
it has been 4days w/o my phone by my side. =((
although my kor lend me his O2 atom phone.
i still miss mine a lot.
cos O2 atom is super inconvenient.
dont like.though it's like WOW to many. haahs.
but it doesnt mean it's so good.
FYI: i sent my phone for repair cos the volume key cracked.
and it's gg to cost a bomb! T.T
tt lady said it would cost abt 50bucks.
just a teeny weeny volume key button for 50bucks?
i swear im gg to handle my phone w/ care frm now!
i dont want another 50bucks to fly away again.
LOLS.

idontknow what to do.
but i guess i shall just wait.
2yrs of jc aint long.
and time wont wait for me.
but i just dont have the courage.
i aint gg to care if he falls for her n get together.
i'll just be his guardian angel then.
or maybe be like yong n find another one?!
LOLS.

Labels: i'm one crazy girl who just got discharged from IMH.

yenyen suggest i should vent my frustrations here.
so i shall try and see if it makes me feel better.

i hate euu i hate euu i hate euu.
i dont like euu i dont like euu i dont like euu.
euu suck euu suck euu suck.
i hate euu i hate euu i hate euu.
i dont like euu i dont like euu i dont like euu.
euu suck euu suck euu suck.
i hate euu i hate euu i hate euu.
i dont like euu i dont like euu i dont like euu.
euu suck euu suck euu suck.

i want to forget euu i want to forget euu i want to forget euu
i want to forget euu i want to forget euu i want to forget euu
i want to forget euu i want to forget euu i want to forget euu
i want to forget euu i want to forget euu i want to forget euu

Labels: this doesnt seem to help. =((

i tried very hard to resist the temptation of using the com.
apparently i managed for only one day.
cos i really wanted to talk to some1 n i didnt want to waste money toking on the phone.
so i decided to just on the com n log in to msn.

i thought today was relatively a happy day for me.
things went pretty well since morning.
i even got excited n happy over him.
but as i was walking with ah li from the general office,
i saw him there and then.
i was so happy telling ah li he havent go home yet leh.
but the next thing i knew, we both saw him n her together.
i was so devastated. i just felt like crying.
i wanted to forget him.
ah li told me to do so too.
but i just cant seem to do it.
i almost cried on my lonely journey home.
and for once.
he made my eyes filled with tears.
my dad saw my listless, emo face when i got home.
kept asking me what happen, he asked if i was just too tired.
so i just said yah.
deep down i really wanted to say no and tell him all abt my troubles.
but i knw he wld lecture me if i were to say it out.

deep down in my heart, i seriously feel terrible.
i dont wish to go sch anymore.
what i see would make me breakbrown.
i just dont want.

imagine seeing a guy whom u like starts hanging out with this girl.
not once not twice but very often.
and then u see the girl who keeps talking about him.
and all of her conversation is about him.
friends keep pairing them up.
he keeps cheering her up.
she promises him lots of things.
she buys him presents.
how would you feel?!
terrible right?!

please help me forget him.
it's really tiring n heartbreaking.
i really dont know what to do.
i feel so helpless.
i love him.
but loving him is a torture for me.

Labels: could some1 just brainwash me? i wanna forget him, everything about him. T.T

i said i wouldnt be touching the com much less blogging.
but i had to cos maykoh just sent me my EoM 2nd draft.
and i decided to blog to thank my girlfriends after seeing their tags.

many many thanks girls!
i love you guys lots.
and i swear he will NEVER come before u girls. =D
im really feeling very very miserable.
and i've really got so much to tell y'all.
just that it's better to talk in person.
so i just cant wait for sch tml.

as to xiaohui.
i've read the post in ur blog.
thanks lots.
and i'll never trust any 'facts' unless i see/hear it myself.
but the harsh truth is tt i've seen n hear it for myself.
i've read everything tt was written on her blog.
and everything is all about him him him.
u said tt even if she liked him,he wouldnt have let her wait tt long.
but now it seems tt he's beginning to like her.
idontknow. it's my intuition.
my intuition has always been accurate but this time.
i really wished tt i would be wrong.
anw.
what u wrote was already superb for me.
i really appreciated it! =D
(see i give u face! tsk.)

anw i saw MS LUM in town today.

in short.
i really love u girls a lot! =))
and i know i can always count on u if i needed help.
but this time.
i guess i've to bear all the consequences since i've decided hide my feelings frm him.
so if he really likes her n they get together.
i'll just have to suffer silently at one corner.
cos this is a path which i've chosen myself.
i'll try to fight the emo virus away kkays? =))

Labels: thanks girls. i really dont know what to do if god took u girls away from my life. =D

im feeling so down, very miserable.
i just dont know what to do.
i can always tell my girlfriends abt my stories.
but it seems i've been saying n saying the same thing o'er n o'er again.
so i guess i dont wish to trouble them anymore.
since they are already feeling so much more miserable than me.
what should i really do?!
can someone just tell me?!?!?!?!?!? =((

once again, i saw certain things which i didnt want.
idontknow.
i can sense there's something's gg on between them.
maybe i should just stop touching the com till after promos.
it's a total distraction.
it makes me depressed and wastes my time.
it's going to be difficult but.
i guess i shall just try n do that.
i wont be blogging for long.
so guys.

all the best for promos which is in 25days!
and miss me yah?! hehs.

Labels: im a lost sheep and are euu willing to guide me through?

found out much more stuffs about him.
and i was thinking.
if u love someone truly, u'll love him for everything too right?
i tried persuading myself.
but im not sure if i've succeeded.
i used to dislike certain behaviours which ppl have.
to him, everything seems to revolve around 1 'person'.
maybe that's why i find it hard to talk to him more often.
idontknow. im not sure.
but all i know i still like him a lot.

maybe i should jus focus on promos now.
and leave everything till after promos.

Labels: cos euu bring out the best in me~like no one else can do~that's why im by ur side~ that's why im loving euu.

GOSH.
it's the worst CIP ever.
or maybe it's one of the 1st where i really put in lots of effort to do it.
HAHS.

i got a shocked early in the morning on the bus.
nigel gave me an unexpected 'HEY MAY!'.
so me n yong was like 'uhmmm. ohkays.'
it's really weird since i dont say hi or wave to him when i c him in sch.
oh well.
tt was really weird though! LOLS.

tagging of rubber ducks was an uber DIRTY job! =X
and it was one where i find unwanted guests- baby silver fish n spiders!
i kept screaming and it was so often that they couldnt even b bothered with me. =((
we got our hands and legs all dirty. and it's really dirty.
it was uber tiring that we all have rubber duckies phobia now!
everyone was like 'im going to eat more ducks for revenge!' LOLS.
that sentence was so cute!
big boxes of ducks come continuously n it never seemed to stop.
even before we could finish what we have on hand.
more boxes of ducks just comes 'wading' in.
and our nightmare started when they gave the uber huge crate of rubber duckies!
GOSH. but that was where i nightmare ended too. =))
rubber duckies began flying when everyone got so exhuasted n bored.
i seriously swear im never ever gg to do the tagging of rubber ducks for cip again!
and please dont let me see rubber duckies within these few days!
GOSH.
im seriously having a rubber duckies phobia now! LOLS.

one auntie asked if me and sasa were sisters!
LOLS. we were like 'huh?'
ohmy! we look like sisters?! GOSH! XD
anw.
sasa kept complainging that we were so unglam when we washed our feets in the basin.
haahs. she and her glam glam glam glam image. LOLS.
oh well. sasa kept telling me about hairspray n gosh!
i really hate u sasa! =X
u are tempting me to watch hairspray right now when i cant! =((
HAHS.

and sasa was uber malu today.
she and her earphones.
got hooked onto an ah pek's umbrella.
and she nearly couldnt get out of the train!
i couldnt help but laugh u know.
LOLS.

anw.
there's another CIP next sunday.
awwwww.
tt means another day of doing no-pay job.

i hate it when ppl keeps changing the dates when we've alrd decided to go out tml.
UGH.
uber indecisive.
feel like killing someone now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ohh!
and i love my kor's cooking-sphaghetti!
it's uber uber uber uber uber nice!
HEHS. =D

Labels: surprisingly i manage to get euu off my mind for 12whole hours.

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