woke up like super early today.
UGH.
slacked and practised in the organ room.
saw srjc-ians strolling into the sch.
and my heart began to race.
actually i wasnt afraid of the crowd.
but rather euu-know-who.
he just makes me blush.
ohmy.
yong spotted him for me when they began gg into the hall.
called out to ah li n fadee but they couldnt hear me. =((
couldnt spot him int he hall.
and i felt so demoralised.
and thanks to yongyong.
she spotted him!
AHHH.
thanks yongyong!!!! =))
couldnt stop myself frm looking at him.
since it's so impossible for him to catch me red-handed.
HEHS.
i almost died when our performance was nearing.
it's just all about him making me feel super nervous.
it really sucked.
and it could have been better.
damn the useless mikes n sound system.
kailin,alicia,linlin,herman n nigel said it was really soft. =((
i just feel so frustrated.
it seriously could have been so much better!
anw.
me n yonyong went crazy over the purple balloons.
and we decided to bring them back to WSS!
LOLS.
but we realised that it was took up lotsa space.
and it was pretty troublesome. HEHS.
thought that i wouldnt have the chance to see him after sch.
kept keeping a lookout for him but to no avail.
kind of dampened my mood.
but i did not give up hopes either.
and it was seriously LONG after yongyong spot him again!
AHHHHHHH!
i almost felt like fainting back then.
linlin kept asking me to look at him but i dont dare!!!!!!!
so scary!
later i look at him then he look at me!
OMG!
i just cont'ed screaming like an idiot.
he just stood a few distance away frm me u know!!!
ohmyohmyohmy!!!!!
could take it no longer.
yongyong was kind enough to snap a photo of him.
but of cos with JI n linlin as a smokescreen.
LOLS.
it was a hilarious sight lah.
but it was an unsuccessful at the same time.
HAHS.
he went off and we decided to leave too.
and he was alone alone alone u know!
ohmyohmyohmy.
he was just walking in front of me!
but i too shy lah.
dont dare to say byebye. =((
this time he went to the right.
the usual direction i would walk on normal sch days.
i thought we could take 153 frm there too.
but the rest wanted to take 55 in the left direction.
ohwell.
all i could say is that we have no fate lah.
he goes left n i go right.
but i go left, he goes to the right.
anw.
got back to WSS.
waited for tt idiot edmund for like dont know how long!
7girls+1guy waiting for 1guy!
hahs.
shared all our cute cute encounters while waiting.
and i must say tt rice is so much crazier than me.
she even thought of marrying him!
OHMY!
LOLS.
tianzhe's still as tall as ever.
but he claims he's 'contracting' now.
LOLS.
edmund's still edmund.
but sooho looks 100% korean now!
i could still rmb tt he looked like some hamtaro back then.
but now he's got a purely korean look!
that's like so cool man! HAHS.
saw sng. he doesnt look tt gay anymore. LOLS.
kaizhi's still tt uncle businessman n yida's just yida lah!
saw my darling hazel.
hahs.
she was so happy that she could hug us.
awwwww. so touched. hehs.
chatted with ms wong n i rmbed her fave word was 'AH-NIA'.
she was super cute lah.
asked tianzhe if he's married.
and asked us if we're engaged.
and said we must be more 'productive'! LOLS.
met kenkor.
he was super busy consulting the juniors with phy.
and come to think of it,
we didnt really bother about phy when O's was here!
LOLS.
saw mdm chiong and AGAIN, ms lee wasnt there.
she was busy looking after her 2daughters at home.
looked for mr ngo in the HOD.
and he thought we graduated 2yrs ago! HAHS.
crapped with him as usual.
went for kbox at amk.
everyone just went crazy.
esp when we were making fun of the ppl in the next room beside ours.
LOLS.
it was hilarious n it was freaking cold too.
we almost freezed to our death there n then.
and i didnt know what happened n suddenly, phototaking session started.
no one cared about the songs n we just cam-whored.
LOLS.
im freaking dead beat now.
i have not bathe and im lazy to do so.
and i forgot there's CIP-tagging of the rubber ducks tml.
GOSH.
so shopping's postponed to sunday.
i cant wait for new shoes. =))
Labels: happy teachers' daylalalala~ happy teachers' day to u~ happy teachers' day lalalala~ may all ur dreams come true~ =))
what we could have been, 8/31/2007 09:38:00 PM.
Thursday, August 30, 2007
lots of things happened today.happy,sad,nervous,excited and scary moments.i rmbed that day i was telling peili abt this guy.and he overheard it.on the very same day and time today, i saw him looking out continuously.makes me wonder if he was trying to see the guy which i mentioned.maybe im just thinking too much.i had goosebumps during chinese.it was like on and off.super scary.i just felt very uneasy.chemistry tut was at S4-3.as i was walking along the corridor to the toilet,i heard this eerie guy's voice lah.he or she or IT was like whispering my name 'MAY.......'it was seriously freaking scary.and i had goosebumps again.peili n fadee said they didnt hear anything.i turned n saw the guys way back.so i reckon it wasnt them.cos it's so way impossible.and it made me wonder if i could really sense 'them'.sense but cant see.freaking scary.went for lecture.colin called me.and it sounded like tt freaking 'IT'.so i decided to try my luck and ask.but he said he didnt call me just now.WTH.it must be 'IT' alrd lah!!!!! T.Tfreaking scared.physics tut.slacked here and there.had a 5min break.went out with fadee along the corridor for a breather.spotted him there n then.i didnt know if i made the correct choice.but it felt as if it wasnt a right one.i knew i could just emo there n you know.but it seems i've let this opportunity slip by.felt it was a pity though.slacked at SAC after sch.spotted him there n then again.kept telling peili about him.HAHS.kept asking if he's still there.went for physics extra tut ater that.i spotted him still there but this time not alone.felt the pain.how i wished i was the one there instead.SIGH.slacked once again during phy.peili did something funny.LOLS.shant elaborate further.but i guessed someone would be mistaken.HAHS.peili ah peili.u very funny lorh!but thanks for sacrificing for my sake!HAHS.went home.saw him there n then again.but i didnt there to look.AHH.ah li asked me to wave bye bye to him but i dont dare!AHHHHHH!so i missed my opportunity n i just went off not daring to look at him.i cant see him tml.SO SAD.and i cant see peili n fadee too cos i wont be with my class!SO SAD!i'll be missing them so much!HAHS.and him too.HEHS.seems like when it comes to him.i've got so much to write.oh well.i cant wait for tml.wss, my girlfriends, my juniors, my seniors n prolly mdm chiong!HAHS.and 2ml's the day i can share all my stories in SR with dem!WHEE.i just cant wait wait wait!enjoy ur sept hols peeps!LOVES. =))Labels: shalalala~ it's so nice to be happy~
what we could have been, 8/30/2007 07:10:00 PM.
hmms.was i happy today?!LOLS.i guess i was. >.<cos i didnt see or hear the things which i didnt want to.so generally, i was feeling good.only that i couldnt go home with him.sad lah.HEHS.PE was superb!rugby+poison ball+hulla hoop?!LOLS.superb game!rehearsal sucks man.not only did our rehearsal suck, the attendance suck too.mind u, it's like 8 out of 16.it was the last rehearsal, yet it was the worst one of all lah.felt so demoralised.pissed off.exhuasted.yong's still MIA.i miss her so much!saw the suicidal case on the newspaper ytd.hope she's doing fine.she seems uncontactable!so yong! if u are reading this lemme know tt u're alive kkays?!XDanw.i have to report to sch at 6.30am on friday. T.Tim not even awake yet at 6.30am lah.gosh.=((Labels: euu bring out the best in me
what we could have been, 8/30/2007 12:49:00 AM.
couldnt believe that i actually blushed this morning.and the reason for that was becos i spotted him there.LOLS.i was happily telling xh, ohmy! he's there he's there!and the next thing i knew, my face was red.tsk tsk. >.<uber happy lah.OP wasnt good.i felt i was speaking quite loud.but they said it was rather soft.oh my.i was so afraid that i would be v loud u know?!HAHS.weird.anw, im just glad tt it's finally over! =))chem lecture.HMMS.was pretty sad initially.cos i kept hearing some things from this idiot.and there i was complaining to ah li.but i got better as time goes by.LOLS.but still.....was so excited when i saw him after chem lect.i almost died of heart attack.HAHS.and i saw him THERE there THERE! XDi said i wanted to talk more to him.but i didnt. =((yong's absent from sch today.and she'll be absent tml too.some family probs that she had to attend to lah.so there i was, walking lonely down tt stretch of road.LOLS.full dress rehearsal tml.ohmy!i've got to bring to much stuffs to sch lah!my heels, my top, my jeans.GOSH.did the walk with shane n herman.found out some juicy gossips from them.HAHS.pretty interesting.didnt knew that.and im so glad tt they said i dont look like ah lian! =))cos maybellyn n sylvia said tt for the first time they saw me,they said i looked like some ah lian n thought i was one too.=((that was so hurting!HAHS.nah. kidding.im so looking forward to friday!ahhh.i just cant wait!!!!!it's back to the old kiddy sch days.HAHS.Labels: i have the urge to tell euu how i feel eveytime i see euu.
what we could have been, 8/28/2007 09:04:00 PM.
i was pretty upset over certain things today.intially i was so looking forward to today.but yah.it was a disappointment afterall.i began looking forward to tml until just now.i've got a feeling it will be a disappointment tml again.maymay is so sad.=((seriously screwed up econs test.i guess i might get only 3-4/15.T.Ttml's OP!AHHHHHH~im getting pretty ummm nervous now!ohmyohmyohmyohmyohmyohmy!UGH.
i just cant get things off my head lah.
i mean HIM.
i just cant get him outta my head.
AHHHHHH~
so worried lah.
but what can i do?
NOTHING.
precisely NOTHING!
T.T
Labels: i didnt do what a guardian angel is suppose to do.
what we could have been, 8/27/2007 08:10:00 PM.
one moment i was feeling so happy and the very next.....it's really amazing how one's mood changes so quickly.i was happily thinking of what ahli told me last night.thinking about the incident last friday.i smiled as i went to sleep.i was all smiles today too.till i saw some stuffs lah.SIGH.idontknow.it may not be her now.but it seems like it's gg to happen.it may not be her.but it seems like another her.or even that other other her.ijustdontknow.i tried studying econs just now.i read through.but i dont really understand a single thing at all.i feel so despaired.im just going flunk it terribly tml.=((shawn tok emerged as CSS2 champion. =))wasnt that excited afterall.was supposed to go for the chorale concert just now.but i kinda overslept n yah.gave it a miss.OP's on tues.ohmyohmyohmyohmyohmyohmy!!im freaking out.myhearthurtsalloveragain.plainjealousy?idontknow.but i guess it's more of being afraid.im told myself to start n try talking more to him in sch.i told myself i want and i'll be doing my best.will i succeed?addicted to the song 'love me' by collin raye.Labels: and between now and then till i see euu again~ i'll be loving euu~ love me.
what we could have been, 8/26/2007 10:20:00 PM.
Saturday, August 25, 2007
freaking sleepy today.overslept and i was almost late.suzanna was really scaring the daylights out of us.and by looking at how suzanna sings makes me laugh like mad.the whole rehearsal started at 8am early in the morning.and it ended late at 12pm. =((there were a few breaks here and there.me n yong got so bored tt started trying singing canon.tried so many many songs.and i guess 写一首简单的歌 was the only song we succeeded in the canon.LOLS.SC's performance was like super cute lah.so was crystal's performance.oh well.though i really dont like her n she dont really like me.but i must say that she really sings well.im so mesmerized by her rendition on collin raye's - LOVE ME song.if a guy were to sing me that song.oh my.i would fall in love with that guy right away!but prefably euu would be better candidate to sing me tt song.tsk tsk. XDthe song is just super touching. =))went shopping in town.im going to get more more more pumps and heels during the sept hols!HEHS. CSS2 Grand Finals is showing now.oh my oh my oh my!!!i just hope shawn wins lah.super cute face + super cute build+ super cute voice!oh well.tata guys.i wanna catch my CSS2 performances. =DLabels: between now and then till i see euu again. i'll be loving euu. love me.
what we could have been, 8/25/2007 06:43:00 PM.
sch was pretty alright for me today.except that i kept falling asleep.i was seriously too tired lah.so i had a good nap during maths lecture.wasnt tt good actually cos i was still super tired.and i was so tired tt i didnt even bothered to talk during PW.i got freaked out when i was on way to LT5.for once i thought i saw 'the good brothers'.stupid mingkai squatted behind the doors lah.it was super dark there.imagine u walk in, and suddenly u see a face out of nowhere!screamed like some idiot.but thanks to peili who walked away when she opened the door.if not i would have just step right onto him.LOLS.i was so reluctant to go for choir.just hated the warm ups lah.the rehearsal made it even worse.tt idiot logistics guy ruined our day.could he at least for once do a good job on the mikes n volume?!WTH.was seriously pissed off.i couldnt even hear the altos lah!UGH.herman was super funny.couldnt stop laughing at him when i saw him dance.tsk tsk. XDi've got go for the rehearsal tml early in the morning.SO SAD. T.Ti NEED a 24hr sleep.GOSH.p/s- linlin. my blog not emo anw lerh right?! HEHS. i will try to like him in a happier way! =))Labels: i just dont understand what euu are trying to do. but i've got the feeling that euu........
what we could have been, 8/25/2007 12:42:00 AM.
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
i wasnt s single bit happy about sch today.and i really felt tt i shld have just stayed home and rot.i felt so terrible during chemistry.i didnt even feel like talking at all.ah li helped me gather some info about him.but still.im not confident about that answer.cos afterall, tt insider aint that close to him compared to the rest.so whether her answer is reliable or not im not sure.pms halfway through choir.slept on the table.wasnt exactly sleeping, but thinking through stuffs.and i was on the brink of crying.my heart just hurts a lot lah.and im uber sure he doesnt care a single bit abt me.just so saddening.im just a worthless piece of shit.it's so damn obvious.and all the glimpse n everything are just pure coincidence.i dont wanna hold my hopes too high anymore.the rehearsal was just a waste of time.showed linlin n yongyong tt girl.oh well. SIGH.i was quite satisfied with the 2nd run.cos linlin said she could hear the altos!!!most imptly, she heard me with the 'skies of blue~' part!a great sense of satisfaction. =))and she said the whole vocal arrangement was superb!must really thank uncle ernest for having arranged the song so well!i hope on the acutal day, the whole performance would turn out well.whole rehearsal ended at 7pm.just didnt like it lah.i wanted to go home n sleep so badly.anw.just being random here.'I LOVE MY GIRLFRIENDS LOTS!'not forgetting FEN n LING too!thanks for hearing all my stories.esp. ah li,fen,yong and lin.thanks lots! it really helped me a lot. =))love ya guys.Labels: really a big thanks to all who have listened to what i've gt to say all this while. many thanks people.
what we could have been, 8/22/2007 07:59:00 PM.
it's like finally i've gone to see the doctor.that's like how many dino ages later.he said my gastric was screwed up.and i've gotten food poisioning too. =Xso that's explains why i've been having the runs for 5days.hmms. should be 6 including today.right after i took my medication, that was it!i really felt like dying dying dying.he gave me 2days MC.could extend it if my condtition gets worse.but im gg sch 2ml for my fave inline skating! XDand maybe i shall consider taking early leave after tt!tsk tsk. today wasnt a very good day for me.or rather my life has been upside down ever since last thurs.i just feel so down down down.i tried keeping myself up up up.but to no avail.seeing them together just makes me sad sad sad.could euu just feel my pain??? did something stupid today which led to a misunderstanding.GOSH.i dont know if he really takes it for real or whatever shit.but i just dont feel too good.T.Tmy heart hurts like shit.it feels like it's gg to shatter any moment.he aint going to comfort me.he doesnt knw what's gg on.i doubt he'll even care.i feel like crying now now NOW.but the tears seem to have all dried up.it just hurts damn lot.euu can nv understand my pain.i ask for nothing much.but just a lil' bit of concern from euu.is it really tt hard?i feel uber useless.worthless.T.Theartbreaking moments hidden behind those smiles.almost everyone thinks that im forever happy.forever having a smile of her face, no worries, no nothing.probably it's becos i smile and laugh over the slightest things.too much that leaves tt impression on ppl.maybe 1 day i should just remove tt mask of mine.doesnt mean tt im love smiling+laughing means that im happy.i've got all kinds of feelings too do euu know that?SIGH.Labels: i never regretted loving euu even though it hurts super lots seeing euu both together. i just feel like crying. T.T
what we could have been, 8/22/2007 12:41:00 AM.
i realised my gastric acts up only in the late afternns.GOSH.i almost died here and there.and i was stupid enough to have eaten chicken 'MAYO'.thinking that i could get something down to stop the pain.stupid mayo mayo mayo mayo!!!!it just makes thing even worse!!!! T.Thavent run in the rain for long.but i did it today.simply fun.simply may's own way of relieving stress.simply may's own way of forgetting all her troubles.i didnt know soccer could be that fun.except for the muddy disgusting field. =))got myself tanned again ytd.OH MY.i seriously got to even my tone colour.hate tt ugly fairer patch which just stays there.i guess my face is as tanned as it is.super not that nice lah.tsk tsk.chem's spa 2ml.let's pray hard tt i'll do the experiment smoothly. =))tata.nights my loves.my nice guy. =))Labels: i've got to say what's on my mind.
what we could have been, 8/20/2007 10:12:00 PM.
i seriously suspect that there's something wrong with my gastric.it has been like that for 4days alrd!OH MY! T.Ti just feel like dying now.i just dont know wth is wrong with it.and i hate to see a doctor.=((i've got lots of assignments not done yet.chinese,maths,econs.SIGH.the pain is just killing me and i just cant focus on doin anything.fenfen told me to tell him my feelings.but i dont think i would want to.she gave me many many pointers.but im just too scared to initiate anything.it just feels so scary.all my courage has gone with the wind.im just no longer that girl who's not afraid of the consequences.promos is in a month.i dont know if im going to make it.mid-yrs was just pure luck.this time it's different.hark work is what i have to put in.but i've got no motivation.T.Tcan anyone just save me from this bottomless pit?Labels: could someone tell me exactly what should i do?
what we could have been, 8/19/2007 11:15:00 PM.
Saturday, August 18, 2007
choir's audition for teachers' day. watched the jammers club performed. their singing are really like shit lah. for god's sake! they are like shouting n screaming but not singing! and 1 of them was like super act cool but it was an unsuccessful attempt! LOLS. we were laughing like mad lah! i felt our performance was super anti-climax lah. should have suggested we're all in this together right from the start! it's super high and up-beat lah. and we were like suggesting. after our song, we just sing HSM song randomly! something went wrong during the performance. and i couldnt stop myself frm laughing. sop's mike was sliding off the mike stand lah. belle had no choice but to hold it and she was freaked out. linlin kailin was laughing while our song cont'ed n i giggled there. it was super malu lah. i was like 'oh my oh my!' the song has to cont if not they would just here our giggles only! super paiseh. they said we sang well. but in the first place the mike for altos wasnt like even on lah. i couldnt hear myself. n tt freaking logistics guy said our mike was on when it wasnt! WTH. we could only hear belle lah since she held the mike. oh well. it's all over. saw herman n councilors performing a dance item. super cute lah but it was short too. couldnt stop thinking about him. he just stays in my mind. i shall just take things easy. and weekends really seem long for me. SIGH.*I've go to move on and be who I am I just don't belong here I hope you understand We might find our place in this world someday But at least for now I gotta go my own way.Labels: i've got to move on and be who i am.
what we could have been, 8/18/2007 05:10:00 PM.
SIGH.i seriously dont know what's going on in his mind.linlin said she caught him catching a glimpse of me.but i really dont know lah.she said if he also liked her,he wouldnt have let her wait so long.i was like oh yah, it make sense but there might be exceptions.she brought up something which made me uber sad.JC is only 2yrs.2yrs would be gone in no time.he will go NS in the 3rd year whereas i'll end up in uni.you get what i mean?!i dont know if i would regret if i dont tell him.im just at a loss.chen mama ask me to tell him.but i dont dare.once bitten twice shy you know?!anw.my gastric is really giving me lots of problems.it's already the 2nd day and yet it doesnt get any better.i almost died in sch today.but thanks to the hot milo n of cos euu-know-who lah.choir was alright.i almost got freaked out.cos i was almost asked to do solo for one part of the song on teachers' day!im so damn relieved.cos i was so nervous that i went out of pitch.and i guess ernest didnt want me anymore.LOLS.so that was really a close shave lah! =))suddenly thought of something.something that happened to him.i could feel the pain for him lah.cos it happened to me once also.i was seriously so worried lah.but i didnt know how to react.audition is on 2ml.i dont know if i really want choir to get through.for some particluar reason im just reluctant.ohkays.not exactly reluctant.it's jut that i want and dont want to get through the auditions.went home at 8pm.saw those people at kovan.i was like 'oh my!is he there?!'constantly looking around to check out.but to no avail.i guess we're just not fated lah.SIGH.i really missed tt day where we went on the same bus.i just wished time would just stop there you know?!im just so exhuasted.i thought i could have a long sleep tonight.but NO! T.Ti've got to wake up at 6.30am for the auditions tml!!!!i just feel so weak now lah!!!!poor health.Labels: i want to be your one and only guardian angel.
what we could have been, 8/17/2007 09:42:00 PM.
Thursday, August 16, 2007
freaking day it was.saw the both of them like u know.super sad lah.almost broke down becos of physics spa.tears of joy after spa was over.and i was too happy to think about anything else.sleep-walked my way home.was uber tired with a terrible gastric problem.almost died.slept till 8.30pm n when i woke up,i found myself down with a freaking stupid fever.a sore throat n flu which u'll never want!UGH.im as sick as any1 can imagine.im dying im dying n probably dead in the next sec.i did the stupidiest thing ever on earth.2nd time doing it.love can really make me lose my rationality.SIGH.it was a wasted attempt anw.i dread coming to sch tml.the freaking sick bug is bugging me.T.TLabels: it really hurts when u see the guy u like comforting the girl who likes him too. T.T
what we could have been, 8/16/2007 10:12:00 PM.
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
my day didnt start that well for me.the first thing i saw was her talking to him.and tt her liked him and he knows tt too.and having seen that, it dampens my mood.however, the next moment i was super happy again.but it's like sad happy sad happy and then sad again the next moment.i just dont like tt feeling lah.T.Tanw.inline skating today.oh well.i fell once again.stupid AHFU laughed at me!and he said i look like jimmy neutron's friend!WTH?!i was super malu today lah.we tried doing the backwards 'inward outward' skill.but apparently it was super hard tt AHFU kept laughing at me!HMPH.he's was like 'may ah! dont sit on air lah!'so he was like constantly shouting out my name purposely!but he's nice n fun anw.too bad he wont be here next week to coach us.but he made an agreement with us to go roller blading at east coast 1day!physics test.i guess i might only get 1mark.1 pathetic mark.SIGH.after sch was fun.cos linlin kept 'ahem-ing'.made me blush like mad.but i was super happy anw.i made peili super excited too with nice guy.and we found out his ccs thanks to the PRO MAY! so i guess ah li must be super duper uber happy now! =))i was super suay this morning.i left my oh-so-dear handphone at home! T.Ti almost died without it you knw!no msg to reply, cant sms people, cant call, etc.guess it's the result for over reliance on technology.2ml's physics spa.i dont wish to screw it up again!the 1st one was like freaking terribly done!i hate physics physics physics!!!!!i dont wanna come to sch 2ml!i dont wanna sit for SPA 2ml!!!AHHHHHH!!!!!! T.Tchoir was as usual.linlin got pissed off by someone.whereas me n yongyong went crazy.we tried doing the high kick low kick thing.we felt like idiots doing tt though.and how stupid of us to do it on the stage!>.<alighted at kovan.i saw something which made me so excited n scared.it's like i wanna see him but yet i dont dare you knw?!but i didnt see him around anw.a lil' disapointed but relieved at the same time.SIGH.but now i really wished he was there earlier on.oh well.i guess we dont have the fate lah.Labels: saya cinta kamu x infinity times.
what we could have been, 8/15/2007 08:37:00 PM.
i was seriously stupid enough to have thought of treating him better!he's showing me the attitude now.WTH.fadee suggested helping to collect the broader perspective.and i was for the idea since it's like helping one another out.to think that he even gave me tt harsh tone.and said why i didnt inform him!WTH.it may be my fault for not letting u know.but at least speak to me with a nicer tone right?!seems liked u are forcing me to detest u even more.anw.got back my chemical bonding test.and this is like the first lecture test that i ever passed!i was a lil' overjoyed lah.HAHS.it's tt sense of accomplishment you see.unlike physics.even if i put in a 100% effort, i wont get what i want.tt makes me resist learning physics even more!so it lasted only for 5days.haahs. i was happy so so happy happy happy!cos *winks*! >.<it just feels so wonderful!WHEE.*it feels so right to be here with euu!*yong2 was so random during assembly.asked us to go back wss on teachers' day!HAHS.i just cant wait.it's going to be super duper fun! =))cos i seriously miss CHOING n LEE a lot!my favourite teachers ever! =))O.OHEHS.im going to get a big fat ZERO for physics test 2ml!HAHS.Labels: there was me and euu.
what we could have been, 8/14/2007 08:30:00 PM.
ohkays.i thought i saw him today you knw.LOLS.oh well.i mistook some1 else for him.cos when u see frm the back it's so alike lah!cant blame me for that.anw.i thought over many things last night and today.i had many 'what if' going on in my head.what if i hadnt appeal n went NP instead?!what if i decided to take bio in sec 3.what if i hadnt taken physics as my H2.what ifs............i wouldnt have been here you know.and to be exact.i wouldnt be in 1S06.you get what i mean?!so yah.but most imptly.the main thing going on in my head was my concerns for A levels.oh well.maybe at least for promos.physics n econs are now my greatest concerns.i seriously dont know a thing abt physics n econs after sch re-opened.im getting paranoid.but i dont see myself doing anything to 'save' myself.you get the point?!im like giving up on myself.can someone just bring me back,prevent me from getting destructed?!SIGH.anw,seems like he knws about everything. i shld feel happy since it's like you know?! but on the contrary, i felt guilty for my actions. afterall, i hadnt done something so bad to anyone before. not even wanzhen. oh well.i guess this time i was overboard.ugh.
4days is enough to kill me.what more to say it's 5days now.i guess i'll die any moment if it increases to 6days.ohpleaseohplease.grant me my wish.Labels: euu'll never know how deep her love for euu would be.
what we could have been, 8/13/2007 09:15:00 PM.
from now on im jus gg let my blog stay the way it is.
i dont care who's going to come n view.
they aint worth my time trying to keep them away.
so yah.
why not just let it be.
and i can be happier n enjoy my life.
right?! =))
and i guess what i did was a bit too obvious.
but yah.
sorry for what i've done.
maybe i should just forgive n forget?
everyone deserves a chance dont they?
i might change my opinion in time to come.
havent studied for physics.
seems like i've given up hope totally.
no matter how hard i try, i jus cant do well for physics.
T.T
you wont know how demoralising it is.
你说的话 我都相信
说得好听 说得甜蜜
你说的每一句 我都相信
为了爱情 失了聪明
听你的话 闭上眼睛
这个梦多美丽 让它继续
你说的话 总那麼好听
你爱不爱 我不能确定
也许你只把它当游戏
我却爱得太用力
你说的话 我都相信
说得好听 说得甜蜜
你说的每一句 我都相信
为了爱情 失了聪明
听你的话 闭上眼睛
这个梦多美丽 让它继续
你说的话 总那麼好听
你爱不爱 我不能确定
也许你只把爱当游戏
我却没有那麼聪明
你说的话 总那麼好听
你爱不爱 我不想确定
我会关掉你送的手机
然後 静静 不去理
你说的话 总那麼好听
你爱不爱 我不想确定
我会关掉你送的手机
然後 静静静静
是再也不去理
Labels: i dont seem to preach what i say. sigh.
what we could have been, 8/12/2007 01:28:00 PM.
Saturday, August 11, 2007
i guess friendster makes me emo.SIGH.it's quite saddenning to see things which u dont want.i tried to refrain from browsing them.but i just couldnt resist the temptation.as what i've told my friends.i guessed i've fallen seriously too deep.too deep that im beginning to lose myself.i never regretted ever since the the day tt happened.cos im considered v fortunate as wht linlin said.im so much better than her.and also so much better than yongyong.since her eye candy is alrd attached.im not sure about mine.certain things can be misleading though.tt's what i've been trying to tell myself.certain things which u see aint the truth.to put it nicely.im being optimistic here.but deep down im seriously afraid.you'll never want the same thing to happen again yarhx?from christopher to ss n now to HIM*.n it goes like puppylove to crazydeeplymadlyinlove to cantstopthinkingabteuu.the bearbear is still with me.in a very very good condition.HAHS.single or attached?!im really clueless.at least if he's attached, i could just let everything go.it beats having to think n think n think over it you understand.UGH.will things ever get better for me?!Labels: white lies are not meant to be exposed.
what we could have been, 8/11/2007 11:24:00 PM.
i seriously love my bro's sony vaio lappy!
im so so so in love with it lah.
and i decided to use his instead of my com since he's not home.
HAHS.
ytd night was a chatting marathon.
it was considered long for me.
cos it has been so so long since i've chatted on msn for 4hrs straight!
OH MY!
linlin kept my night going with all those euu-know-who!
how sweet it is and everything.
teasing each other, etc.
and i decided to show her my class outing photo.
which is the one below.
and we both had a good laugh!
i guess it all started from me.
cos i was saying the you-knw-who was super funny in the photo.
n you-knw-who looked like a zombie.
=X
some of you might knw who im referring to.
since i've been like complaining abt it lately.
but nonetheless.
decided to share the joy by posting this photo.
so that you guys could have a good laugh too!
HAHS.
i still cant get over the fact tt it's super super funny!
im happy im happy im so so happy!
WHEE. =))
shalala~ it's so nice to be happy!~
shalala~ everybody should be happy!~
XD
Labels: i know im lying to myself. but this is the only way to keep myself happy.
what we could have been, 8/10/2007 04:56:00 PM.
Thursday, August 09, 2007
on this very special day.how i wished u were by my side.enjoying the fireworks together with me.will i ever get this chance?i dont know.cos i clearly know there are others who like u too.n i clearly know tt you know about it too.i've fallen so deep.so deep tt im afraid i'll lose myself.lose my rationality.i guess i shall just let things stay the way it is.my heart is too fragile to bear the consequences.and i dont wish to spent my jc life so miserably.things can still be sweet the way it is now.right?! =))Labels: there's no place i'd rather be~ euu'll always be a part of me~
what we could have been, 8/09/2007 10:27:00 PM.
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
the one of the kind ndp sch celebration. the best one i ever had. the most touching one i ever attented. 'if we hold on together' made me super emo. dont know why. but i guessed it's becos this song reminded me of the past. nevertheless. i did enjoy myself.
guess im beginning to love late nights too. dont know why. but i just feel like going home super super late nowadays. lonely nights maybe? >.< i just feel so UGH. must be linlin who passed the emo virus to me. i just feel like going out NOW NOW!alone on the loney dark streets. sit there all alone. think about certain things. sort out certain things. and then probably get on with life. im moody im moody! would euu be nice n join me in star gazing? UGH. anw. class outing was it. and i guess i was lil' moody then. it started there. so it must be the late nights tt makes me emo emo. tried to enjoy myself. ok. i think i did. i was happy wasnt i?! i couldnt stop smiling didnt i?! =)) to sum it all up. HAPPY that's it. irony?! oh well. what about happy yet emo? ugh! wth am i talking?! doesnt make sense. guess my mind is in a whirl tt im even writing crap here.
my mr nice.maybe i should just be contented with what i have now.Labels: i was really really happy. euu really made my day a nice one. but i just dont feel too right.
what we could have been, 8/08/2007 11:32:00 PM.
'wear ur own clothes day' today.for no reason i was kinda moody from chinese lesson onwards.it cont'ed all the way till after PW.seriously feel tt wearing ur own clothes wasnt tt good afterall.cos it makes me stone all the time n not wanting to listen to lectures.it makes me even more lazy to pen down notes, etc.but everything besides that was alright.in fact, i was super duber happy on the whole.cos of EUU-know-who.HAHS.so nice so nice.but im just loss for words when im with him.how how how?!i wanna talk to him longer longer n even longer.but it just stops there.cos im so smitten with him tt i kept thinking of him.and i just shorten all my conversation.LOLS.he's nice nice nice.so nice that i could never resist him.OH MY!i bet im gg to have love sickness over this such a long weekend.oh well.i dont care.im going to say this once more!SAYA CINTA KAMU! >.<Labels: she's loss for words when she's with euu.
what we could have been, 8/07/2007 10:00:00 PM.
i'll try to be NICE from today,this minute onwards.i mean T-R-Y.cos i feel tt i've been treating you-know-who so badly.it's like today physics remedial.you know you know!i feel super super bad after thinking about my actions.but tt stupid mingkai keep laughing at me.WTH.i so suay liao lorh.still laugh.T.T HAHS.so yah.i think i'll try and be nice.but whether i succeed or not will be another thing.so yah.HAHS.i guess i'll be flunking 2ml's maths test.oh well.everything is just so not right!UGH.Labels: i want euu~ i need euu~~
what we could have been, 8/06/2007 09:35:00 PM.
my day started with shopping @ vivo.and i felt sinful after the shopping.cos chem test is on 2ml n im not fully prepared for it yet.OH MY.at least i managed to read up when i got home. =))long day i would say.candy empire was one shop tt was irresistable.the first shop i went to was of cos the one mentioned above.and needless to say.i was so tempted by the chocolates there.and i decided to get them. >.<im seriously aint addicted to chocolates.neither would i crave for them on normal occasions.but those chocolates @ candy empire are so tempting.oh well.i glued myself to the pet safari later on.those cute lil' furballs there.so irresistable.the 3mths old brown toy poodle, 2mths old shih tzus'.....2mths old yorkshire terriers, 3mth old jap sptiz etc.oh my.seriously so irresistable!!!!i dont mind spending the rest of my life with them!seriously! =Xthey are just SO SO SO SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!anw.i saw chengxi on my way home again.i guessed he kind of find me familiar.since we kept seeing each other every sunday.LOLS.cos he was like giving me that 'oh-i-know-u' look.oh well.it's nothing actually.u'll get bored after seeing a star for long.i cant wait for national day!HAHS.fireworks fireworks! =))Labels: NUM is where u can find hot+nice guys. LOLS.
what we could have been, 8/05/2007 10:38:00 PM.
Saturday, August 04, 2007
linggg popped by my house today.had a chat with her.and i realised how sad+helpless it is to be ostracised by ur class.when u are ostracising some1 in ur classat the same time, ur friend is also being ostracised by her class.at tt point of time, i felt her classmates are super bad.but come to think of it.i just did what her classmates did, didnt i?what an irony.i feel the pain for her.i see the tears in her.but i dont know how i can help her.afterall, im not good with words.lending her a listening ear was all i could do.i really hoped i could help her solve her problem.having no one to turn to in class.even her closet friend isnt as close as she thought afterall.in a way, it's every man for himself.as long as im alright, who bothers about u yah?all i can do now is to pray that her friend forgives her soon.girl.always remember.只要笑一笑 没什么事情过不了! =))no matter what, u know u still have us!u are the bestest best best that i'll never want so settle for a 2nd best.LOVES.Labels: a word from euu means a lot to me.
what we could have been, 8/04/2007 09:17:00 PM.
i feel bad, real bad.but i just cant help control myself.i feel sorry for you-know-who.but i seriously cant help it.i was over the rainbow today.for some particular reasons.it just feels so wonderful.i could see the smiles on our faces.LOLS.anw.i saw something today n i was forced to put on a false smile.i dont know if it was a prank.it seemed so real.kept telling myself it was just a prank.but still i could feel the stab in my heart.it was that devastating.i seriously hope it just aint true.can some1 just tell it aint true?!T.TSAYA CINTAKAMU!Labels: euu are the reason for my smiles.
what we could have been, 8/03/2007 07:35:00 PM.
Thursday, August 02, 2007
today was just so not my day.stupid yongyong laughed at me first thing in the morning.linlin scolded for me for not taking gd care of myself again.she even laughed at me after sch,calling me 'bai ka'.T.Tso sad sia.jiang laoshi also laughed at me.SOBBS.in the end she also said she very bad still make fun of me.HAHS.my heels are freaking pain.especially the soft bone there.super swollen.and the poor me had to go home myself.oh well.i got so upset n frustrated during physics.the stupid graph made me lose control.i almost felt like giving up on the graph.seriously.i really felt like tearing tt graph paper immediately.freaking irritating.anw.i just love short days!HAHS. =))everything is like so random.mr nice guy is nice.number 6 guy is also nice.but euu are even nicer! HEHS.im being random again.oh well.seems like my mood is brightening up!oh yah.i havent seen my brother for like 4days alrd.poor him.hafta work all day and night.seems like NS jobs aint easy.guess i'll only be able to see him 2ml night.HAHS.Labels: this could be the start of something new~ it feels so right to be here with euu~
what we could have been, 8/02/2007 07:13:00 PM.
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
oh my oh my!just got back from the 推拿中心.hahs.and i guess i've been neglecting the pain for long.cos the doctor said tt i had heel inflammation.and it resulted cos of i ignored the pain on serveral occasion.so this has taught me a lesson, NEVER EVER neglect ur injury even if it's a small one!haahs.besides, i also tore a muscle at my ankle there.and it really hurts uber uber lots when she rubbed the ankle area.i was there crying for help silently.it just hurts THAT much!i was there bearing with it.putting on a brave front.super pain.oh my oh my!im so glad im finally home.but now im like handicapped.i cant walk properly.just like a 'bai ka'. =Xand im just so reluctant to wear slippers to sch 2ml.T.Tbut luckily, no bandage 2ml.i only need to keep it on for 1 night.HAHS.YAYY!so no bandage= looks nicer.what a stupid equation.HAHS.oh well.chemical bondingggggg.T.TLabels: i'd never felt such a pain ever since.
what we could have been, 8/01/2007 09:43:00 PM.
im seriously in love with inline skating now.with the exception of falling.and i fell once today.i was too tired n i just decided to let go of myself n fall.but what an untimely fall.i saw colin pointing to yuandern abt me falling.and i felt so malu right at tt moment.super malu.oh well.at least i felt it was ok since it's only 2ppl.but who knows when i went for pw.theo brought up tt matter.so now it's 3ppl who saw tt unsightly fall.OH MY! >.<anw.our strawberry didnt come n coach us today.it was another bald guy and this oh-so-shy guy.LOLs.we all love the bald guy lah.so fun so cool so super lame.it's like peili hold my hands for support.then he was like 'oh so sweet~'then he go hug the oh-so-shy coach.HAHS.he called us the 'SONG KA' group.and she said we are like zombies on skates.so bad!he even called SQ onion cos she wearing orion shirt.and he called me n peili the greens/pegasus.super funny lah.im hooked on to the 'inwards outwards' thing.SUPER FUN!and im begginning to have a swing of inline skating alrd.nice huh?! =))anw.he said lots of super funny things lah.so much better than strawberry.LOLS. =Xnah. just kidding anw.HEHS.choir was super HIGH!me n linlin keep going crazy.we HIGH-5ed with our feet.tt was super dots.in short.we just went uber uber crazy.insane is 1 word u could describe at tt point of time.stupid suzanna was so irritating.i had to face her cos i was standing opposite her.and i just couldnt stand the sight of her.had to cover my face with my music scores.looking at is really a torture for me.oh well.gtg to see the foot reflexology master soon.my ankle is seriously beyond redemption.and it worsened when i skated this morning.i've got myself all to blame.sigh.Labels: if life were to be a puzzle, you would be the picture in it.
what we could have been, 8/01/2007 07:22:00 PM.