Why is it so
that my heart skipped a beat
when I heard about the incident
that your daddy got into?

Weird.

Just weird.

Ohwell.

Just prayed.
For you & your family.

Getting back to econs now..
Hopefully I'll survive the night..

HAPPY DAY!^^

awesome company
lok kok dressing
good food at chompchomp
durian mousse at dessert bowl
ending with our visa go! adv
HAHA

totally felt like killing Jeff just now
don't even know how to alliance with us
idiot.. Karma.. End up sabo-ing himself! LOL!

Idk why
but Steven said our visa go! adv created a commotion among the excos
like wth la.. Haha.. Hopefully visa would see it & sponsor us as well!
HAHA!

Ohwell,
it's these little stupid things in life that makes life interesting
afterall we're only young once! Why not have fun with this parody? :D

p.s. The big match this sat!
Gonna watch it with awesome friends((:

Perfection
Is it really that hard to achieve?
*sigh*

i thought I was close to being perfect
but it seemed like I was wrong
I had so many flaws in me that I didn't know exist
and I'm hating myself so much for them now
I've hurt a few people unknowingly cos i was naive
and partly cos of my insensitiviy as well
tons of regrets but what's done can't be undone
and thanks to uncle for pointing all these out to me
making mistakes while I'm young and learn from them
beats better than making them in future and live with it
i'm a 20year old "teen" trying her best to be matured
cos she hates to be termed as a kid anymore..

I've learnt
and I'll grow from it
i don't ask for forgiveness
but i just hope you'll trust me
hurting your feelings was never my intention
and whatever gossips you've heard from anyone
I really hope you'll come to me like what you did
and find out the truth from the party involved
before deciding whom to trust whom to believe

and I've lost confidence in blogging now
idk when will people misinterpret what i write again..
Sigh..

Just ended my 2hours chat with uncle!
So glad he called, he chased my blues away! :D
I wonder why the both of us always falls into the same scenario

anw,
friends who don't know me well
please stop hurting me indirectly
stop interpreting things when you don't know
y'all ain't me and don't think the way I do
don't twist and turn the facts into a juicy gossip
so that you gossip mongers have something to share

thanks a million
i have nothing better to say now
and i don't wna defend myself or anyone anymore

to all these 'good' friends
thanks for screwing up my life

nights
wasted my beauty sleep on them

I wasn't being childish at all
I really wasn't..
sigh..

Will be switching to wordpress soon
when I have the time..

p.s. How can I ever make someone who has totally
lost confidence in a r/s, believe in love again?
It's really sad when i heard that
he doesn't want to love anyone anymore
but why?

Before I start with my post,
I think I'd better clarify that I'm not being emo here((:
(p.s. Just in case dear bbees like uncle,gen,Mel,Andy gets worried)

anw,
gave my whole afternn to my dear baobao
glad she's feeling better now.. And thanks to clar as well
he taught me and baobao lots of philosphical stuffs about life
well, baobao was telling me how much she missed her bus journeys w him
as well as the night in his arms and the silly things that he does
which somehow brought up certain blissful memories of us..
(I emphasize again. I'm not emoing k((: )
I thought of our bus rides, how you would really hug me tight
cos you knew I was freezing and you wanted to keep me warm
times where we would just do nothing but lie in your arms
simple yet blissful
times where you would do really silly yet cute stuffs
like biting me anywhere anytime
it's cute cos you're just like that cartoon char you loved
our honeymoon period where you pick me up after trg for supper
times where you would send me cute sms to cheer me up
the first time you kissed me, I could recall how stupid i was to act blur..
We did nothing crazy but to me all this simple things completed me
(I'm really not having any false hopes again ok((: )
just that I think blissful moments are meant to be rmbed
even if everything has ended..

Baobao told me one thing that her ex told her on vday
3simple words..
Something that no one would have thought of
when she asked me,
I thought it was like 'i love you'
but no it wasn't..
3 simple words
"YOU COMPLETED ME"
any girls who hears that from guys,
would definitely have their hearts melted
it's just so sweet..

Ohwell,
what's over is over
no longer holding on to this any longer
one goes and another comes((:

by the way!
I got 2 free coffee bean coffee cos the guy took my order wrongly!
Haha! But I hated them so I gave them away :D

gonna STUDY nowwwww!
But mac is exceptionally crowded and noisy today!
Don't likeeeeeeeee :((

anw, netball today was fun :D
heeeeeeee

Imperfectly perfect
the first I found after 2 failed attempts
it's hard to find another one like you
and as much as I miss you
I'm slowly learning to let you go
slow progress but better than none
and I guess I must really thank gabby alot
she's like my happy pill, a gift from GOD
carrying me through the toughest times
and I'm really thankful for that

never regretted once for giving in since day 1
and admitting my feelings for you back then
cos you brought colours to my life
felt like a baby in your arms

Time to really enjoy single life now
love comes knocking always when you least want them((:

nights sweeties
I'm feeling much better now((:

I hope this works
cos yt and Vincent tried doing this

may you are damn zai
cos you are happy
remember you are happy
always happy forever happy
you dare to be happy
you ain't afraid of being happy
always remember that

ohkays

I hope this works

All is lost
I lost another soulmate
whom promised to be there for me as a close friend
but afterall that i've done.. I doubt.. He'll ever forgive me

It ain't his fault if he's angry with me now
whatever that I've expressed thru' my blog and fb
I guess all I can do is delete them so that it doesn't irritate you again

I'll just pray
that one day..
We'll be back to how we were before I popped that qns

sorry
truly sorry

Letting go doesn't mean that I've given up
Likewise, giving up doesn't mean that I've learnt to let go

one of my friend told me this
and it had me pondering over this for a moment
and I realized it holds a certain extent of truth in it
don't you think so?

I've been pretty distracted today
I tried to focus and had a hard time forcing myself to digest my econs
it ain't easy trying to block myself from many thoughts running thru' my head
guess I prolly know how uncle was feeling the other time now

I was feeling very tired
not from studying
but rather from all those thoughts
and of cos' from trying to stop myself from thinking and stay focus

I saw many reasons why I stepped into the whole cycle back then
and up to date it still attracts me just like the first day of the whole cycle

have I let thigs go?
Have I given up?
I don't know

I tried my best to find that answer but I couldn't..

Looking at how I socialized with people recently
I realized I just lost my old self
sigh

I'm just so tired of everything now

2more months?
Does that still hold?
Seems a long way but it's as short as well

ugh
whatever
it's killing me badly

I just want to shut myself up and cry
BOOOOO HOOOOO..

Have been seeing gabby for the past few days
and I like it that we never seem to get bored of each other! :D
we did the stupid-est thing ever at airport 2days ago..
Travelled from T2 to T1 and back to T2 and finally T3
wasted like 3hours of our time searching for candy empire and lunch
ohh! And not forgetting that we acted like some kids doing some artwork!
Before we finally settled down at macs to study((;
uhmmmmmmmmmmm.. Actually we didn't really study..
My migraine was killing me ttm that I just gave up
yt came down and brought us cut lovely sweets from Made In Candy
it's like superrrr uberrrr cute ttm can!
Supper later that night was tiring
torturous for me-mentally n physically
( oh and I got stuck here for quite some time thinking how to spell PHYSICALLY)

N E WAYS
me gabby decided on studying at bishan cc ytd :D
awesome choice and the most conducive envt ever!
It was really that effective but at least slow and steady
funniest things happened all in a day ytd
how fun can that be! :D
went to see bing bing after studying
although I kept complaining of the long journey
haha but yupps.. Worth the time to see bingbing((;
I love him ttm.. He does the silliest things ever
and he puts a smile on my face at my lowest moments :D
cute boy laaaaaaaaa he!
Thanks Mel&Andy for the happy food last night!
Though I felt seriously guilty about having it at 1am in the morning!
But it awesomeeeee cos' I had you guys! :D

thanks to my niceeeee brother
I had to wake up at 535am this morning to open the door for him
and best was that I only got to bed at 3am
and I had to wake up at 9am after that..
My energy was seriously all zapped out of my body totally!

Followed the same routine today
camped at bishan cc with usual gab! And yt today! :D
LOLed today like some stupid girl tgt with yt
goderic d/l-ed this moneybook apps on his itouch
and the funniest thing was the bar was like 199% completed!
Like 199%?!?!?!?!

I'm officially turning in early tonight
I'm effing tired and I need to run tmr
nights loves and mugging cont's tmr at bishan cc! :D

Whaaaat a day!

Thanks daddy for poa consultation last night
I bet he must be thinking 'ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG!'
but nonetheless thanks for being very patient with me((:

I was effing tired yesterday
and I can't recall how many times I actually yawned in just 1min

I did my econs badly and I hope macro would help me a little
I spend my whole of yesterday afternn slacking school with gabby! :D

slacked the whole afternn today
taking a break away from studies and rest
my brain cells are dying and I need time for more brain cells to grow
HAHA!

p.s. it's sad to know that I still feel happiest and my smiles tend be more geniune
only whenever when I'm with you.. It would have been great
if this was the case in the past but that's not the case now..

Labels: Exams exams exams.. Sigh..

Nurturing my love for ECONS..

My love indicator has shown me that I'm slowly beginning to fall in love with Econs
the following indications are:
1- I love to look at my macro notes
2- I feel so happy reading macro
3- so much so that I even think I can ace in macro
4- I dream of it every night
5- my face turns read at the sight of it
6- my heart beats faster.. Skipping a beat every second..

uhmmmmmmmmmmm.. Afterall I think I only love macro! HAHA!
Ohhwell.. Whatever it is.. I really do love econs much more than before((:

but then again, I'm giving up on micro from today
I almost died trying to understand :((
sigh

I seriously need lady luck tmr

annnnnd I thought the subway wager was supposed to be a great source of motivation for me!
It seems not 100% effective but I guess it did make me stay focus for quite a period of time!
Just that it's a pity I still can't seem to uds micro.. Ugh..


and one last thing!
I'm hooked on to 2PM-Heartbeat! :D
listen to my heartbeat~ listen to my heartbeat~

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