Sunday, December 27, 2009

great day out with dearies((:
arcade spells love with bball,bishibashi and ddr :D
and today's gg to be last time im gg to step into suntec for the moment
gosh, 4 days at suntec in a week is killing me. lol.
ohwell.

back to school tmr
tata

Labels: what's next.. sigh..

what we could have been, 12/27/2009 08:20:00 PM.

Saturday, December 26, 2009

this has been the craziest month ever
lots of bbees having their birthday in dec
all the xmas parties till the early morning
plus the very last night of countdown to xmas w/ og10
it's total madness man!
HAHA.

i'm losing my voice from all the fun on x'mas eve :((
korean spicy food plus alcohol plus screaming = no voice T.T
i was still thinking of going K sometime next week man!
UGH.

one last birthday celebration w/ dearies tmr
before i get back to school for some studying
and then very last night of partying on new yr's eve
before i really get down and hit the books till exams are over((:

my new year resolutions:
NO MORE PARTYING TILL EXAMS ARE OVER :D
FOCUS ON MY STUDIES AND MUG MUG MUG!

what we could have been, 12/26/2009 11:47:00 PM.

Saturday, December 19, 2009

I NEED A BREAK FROM E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G.

WED:
Xmas shopping with joleen and edmund
whole lots of fun and bumping into lots of familiar faces
but only one caught me when i least expected it
*sigh*

THURS:
Jiawei's 21st party
missed my nehball's xmas dinner :((
and beer really sucks

FRI:
nehball nehball nehball
totally lost when i had to be a defender
it was so hilarious that everyone kept laughing at my actions. LOL.
ohwell, I JUST LOVE MY MIDFIELD POSITION BEST! :D

TODAY:
it's and EOC day for me
i'm just going to slack whole day in the library
and do some studying.. im really close to failing everything :((
*sigh*

i really want a bowl of 孟婆汤..
can santa give that to me on xmas? *sigh*
have been really thinking alot lately..
when will i ever get to see the light?
one moment i've decided to just let everything go
and who knows, i actually took back my decision the next moment *sigh*
that change you had meant a new start, was it?
my heart just shattered the moment i saw that change in you
in the past u wanted it so badly that u could just ignore how ppl look at you
but now?

it really breaks my heart for being so hard on myself
knowing i have to let go of the one that i love most
i no longer have the courage to fight for a second chance at it
i might regret for giving up after so long but i just want an end
i guess u'd be hoping for me to stop all this nonsence as well
i'm just tired and i need a break..

sidenote: goodbye my love..

what we could have been, 12/19/2009 11:08:00 AM.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

I'd rather have bad times with you,
than good times with someone else.
I'd rather be beside you in a storm,
than safe and warm by myself.
I'd rather have hard times together,
than to have it easy apart.
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart.

but i'll never get the chance to do so..

what we could have been, 12/17/2009 01:52:00 PM.

Monday, December 14, 2009

CONFUSED
CONFUSED
CONFUSED
CONFUSED
CONFUSED
CONFUSED

LOST

what we could have been, 12/14/2009 11:14:00 PM.

黑色的夜燃烧着风
无情的细雨淋得我心痛
最后一班车像是你的诺言
狠心离去溅湿了我的心
一个人走在冰冷的长街
想起分手前熟悉的脸
淡淡地留下一句忘了我吧还有明天
心碎的声音有谁会听得见
我告诉自己爱情早已走远
可是胸前还挂着你的项链
逃离这城市还剩什么可留在心底
忘记你不如忘记自己

will i have the courage to ask for anything now?
*sigh*

anw, great day out w/ odac rebels((:
HAPPY ADVANCED BDAY CELEBRATION FOR BAOBAO!
bet this is the first awesome presentS she ever received! LOL.
LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS OF VARIETY OF SNACKS! HAHA.
arcade rocks to the max esp. when you're feeling down..
street bball and ddr and air hockey are awesome((:

immune system having a major breakdown
bad flu, bad sore throat, bad headache..
wrist injury getting from bad to worst :((
*sigh*

thanks jimmy for walking me home
i almost lost my way..HAHA XD
and i cant wait for my 6bucks atas sweet tmr :D
*YAYY*

sidenote: what else can i ask for?

what we could have been, 12/14/2009 12:34:00 AM.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

lots of activites to keep me going lately

thurs:
joyce 21st

fri:
stats 1
htht+lunch w/ laopo *winks*
netball training :D
(cant believe i actually survived trg w/ my sprained wrist^^)

TODAY:
vball at ecp w/ dodgies :D
manpuku for dinner at Tamp1
(gosh,u dont know how happy was i when i stepped into manpuku!
it has got all my fave jap food there! YUMMYLICIOUS! XD )
shopping in town w/ joleen we we got our NUM FLOPS w/
the 'BUY 2 GET 3RD FREE' promotion! HAHA.
I LOVE MY GLOW-IN-E-DARK FLOPS and TANK TOP TTM! :D
retail therapy helps me out alot, seriously =X
camwhore session w/ super WLOS edmund and slacking at borders till midnight!
really exhuasted now..
and my wrist hurts even more :((
*sigh*

tmr:
service
meetup w/ odac rebels(after SO LONG! :D)
cant wait cant wait cant wait...

sidenote: What hurts the most was being so close, and having so much to say, and watching you walk away, and never know what could have been..

what we could have been, 12/13/2009 02:30:00 AM.

Friday, December 11, 2009

went to bed with a sprained wrist last night
and i dont even know how i sprained it
ugh and it's hurting even more this morning

i dont know how am i gg to handle training later :((
what makes it worst is that it's my right wrist u're talking about
*sigh*

joyce 21st party last night was a blast
making her put on a dress was fun! :D
and for once, i didnt feel good drinking during the games..

thankfully my dad's willing to pick my up at 2am in the morning
if not the cab fare home would have been super chor on me
and i hate going home alone at such late hours..

ohwell,
lots to say
updates soon
tata~

what we could have been, 12/11/2009 10:37:00 AM.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

updates tmr
tired

long day in school
late night out with friends again

energy level dropping drastically..

what we could have been, 12/10/2009 12:42:00 AM.

Wednesday, December 09, 2009

why do you always have to make me worried?
you know how persistent i am and how easily i would get worried over you
and yet, u're always not taking good care of yourself..
*sigh*

i know i'm in no position now to nag at you
or get you to listen to me any longer
but i just want you to be alright..

it just worries me to hear that ur knee's suffering

but yet i've no idea how bad it is..

have been trying hard to cont' with my studies today
5hours of ineffective studying= 2 topics of POA done
ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh ugh
why issit so hard to focus?!

i dont care.
i must start studying effectively tmr!!!!!!!!

sidenote- too tired to move on..

Labels: i need SLEEP

what we could have been, 12/09/2009 12:07:00 AM.

Monday, December 07, 2009

TIRED TIRED TIRED!

and now i'm having a bad headache :((

anw, have decided to go home at 9pm everyday
i realised i would only waste my time at home
at least i can do something useful in the library
really got alot alot alot to catch up in my studies
and i'm super stressed up now and i feel like giving myself a kick
ugh!

shall rest early tonight
headache's really killing me
guess i need more sleep..

what we could have been, 12/07/2009 10:48:00 PM.

Sunday, December 06, 2009

wants to be a silly girl no more
but can i?

my whole life is in a mess now
i'm renting a flat and moving out soon
found a flat at toa payoh
can never be compared to my own flat
but i've got no choice..
i just hope this change would be a good one
and i hope i'm versatile enough to adapt to the new envt..

i hate to see quarrels
and i hate to be thrashed like a rubbish
neither do i like being accused of drinking everyday
*sigh*

really having a hard time coping with my studies
how can i ever focus when my brain's not listening to me?
it's really horrible and i'm really really freaking out..
*sigh*

only i can help myself out, right? :((

what we could have been, 12/06/2009 11:13:00 PM.

我知道你很难过
爱一个人
需要缘分
你何苦让自己
越陷越深
别傻得用你的天真去碰触不安的灵魂
每一天只能痴痴的等
爱一个人别太认真
你受伤的眼神令人心痛
没有一个人
非要另一个人
才能过一生
你又何苦逼自己
面对伤痕
我知道你很难过
感情的付出不是真心就会有结果
别问怎么做爱才能长久
这道理有一天你会懂
我知道你很难过昨天是恋人
今天说分说就分手
别问你的痛
要怎么解脱
多情的人注定伤得比较久

finally met up with some old friends esp dearie!
really glad to see all of them again
and the guys never seem to grow up.. LOL

thanks dearie for singing this song for me
i understand what you're trying to tell me through this
and the lyrics just says it all

i miss singing despite the k session last night.
and i wanna cont' singing for my whole life.
more k sessions anyone? :D

i'm going to give myself a buffer time to get over you
i dont know how long i'll cont' loving you
i dont know how long i'll cont' missing you
i dont know how i'm going to get over you but i have to
i dont know what the future holds for me
but i'll leave it to God to guide me through

what we could have been, 12/06/2009 02:59:00 PM.

Saturday, December 05, 2009

All this while,
i've been living in the shadow of someone whom i shouldnt be
all because i didnt want to be that girl that you didnt love any longer
but i realised i was just being stupid cos' i just wasnt being who i am
clubbing and drinking never was my thing but i insisted on it
on the surface it seemed like i really did enjoy myself
and it seemed like my acting skills were superb
i tell great lies dont i? HAHA.

it was only after that very night,
that i finally realised i no longer fit into your heart
and you would no longer take care of me like u used to
i was stupid hoping to be taken care of by you
how silly can i be..

it has been really tiring all these while
to put on a smile even at my lowest moments
right here, no one knows me best
and if ever the day any of you finds the real me
don't be surprised..

from now on,
i'm going to lie low
and be the girl whom i used to be
less actions, less 'boyfriendS', less talking, more quiet moments,
no more clubbing, no more being a hardcore drinker
but a decent girl..

till then

what we could have been, 12/05/2009 11:41:00 AM.

Friday, December 04, 2009

SORRY FOR ALL THE TROUBLE I'VE CAUSED
AND THE DISAPPOINTMENT I'VE GIVEN

I NEED SOME QUIET MOMENTS NOW...

sidenote: 3hours of sleep and im awake.. zZzzZzz...

this time it's a promise to myself and i aint going to break it ever...

what we could have been, 12/04/2009 10:02:00 AM.

Thursday, December 03, 2009

GLOWMETRIC GLOWMETRIC GLOWMETRIC
PARTY PARTY PARTY PARTY PARTY
CLUB DRINK DANCE HIGH SEH

no more restrictions tonight
so please dont stop me from drinking
first and the last time alrights?

THANKS!

sidenote: wish the BnP committee the best of luck for
their event tonight. hopefully it would be a blast and
im sure all your efforts would have paid off. JIAYOUU!

what we could have been, 12/03/2009 11:47:00 AM.

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

WAIT FOR YOU

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, you're still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

Baby why can't we just, just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it won't be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do I'll wait for you

thanks gen for introducing such a superb song to me :D
Elliot Yamin- a great singer with a wonderful voice
do listen to his 'fight for love' and 'cant keep on loving you' as well!

when i first heard this,
the melody at the beginning was just so familiar to me
simply reminded me of certain stuffs and all.. ohwell..

decided not to talk as much today
and my attitude today wasnt at its best i supposed
if i happen to ignore anyone in a way or another
well, i didnt mean to cos' i just needed my quiet moments

OHWELL. MUGGING CLUB IS OFFICIALLY BACK :D
FREE MEMBERSHIP. LONG-TERM BENEFITS.
SO WHY WAIT?! HURRY UP AND JOIN US NOW!

spend 1.5hours in the canteen talking
1hour at the koi pond crapping
2hours at the benches studying
then another 2hours at the canteen chatting

it really has been long since i stayed in school till late like today
and im just thankful work's finally over
i just miss school so much((:

sidenote: looking forward to the day whr u could finally get a good rest,
focus on ur studies, and sort out the mess in ur personal life..

what we could have been, 12/02/2009 10:07:00 PM.

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

SUPER-SCREWED-UP-DAY FOR ME

when you're walking to the bus stop,
you realised you left ur pencil case at home

and then while you're on the bus,
you realised you forgot to bring ur lecture notes

*WHAM!*
what the hell was i exactly thinking when i packed my bag?!

and then again, you couldnt even complete a decent page of your test

afterwhich, you realised ur friend forgot about the payment
despite the constant reminder and stuffs

*sigh*

有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达

what we could have been, 12/01/2009 05:55:00 PM.