Tuesday, March 31, 2009

飛的越高，跌的越傷，
當我選擇張開翅膀的那一刻，
就做好了重重跌下的準備，
很多承諾都不需要開口，
是在拾起麦克风的那一刻
便下定的決心。

side note: FREE MOVIE TMR! *YAYY* \(^-^)/

Labels: let CANON IN D define music

what we could have been, 3/31/2009 09:19:00 PM.

Monday, March 30, 2009

Beep Beep Oh Look Now There Goes My Phone

And Once Again I'm Just Hoping it's A Text From You

It Aint Right I Read Your Messages

Twice Thrice Four Times A Night it's True

Everyday I Patiently Wait

Feeling Like A Fool But I Do Anyway

Nothing Can Feel As Sweet And As Real

As Knowing I Wasn't Waiting In Vain

And Maybe it's True I'm Caught Up On You

Maybe There's A Chance That Your Stack On Me Too

So Maybe I'm Wrong, it's All In My Head

Maybe We're Afraid of Words We Both Haven't Said

I'm Always Connected Online

Hooked on Facebook All The Time

Hoping You've Checked My Profile

Just Can't Wondering Why You Play It Cool

But I'm Hopelessly Fallen For You

JAY SEAN's-MAYBE

the lyrics are freaking HOT! ((:

it all makes sense,doesnt it?!

HAHAS >.<

headed down to SIM today to settle e application&payment.

thanks dear yiling for making the trip down w/ me! :D

LOVE U MEIMEI! HAHAHAS! ((:

we saw 'snow' in singapore for the first time! XD

the aircon at SIM started off w/ water dripping out.

then it proceeded to producing snow-LOTS OF THEM!

& before we knew it, it started to 下雪 for a few min! LOLS!

damn funny lah.

the whole waiting time was damn long.

&& we waited for bout 2hours before we settled everything. >.<

luckily it was only 7pm and not 7.30pm >.< *phew*

headed to IKEA for their nice&cheap sausage bread!

&& boy, it was damn nice&cheap tt we had 2servings each! LOLS!

im gg back soon for the meatballs! :D

& finally, here i am-HOME SWEET HOME. :D

damn tired.

Labels: listen to the lyrics..feel the emotion..get the message...

what we could have been, 3/30/2009 02:08:00 PM.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

I’m feeling like a new born child
Every time I get a chance to see you smile
It’s not complicated
I was so jaded

absence makes the heart grow fonder..... (how true >.<)

what we could have been, 3/29/2009 11:53:00 PM.

Saturday, March 28, 2009

一样自己走在　回家的路

却突然发现自己　有些孤独天空下　

有几颗脆弱的心找寻着　那双共鸣的眼睛

我怀疑　一直在等待的人

真的就是你

直到　看着星星想到你

望着太阳想到你

少了你会莫名的空虚

我才终于开始去相信

是谁出现在梦裡

而你就是唯一的唯一

直到　看着电视想到你

望着大海想到你

少了你我呼吸没力气

最后　确定我已爱上你

想抱紧你在怀裡

让我们的眼神永远坚定不移

just woke up from my afternoon nap.

but im still freaking tired! RAHHH! T.T

so much so tt i can just fall asleep right here,right now,this moment.

& it's been approximately a year or 2 since i had afternoon naps! XD

GOSH! im completely drained out lah!

missing someone who doesnt even know tt im missing him.

RAHH!

i'd better get over and done w/ this soon.

so that i can just move on in life! ((:

i guess im pretty much prepared for e worst case scenario now.

LOLS!

Labels: zZzZZzzzzz

what we could have been, 3/28/2009 05:35:00 PM.

Friday, March 27, 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRLFRIEND! ((:

26feb'09

went back to sr w/ yenyen

& for once in my whole life i practically toured round e sch =.=

chatted w/ yongyong&fadee((:

glad to know fadee is coping well!!

im sure u can do it girl! :D

saw viven,felfel,saliva.

talked to mroh&eeyong.

but sadly couldnt find mstan. HAHAS.

i LOST my VISITOR PASS & i almost got freaked out.

but luckily some kind soul returned in to the general office.

WHAT A RELIEF! *phew*

if not i would have to pay 10bucks for a useless pass =.=

caught our 4.15pm 'COMING SOON' movie at amk hub.

me&yenyen were screaming most of the time! LOLS.

&& yenyen claims it's e first horror movie that made her screamed!

so is it suppose to indicate tt it's really very scary?! HAHAS.

i dont know cos' practically most horror movies are scary to me! XD

and the thing was tt we were laughing while screaming.

which i really dont get it. hahas.

met up w/ the rest of JI* for dinner cum pre-bday celebration. ((:

started our talking marathon while having MOSburger.

and there's one thing back in sec days tt will nv fail to make us laugh.

DEBBIE WANG!

we kept laughing&laughing at e mention of her name.

gosh. it's hilarious-i swear. XD

headed to arcade for our bball game&bishibashi.

me&yenyen played this cute cute drum game & they got nice chi songs! HAHAS.

& there's one thing i've really got to say.

why is it tt 99% of the arcade filled w/ guys?!?!

HAHAS!

& for once, i was really exhausted when i got home at 11pm.

damn early but yea.

27thFeb'09

today i guess it's a day of visiting ppl i supposed?

went back to sr to visit again.

back to sr in 2consecutive days. ohmy. XD

weather's freaking hot tt i swear i was gg to evaporate seriously!

but i enjoyed walking from kovan stn to sr n from sr back to kovan. ((:

& i finally get to see mstan like *yayy* HAHAS.

headed to compasspt to visit sarah.

and went to get my thumbdrive at the same time.

ohboy. im seriously gg broke lah! T.T

SOBBS.

but still, i wanna go out more often!

though it means expenditure rises but yea.

HEHS XD

looking forward to more outings before i start work on 6th april!

& boy.

1st day of work's morning shift from 930am-130pm! T.T

RAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Labels: tired.

what we could have been, 3/27/2009 06:53:00 PM.

nice rain

nice weather

best for sleeping

*YAWNS*

yupps im dead tired

exhuasted

shall update tmr ((:

NIGHTS LOVES! ((:

(dont look around. It's YOU! YES YOU IDIOT!)

OHH! before i forget....

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY RICE! ((:

Labels: i need more sleep. ((:

what we could have been, 3/27/2009 01:18:00 AM.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

sometimes i wish
you would pay more attention to my favourite songs
because the lyrics they sing
are the words that im too scared to say

if only i had nice eyes like hers....... ((:

what we could have been, 3/25/2009 08:13:00 PM.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

It's not over.

It's not over, It's never over,

Unless you let it take you, It's not over,

It's not over, It's not over,

Unless you let it break you.

It's not over.

i think 我看开了! ((:

shall just 随缘吧! HAHAS.

i know i'll say it when i've thought over it carefully.

so lets wait bah! XD

sooooon maybe?!

finally going to catch 'coming soon' on thurs!

like F-I-N-A-L-L-Y ohkays! :D

just like what xiaohui said.

im paying money to get myself freaked out! LOLS.

but i dont mind! i just LOVE horror movies!

despite knowing tt im super scared! HAHAS =X

should be heading down to ecp sometime this week w/ jieling.

i wonder when cos' today was raining v badly in the morning

& i hope it doesnt rain for the whole of this week.

puh-leaseeeeeeeeeeee :))

heh heh

&& i've really got to write this.

i just LOVE these words a lot! :D

"他不是我的第一选择, 而是我的唯一选择

理由很简单，那是因为，

第一有可能被取代，而唯一永远不会"

(quoted from Perfect Cut 2) :D

what we could have been, 3/24/2009 07:03:00 PM.

Monday, March 23, 2009

running away was never a solution to problems...

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心

你会发现你会讶异

你是我最压抑

最深处的秘密

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心

你会鼻酸你会流泪

只要你能听到我

看到我的全心全意

Labels: 始终还是没办法告诉你

what we could have been, 3/23/2009 12:59:00 PM.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

SHOPPING IS ALWAYS FUN! ((:

but the part whr it comes to paying for ur merchandise is T.T

LOLS. today was completely super random lah!

i dont why we ended up carrying 'DA BAO XIAO BAO' (big bags small bags) XD

&& kappa/converse/levis sneakers were having sales lah!

and i just went in grab a pink sneakers & bought it! LOLS.

20bucks for kappa sneakers is worth the money! :D

& im so freaking in L-O-V-E with this pair high-cut dunks!
so is my dear girl...hahas..we were so TEMPTED! =X
AHHH!!! 98bucks is reasonable but :(( im broke.
maybe next time bah.
but AHHH! it's like love at first sight lah!! RAHHH!!! XD
:
&& i finally got to eat SUN MOULIN's BREAD AGAIN!!! ((:
see how satisfied i am! LOLS.
but after today,im getting sick of it alrd. =X
so no more sun moulin's bread for me now! HAHAS.
:
saw kohwanting&wangzi-look-alike at fareast today.
super qiao lah! & we got excited over chatting BOF! XD
:
and YES! DANCE! AH!
me&xh have discussing about this lately.
&& YEPPS! we decided on hiphop afterall! ((:
just tt we are now stucked on the choice of dance schools XD
we've got studiowu/oschool/danceonus on mind.
RAHHH! RAHH! RAHHH!
XD
:
cant wait for the start of new week!
cos' it means more outings to come! -whee-
&& i havent settled my mission #2 yet. :((
the words just wouldnt come out. gosh.
this is so freaking irritating! ugh. XD
this just sucks. damnit.
i hate myself.

what we could have been, 3/22/2009 08:30:00 PM.

Saturday, March 21, 2009

KIM HYUN JOONG ((:

I have you to be with

Everything will be easy

晒的阳光淋的雨滴都值得回忆

I have you to be with

才懂心不够近才怕距离

心电感应绝不断讯会如影随行

曾灰心以为我来错了世界

太多想法很另类找不到人了解

当我说的感觉牵动著你的脸

互动的泪让我们变得特别

你是我的魔力

想要勇敢就想你

一眨眼睛把不如意都变成流星

你是我的魔力

心情不好我就想你

删除忧郁复制甜蜜笑容不结冰

2missions to complete tmr. ((:

it's 不能说的秘密 for now.

1 of which i really hope like backing out now.

i've got a choice.

it's entirely up to me,myself & i.

guess my fighting spirit is all gone by now.

so is my courage.

shoud i?or should i not?

anw

my body clock has been pretty much screwed up lately.

i've been gg to bed at hours like 2.30-3.30am.

guess i've got try to tune back soon.

i want my sleep at 1am & wake up at 9am. T.T

ahhh.

what we could have been, 3/21/2009 03:11:00 PM.

Friday, March 20, 2009

爱要耐心等待仔细寻找感觉很重要

宁可空白了手等候一次真心的拥抱

我相信在这个世界上一定会遇到

对的人出现在眼角

went cycling today afterall.

was initially cancelled due to bad weather&sick yl.

but the weather turned for the better.

so yupps. decided to just go ahead.

at least im out for some fresh air! ((:

weekends are finally here! -whee-

feeling kinda excited but then again, fear spells within me.

(i guess only fenfen knows what im talking about)

ohwell. it's either i'd be brave & just do it.

or i'd just back out from my plan & just let it be.

so it's like a 'now or never' kind of thing.

ohgosh.

this is my 2nd time being in such a scenario.

madness.madness.madness.

ugh.

what we could have been, 3/20/2009 08:25:00 PM.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven knows
Heaven knows
I've been waiting for you

finally out for some entertainment after 3days of rest ((:

after the last 4e2 gathering we had last last yr.

i finally got a chance to have fun w/ au wanting agn. :D

bowling @ tessensohn csc is cool.

cos' it's super near my house.

& the feeling on getting somewhr by feet is so cool. HAHAS.

cos' this means that it's near & i get to save money on transport fare! XD

idk why but i prefer bowling at planet bowl than hougang's superbowl.

i guess it's prolly much because of the lanes.

just that i couldnt glide as much as i preferred. hahas.

lunch at some prata house nearby.

and the classic thing was.....

WE LEFT WITHOUT PAYING! =X

omg-ness! LOLS.

it totally slipped off our minds seriously!

&& the funniest thing was that they didnt even stop us?!?!

moreover, there wasnt much business, so how could they forget too?!?

LOLS. this is damn classic.

cycling at ecp tmr again! YAYY!

didnt get to cycle the full 2hours the other time.

tmr im gg to get my 2hrs worth of cycling!

((:

cant wait for the weekends to come!

cos' there's more surprises coming my way.

but i hope it's good surprises! ((:

what we could have been, 3/19/2009 10:10:00 PM.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

这条路比我想像的还漫长

那些痛比我听说的更滚烫

像泪的汗流进眼眶像汗的泪

流进胸膛看着沮丧快变海洋

我跑向风浪呐喊我不怕

任谁也抢不走的梦想多累也在黑夜中发着光

要够盼望就会有能量

去跨越阻挡的围墙

任谁也抢不走的梦想我可以不说但不会遗忘

要够痴狂才不会衡量

敢冲过火海去成长

just having some thoughts on dreams/goals in life.

anw, i've been a good girl for the past 3days.

have been staying home to rest. ((:

but the next 4days...hehehe... =X

have been watching BOF intensively. seriously keeps me entertained! HAHAS.

im just so in love w/ kim hyung joong's CHARACTER!

&& though i prefer kim hyung joong many times more.

i must still admit tt go jun pyo is another prefect model for the word- SHUAI. :D

i logged on to NUS website & TRIED applying.

but after entering all my choices.

i clicked LOGOUT immd. T.T

i just didnt have the courage to cont'

i guess i prolly dont have a direction in mind.

or rather i still dont know which would interest me more.

after having some thoughts on my interests.

i proceeded to thinking about the future market/economy.

and then i start having 2nd thoughts about my decision again. :((

gosh,this is so freaking irritating.

fine,

im L-O-S-T....

Labels: i wanna take up dance classes SOOOOON ((:

what we could have been, 3/18/2009 07:31:00 PM.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

someday.....i will be there.... ((:

tokyo...

hokkaido...

london...

perfect((:

just had nice chat w/ dear xiaohui! ((:

&& we got excited over the thought of learning dancing!

we were like oschool or studiowu?

i personally think oschool is coolios! HAHAS.

we're gg to update on tht SOOOOON!

which means we'll be learning dance SOOOON.

but what type of dance to learn would be the question for now! :D

what we could have been, 3/17/2009 04:23:00 PM.

Monday, March 16, 2009

finally a change.
just wanted something much more simple. ((:

i dont know why i've been into oldies lately.
but listening to them sure do bring back memories.
these were the songs that i listened when i was just a small kid.

my all time fave since young: It's My Life- Bon Jovi.
come to think of it, the lyrics are very meaningful.
we only live life once & we should just live life to the fullest.
so it's like 'It's Now or Never' ((:
HAHAS.

what we could have been, 3/16/2009 05:35:00 PM.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

FREEEEEEEEEZE! ((:

pssssssst.....

i seriously think im so pro man! XD LOLS.

since the last day of A's.
today was my FIRST time waking up at 7.45am!
GOSH! i think this is madness. just for open house. zZzz.
and im in need of nothing more but SLEEP now! ((:

felt like an idiot today.
i guess i didnt manage to rush down on time. :'((
but being silly, i decided to wait for 1hour&15min =.-
despite knowing chances are that he's not there.
i deluded myself into thinking there might be a change.
and i felt like an idiot sitting there waiting for nothing.
i tried walking away several times but i returned after every few steps.
silly right. i dont know what should do next.
cont' waiting? or.....? *sigh*

我疑惑但是原谅因为你留下

我好傻

what we could have been, 3/15/2009 05:31:00 PM.

Friday, March 13, 2009

FRIDAY 13th-CYCLING @ ECP ((:

*SULKS* heavy downpour :((

*bleah*

*RAHH*

*HUH?!*

JUMP!

((:

YAYY!

JUMP JUMP!

-WHEE-

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finally went to cycle at ECP today ((:
with dear yenting&&meiyu
woke up this morning w/ tired eyes. LOLS.
but got HIGH when we arrived at ECP.

the bus journey was like ZzZZzzZz.

reason being we kept seeing the 'Mac' adverstisement on mobile tv.

and it's total siansation but funny. LOLS.

weather was initially nice&warm.

after cycling for an hour it started to drizzle,and before we knew it.

it started pouring heavily. :((

GOSH!

we only managed to cycle frm C to mid of F&G. :((

and then we started camwhoring at the flower garden.

thats what we do when we're stucked in the rain! XD

and when the rain got smaller, we decided to cycle back.

and damn suay lah.

HEAVY DOWNPOUR w/o WARNINGS! T.T

got all drenched from head to toe.

and stucked at the toilet for long.

this is ultimate suayness.

but fun though. cycling in the rain was my first.

looking forward to cycling again,soooooooon. ((:

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SIM OPEN HOUSE YTD.

nothing to comment about.

except for that stupid application fee of $62.40! RAHHH!

damnit damnit! madness! RAHHHH!!!!!!

---------------------------------------------------------

NTU OPEN HOUSE TODAY ((:

today's open house was so much better!

reason being i didnt expect to chance upon so many friends!

esp. AU WANTING!!!!!

been 2years plus since i last saw her lah!

and my twin-ME aka JIALING.

then sarah at the very last moment before we left ntu.

my salty friend-xian & deb. ((:

most unexpected one was darryl of cos'.

HAHAS. the scenario was super funny.

i was on the train & peili saw darryl on the platform.

& coincidently as the train started moving.

we both saw each other & we gave that 'OHMY! HELLO!' look.

LOLS. damn funny lah. couldnt stop laughing at tt moment. XD

we had that 'IM SO SHOCKED' expression. HAHAS.

had lunch at some palette restaurant.

me&pl were like some hungry girls who waited so anxiously for our food.

it's like our food collection no. was 98.

and both 97 n 99 lighted up and yet no signs of 98.

then we were like zZzZzzZ...... HAHAS.

nice one.

side note: im growing fat soon.

ohno. i think i've grown fatter.

cos' i took my weight this morning. and im 51kg. MADNESS!!!!!

1 whole kg!!!!!! RAHHH!!!!!

more swimming & more cycling!!! RAHHHH!!!!!!!

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NUS open house tmr.

ultimate madness cos' i've to wake up at 7.45am tmr :((

i've been fully drained out recently.

i need more sleeeeeeeeep! RAHHH!!!

worried about tmr. gosh.

it's like an irony, worried yet looking forward to it.

how? i seem to have 2nd thoughts about it.

should i??????

Labels: sleeeeepy

what we could have been, 3/13/2009 10:26:00 PM.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

I KNOW HOW TO DO BABY FREEZE! ((:

1 word to describe that sense of satisfaction- COOL.
and the aftermath of learning,
3 bruises on my knee & an aching arm. XD
ohwell. it's worth it. =P

tried doing the turtle freeze but i failed. LOLS.
still trying to find the balancing point but abit cmi. =X
shall try it again some other time.
maybe im gg to try doing my handstand first.
then followed by headstand. hehs.

this is what i do when im soooooooo BORED.
but great cos' i learnt something & it's COOL. :D

sunday's the day.
3more days. thats fast.
i was watching Perfect Cut 2 last night.
and somehow i was inspired by the show.
although i think it's not realistic & things like this dont happen in reality.
but still. becos' of this phrase 'courage is the key to happiness'.
i guess i shall just give it a shot bah.
though i truly know i must be mentally prepared.
cos' most likely, 90% chances i would screw it up.
but yeah. jiayouu bah.........

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Disappointment You are a fun-loving, energetic, and cheerful person. You love adrenaline rushes, and going out at night. You constantly have to be having a great time to feel completely happy. Your biggest fear is not having anything to do, or having a huge disappointment/let down in your life. You hate being sad, and if something in your life suddenly went wrong it would be extremely hard for you to deal with. Just remember that everyone has to deal with hard times. Stay strong, and pretty soon your fun, party life will get right back the way it used to be.
Being Alone
Losing Someone
Looked down on
Commitment
Where Your life is Going
Death
http://www.gotoquiz.com/what_is_your_true_fear">What is your True Fear? http://www.gotoquiz.com/">Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

came across this quiz on au wanting's blog.
seriously, one of the most accurate quizzes i've ever done.
i pretty much fits the description & i was like 'WOW'.
this is just so me.

what we could have been, 3/12/2009 12:55:00 PM.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

i hate my body clock to the max can!
i tried to sleep till 12noon but i failed at my attempt to do so.
despite hitting the bed at 2.30am last night.
i woke up at 10am this morning.
gosh. madness. whats wrong w/ my body clock!
ugh.

anw, when i on my laptop this morning.
i almost got a shock of my life when i saw my desktop.
i thought my bro reformatted the whole laptop while i was asleep!
and when i saw all the folders gone i freaked out. GOSH.
but luckily, i decided to restart the com & *phew*
WHAT A RELIEF MAN!
i wonder what happened just now. madness. XD

gonna keep myself occupied w/ shows shows n more shows for today&tmr.
and then it would be open houses frm fri till sun. madness i know.
im sick&tired of this 3consecutive days thing.
but ohwell. at least i keep myself occupied.

what we could have been, 3/11/2009 11:37:00 AM.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

guess i was in a very bad mood today.
felt weird and stuffs cos' it's just so not me.
just too used to be crapping&jumping around.
guess T3 is so peaceful tt i kind of slipped into slight depression.
looking out at the large taking off area makes me think a lot.
i guess it was all becos' of ytd,when i told my friend about this matter.
then i started thinking bout what he told me ytd.
trying my best to sort out certain things.
but in the end i failed to do so.
my apologies to the company that i hanged out w/ today.
wasnt in the mood to liven up the atmosphere today.

anw,thanks dear yiling for lending a listening ear last night.
guess i really need to give my time to build up tt courage.

gosh. im so tempted to meet dear pris&fenfen this fri night!
gosh. and im like stucked in a dilemma now.
as in shld i forgo my 7-8pm business mgment talk.
and go meet them for concert at 7pm. :((
ugh. what a struggle.
& pris keep psycho-ing me to go. LOLS.
i know i shld prioritise my talk first before concert/meeting them.
but then again, u know how tempted i am to be able to see them!
ohman. ohman. ohman. freak!

what we could have been, 3/10/2009 11:15:00 PM.

Sunday, March 08, 2009

was struggling as to whether i should pop by n give him a surprise visit.
i stood out there, 5min walk away frm whr he was.
thinking for 20min deciding if i should.
in the end, i walked away. silly me.
guess i still dont have the courage to yet. :((

staying at home makes me feel depressed.
so i decided to talk a walk alone on the streets today.
went to kino to browse thru' some psychology books.
i picked one on body language and it was pretty interesting.
kept my mind occupied so i couldnt think of sad issues.

went to esplanade to chill.
initially wanted to have some peaceful moments to think things thru'.
but i ended up emo-ing & thought of other unimportant issues instead.
sat at esplanade for exactly an hour & i somehow teared there. SIGH.
thinking bout a suitcase of memories-happy ones.
and suddenly missed those moments.
so im feeling kind of empty right now.

met-up w/ dear yl for awhile in the evening.
accompanied her to tpy lib to borrow books.
and then we accompanied each other at the pasar malam! HAHAS.

wanted to go down to marina barrage to catch the sunset today.
but mummy says i've got to be home early. had to give it a miss.
but im really yearning to catch the sunset lately.
ANY TAKERS TO WATCH SUNSET WITH ME?? ((: just text or call me.
i guess my current mood somehow contributes to such a random thought.
maybe i shld be glad i hadnt gone there.
it could have been so peaceful that i would breakdown there.
SIGH. man. the emotions inside me seem to be tearing my heart apart.
i seriously got to keep my mind occupied.

i wonder how am i gg to survive being at home for the whole day tmr&tues.
i wanna go out very badly. be it alone or with friends.
i just need to get myself out of my house and chill.
mummy's like constantly asking me bout uni uni uni.
so much so that it is really making me uber vexed. :((
making me wanna stay away from home. SIGH.

'Cause i was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
Stripped and polished
I am new I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious,
you and me, flesh to flesh

'Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes

Labels: please tell me that you're just fine

what we could have been, 3/08/2009 07:29:00 PM.

Saturday, March 07, 2009

it was nice catching up with joel just now...
great senior. great friend. great encouragement. ((:
seems like most ppl whom i know i in FASS.
is it simply coincidence? HAHAS.

life seems to be missing something now.
maybe i guess it's e feeling of anticipating A's results.
now that this has been over, im feeling kind of empty right now.
weird huh.

feel like watching the sunset tmr. so random huh.
lying down on the big plains.
surrounded by many flowers of different different vibrant colours.
enjoy the evening sun just as it sets. how nice huh.
i can picture it in my mind now.
(reminds me of the this show which had a scenery like this)
sigh. i guess im yearning for something more than tt.
i dont know. just simply confused bout what's gg on now.
still struggling over certain issues.

Oh star fall down on me
Let me make a wish upon you
Hold on, let me think
Think of what I'm wishing for

Labels: 真的好担心你哦

what we could have been, 3/07/2009 11:15:00 PM.

Friday, March 06, 2009

felt like staying away from home for today. *SIGH*
amazing i didnt drop a single tear after knowing my results.
maybe i was shocked to have known tt i got a D for phy.
which was a kind of miracle that i thought would never happen.
but damn. so what if i passed everything. it still sucks like shit.
with ranking points of bout 66points whr the hell can i go man.
another miracle please.
i feel so lost now. :((

feeling the heartache for someone else too.
so now im like feeling twice as down than i supposed to be.
it really sucks when u feel like crying & yet no tears comes out.
&& it sucks when u have so much to tell that someone & yet u cant.
i dont know if i can constraint myself any longer.
and then end up making an irrational decision just like what i did last yr.
&& *kaboom* everything backfired. screwed up entirely.
ohgosh. why am i thinking of this now. freak.
got to tune back to 'planning my next step & future' mood.
this sucks seriously. T.T

i wanna disappear from this world right here, right now.

what we could have been, 3/06/2009 08:30:00 PM.

Thursday, March 05, 2009

JI* REUNITES((: