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Thursday, February 28, 2008

a quick post here.

had 4TESTS today.
and i only like passed 1test with flying colours.
and that test is like- NAFPA 2.4km. LOLS.
i ran like 14min8s. and i really chiong-ed!
everytime pe i always slack slack de.
then end up 15-16min. haahs.
and the thing is.
the i broke my previous record.
cos my fastest was like only 15min till today. =D
YAYY! *claps*

however the bad news is.
im gg to fail my phy quiz/maths quiz/chem lect. test. T.T
the phy quiz was a surprise quiz so obviously i wasnt prepared.
erm. ok. even if i did prepare im still gg to fail =X
the maths complex is supposedly to be do-able.
but i didnt study for it so yupps. im gg to fail badly.
and im sure mr anuar is gg to kill me when he returns our paper tml.
im so disappointed in my chem lect test.
cos i didnt have sufficient time to study for it
n i had many careless mistakes! T.T
plus the deductive qn was worth 10marks!
and tts like almost half the weightage of the paper.
ohman. im gg to fail badly too. awww.

lastly.
common test is just 3days away.
how 'wonderful' it is. =((
i havent start a single revision at all.
and im gg to flunk econs/gp/phy super badly.
this really sucks.
im so glad the day is finally over! =D

and peili finally got a gold for her nafpa!
yayy!!

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what we could have been, 2/28/2008 09:45:00 PM.
Sunday, February 24, 2008

i just realised tt i forgot to mention something.
L' change the world is kinda touching also.
the thought of L dying after 23days makes me SAD. T.T
i dont want L to die................. sobbs.
he so nice+cute+intelligent.

okok. i think im mad. it's only a movie.
but then again, dont u think it's such a pity?!
why must L die?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?

hai.
L....................................................

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what we could have been, 2/24/2008 07:49:00 PM.
Saturday, February 23, 2008

this week has been damn damn hectic for me.
my energy level has seem to drop drastically.
once i get home from sch, i just get knock out.

i passed my vectors test, miraculously.
but only at 12/24 marks. LOLS.


the orientation performance sucks esp the 2nd song.
shant elaborate any further. it just sucks.
but luckily the first song was better acc. to xh.
and i feel so relieved.
cos only me n est. were holding the mics.
and i was so afraid that i would sing wrongly n ruin everything.
but thank god it was still ok! =D
a lot of ppl encouraged us during our 2nd song!
and it really made things better thou' it still sucked.

went to catch deathnote- L' change the world ytd.
took a train down to PS after cca orientation.
but it turned out that the 8pm slot was left with the front rows.
and becos of us wanting to have the best, we decided to go cineleisure.
so we took a train down to cine and caught the 9.10pm show.
it has been super long since i caught a night movie.
and seriously, i dont think it was a good idea.
esp. after an exhuasted day at sch. zZzZzz.
had our dinner at pasta n i tried the country baked pasta.
i rate it 7/10 n i think i preferred the baked rice instead. XD
went hmv to shop to pass time.
and we got reprimanded by this sucky security @ HMV.
damn damn him. i basically ignored him n refuse to see his face.
so till now, i dont knw which security reprimanded us.
ohwell. shant explain why we got reprimanded. this sucks.

somehow, we were damn stupid n kinda got cheated of our money.
be it the movie tics or the drinks. ugh.
10bucks was the most ex ticket i actually bought. T.T
there goes my money. HAHS.
so basically i spent like 30bucks for just a 6hrs outing?!
means on average i spent like 5bucks for 1hr?! LOLS.

and the movie ended like 11.40pm??!!!
luckily we manage to catch the last train home.
but sadly, there werent any bus available le.
so bo bian. had to cab home n it cost me like 4bucks?!
and my hse is like only 2bus stops away? =((
ohwell. tts the opp cost for having to catch a night movie. XD

and ohmy. too bad kira didnt appear in the movie. =((
anw, L was enough to keep me entertained. =D
ohmyohmy. he's so damn HOT! keke.
and i pretty much think the movie's worth watching.




i took like 1min before i realise that this guy here was L. lols.
i think he looks hotter with tt 'cleaner' look in the movie. =D

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what we could have been, 2/23/2008 10:35:00 PM.
Sunday, February 17, 2008

got so addicted to this old song agn after visiting rice's blog. =D


'drowning'

Don't pretend you're sorry
I know you're not
You know you got the power
To make me weak inside
Girl you leave me breathless
But it's okay 'cause
You are my survival
Now hear me say
I can't imagine life
Without your love
Even forever don't seem
Like long enough

'Cause everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love

Maybe I'm a drifter
Maybe not
'Cause I have known the safety
Of floating freely
In your arms
I don't need another lifeline
It's not for me
'Cause only you can save me
Oh can't you see
I can't imagine life
Without your love
And even forever don't seem
Like long enough

'Cause everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love

Go on and pull me under
Cover me with dreams, yeah
Love me mouth to mouth now
You know I can't resist
'Cause you're the air
That I breathe

'Cause everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
And baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning your love

Baby I can't help it
Keep me drowning
In your love
I keep drowning
In your love
Baby I can't help it
Can't help it no, no

'Cause everytime I breathe
I take you in
And my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
You keep me
Drowning in your love

what we could have been, 2/17/2008 09:37:00 PM.
Saturday, February 16, 2008




Your Love is Represented by a Purple Rose



For you, love is all about chemistry and attraction. You totally believe in love at first sight.

If a relationship is right, you know it from the start.

You're often sure of your feelings. And you're not afraid to express them.

What Rose Represents Your Love?





Your Life Path Number is 4



Your purpose in life is to build your vision.



You are practical and responsible. You work hard, knowing that there are no shortcuts in life.

You work for a better life for yourself and those you love, but you are not an idealist.

Trustworthy and honest, you also demonstrate great courage. People can count on you.



In love, you are a loyal and committed partner. You are the ideal spouse.



You don't give up easily, and sometimes you can be too stubborn and unwilling to change.

You also can be too conservative at times. You sometime miss out on good opportunities.

Also remember that not everyone can work as hard as you, as disappointing as that is!

What Is Your Life Path Number?





You Need Some Green in Your Life



Green will make you feel alive, renewed, and balanced.

And with a little green, you will project an aura of peacefulness and harmony.

If you want stability, you've got to get a little green in your life!



For extra punch: Combine green with blue or purple



The downside of green: It can promote jealousy in yourself or others



The consequences of more green in your life:



You will be drawn to a new life path

You will feel free to pursue new ideas and interests, no matter how strange

You will be released from the demands and concerns of others

What Color Do You Need?





People Envy Your Compassion



You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain.

People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

What Do People Envy About You?





You Are Mostly Secure



In general, you feel confident and together.

But the wrong thing can happen, and all of a sudden, you're not feeling so secure.

Luckily, your insecurities don't last long... at least, not usually.

So the next time you're feeling insecure, try to snap out of it - and remember the confident woman you are!

Are You An Insecure Girl?





Your Love Style is Agape



You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.

Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.

You are willing to sacrifice your world for your sweetie.

Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.

For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?





Your Five Factor Personality Profile



Extroversion:



You have medium extroversion.

You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.

Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.

But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time."



Conscientiousness:



You have high conscientiousness.

Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.

Most things in your life are organized and planned well.

But you borderline on being a total perfectionist.



Agreeableness:



You have medium agreeableness.

You're generally a friendly and trusting person.

But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.

You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.



Neuroticism:



You have high neuroticism.

It's easy for you to feel shaken, worried, or depressed.

You often worry, and your worries prevent you from living life fully.

You tend to be emotionally reactive and moody. Your either flying very high or feeling very low.



Openness to experience:



Your openness to new experiences is medium.

You are generally broad minded when it come to new things.

But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it.

You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.

The Five Factor Personality Test

what we could have been, 2/16/2008 10:37:00 PM.
Friday, February 15, 2008

some updates on my current affairs. LOLS.

wed: went out w/ yenyen to shop for vdae stuffs.
and im super proud of myself. =D
cos i found this damn nice shop which customises caps.
and i urged yenyen to customise one for him instead of buying.
i hope the final outcome would look nice!
then we went to buy our chocs.
and we stayed @ food junction for 3hrs!
cos we were making the roses there.
and yenyen became the center of attraction.
cos the workers started coming 1 by 1 so see us make rose.
to be exact, is to see yenyen make the roses.
cos yenyen was making the bigger roses so it was easier to see.
then it was super duper funny lah.
like having some performance like tt.
the workers keep coming to see.
told yenyen all about my 不能说的秘密. LOLS.
felt so much better after letting it out. =D
went home like 7plus.
and the freaking purple line train was like ugh.
i waited for like the 3rd before i could board cos it was so packed!
and then the thing is.
it would stop at each stn for like 4-5min!

thurs: v.dae =D
this year was kinda diff from previous yrs.
cos i started giving very gifts to everyone whom i know.
and now i know the happiness in giving ppl gifts!
though i really sacrifed my slp&time to do all this.
but i felt it was worth my time to do so. =D
i recieved quite a few also, so thanks all those for ur gift!
a pity is tt in JC, there's only 1yr in SR tt we can celebrate vdae.
ohwell. i was really very happy on this day.
yongyong dedicated a song for us but i didnt hear. =((
xh and weting also. i didnt knw it was them.
i only went crazy over the song which they dedicated to us.
LOLS. kuku me. cos peili got tell me but i somehow dont recall.
and i did a 不能说的秘密 also. LOLS.
but i think the truth will forever be not know to me.
ohwell. i chose to do it this way.
idk why but everyone went HIGH during chem tut.
even the forever naggy&formal ms tan also went HIGH!
awwa didnt turn for maths tut. which was like super slack.
so in short. sch was DAMN SLACK on thurs.
i run my 10rounds CONTINUOUSLY in 27min37s!
that was like a great acheivement for me.
cos the first time i ran my 10rounds, i stopped at the 7th.
so it's simply amazing how i managed to persevere. =D


today: awwa forgot about the complex quiz. *phew*
awwa went mad during tutorial agn.
he went shouting 'GARY!STOP WASTING UR TIME &
DO UR BLOODY TUTORIAL NOW!'
afterwhich awwa said 'or shld be gentle and say in a softer tone
'gary, please stop wasting ur time & do ur bloody tutorial'.
LOLS. i couldnt help laughing lah. it was super funny.
im gg to fail my vectors test very badly. ohwell. haahs.
had our 1st phy tut with nordin.
and somehow i miss mroh so much now. HAHS.
ran for 1hr in the evening just now.
felt so refreshed cos i really felt like sleeping when i was at home.


i was looking thru' photos of myself frm sec 4 till now.
and somehow i came to realised how much weight i have put on.
i got a shock too. cos my face just got fatter in the photos.
and thinking back on what i have eaten for each meals.
i simply think it was so horrifying! esp the chickens n the rice.
so im determined to become the primary sch me agn.
in terms of build, not mindset. hehs.
10kg in 5mths. shld be achievable. =D
im looking forward to it.
it may be tiring though.
but i've got the perserverence n determination now.
and how true it really is.
one's minds becomes so clearer when one reflects on her past actions.
seems like i've gain alightenment.
must be the temple bell which we have now in sch. LOLS.
ohwell.
im so freaking sleepy now.

shall go to sleep soon. =D

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what we could have been, 2/15/2008 09:12:00 PM.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008

im not sure if i shld say im happy or not.
im relatively happy cos' i passed my chem test w/ a B!
which is like 3rd in my class.
-whee- gr8 achievement for me.
cos' i hav been failing the alkenes quiz like siao.
for eg. 4.5/15. LOLS.
but then again, i shouldnt be complacent.
so yupps. cont' to work harder! =D

however.
it's like seeing ur best fren isnt able to get the same grade as u
or maybe even better is really abit saddening.
i mean. if u were given a choice.
u would of cos wish tt u can all score well together, right?
ohwell. -sigh-
see the irony.

ok. actually im happy becos of another reason.
but well. shall not go into further details.
it's only btw me&peili! HAHAS. XD
ohman. i seriously cant believe tt im so lucky.
this is so fated. LOLS.
kekes.

okok.
im gg shopping tml! yayy!
there's more surprise coming up on vdae!
yayy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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what we could have been, 2/12/2008 09:25:00 PM.
Saturday, February 09, 2008

this flu is seriously killing.
i cant get down to do any work at all!
ohman. im just gg to die when sch reopens. T.T

sometimes i really wonder.
why do some ppl hav the courage to say what's on their mind.
i tried to, but i came to realise tt i couldnt.
there's really so many many things i wanna say.
but somehow the words just gets stucked in my mouth.
and only air comes out of it.

then things starts to pile up inside me.
and this snowball becomes bigger and bigger.
ugh. if only i could find the courage to let it all out.

im feeling freaking sucky.
im feeling freaking jealous.
and idk why.
im starting to freaking dislike some1 i nv thought i wld dislike.
maybe it's becos ....................
this sucks.
man.

what we could have been, 2/09/2008 10:24:00 PM.

what a time to fall sick! ugh.
i woke up this morning to find myself down with flu.
and of cos, sore throat.
so my nose was like a water fountain the whole day.
and i've used up tons of tissues. =((

it's the cny festive season leh!
and i ate less heaty food as compared to previous yrs!
how could i have fallen sick?!?!?!!?! not fair. T.T
ugh. im feeling super grumpy.

shall go take my flu med now.
sobbs.

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what we could have been, 2/09/2008 08:54:00 PM.
Friday, February 08, 2008

i run my 10rounds today and i have tt sense of accomplishment.
LOLS. running makes me feel so much healthier. =D
only that the bruise on the back of my leg hasnt healed yet.
ugh. im so hating the girl for not seeing whr she's pushing the wheelchair.
cos my leg seriously hurts so much.
ok. im not that petty but i just wanted to complain. haahs.

i ate a lot at my aunty's house today agn.
the steamboat and everything.
and my throat is sufferring.
feels so ugh. i sound so man now.
and it is itching so so so much.
got to run 10more rounds tml morning agn. T.T

im feeling so sians now.
wanna catch ah long pte ltd&kung fu dunk but idk whr can i find the time.
im so packed with hw/mock spa/tests/revisions. sigh.
life is simply so hectic n boring.

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what we could have been, 2/08/2008 10:53:00 PM.
Thursday, February 07, 2008

it has been a very hectic month for me.
thank god, cny is finally here.
though it is one of the suckiest cny im having.
but at least, i dont nd to go to sch.
and i dont nd to see AWWA&mrs sim. =X

let me give a brief summary of the past 2weeks.
-we had a maths lecture quiz on integration.
and im so glad me and peili passed the test! =D
-mrs seth says she loves our class cos' WE ARE HER SUNSHINE! =D
-mrs seth says guys are generally uses and has only 1 good pt.
>>which is to help carry heavy objects(LOL)
-phy quiz on E.field on mon and im sad to say, im gg to fail-badly.
peili says she's gg to flunk it too. =(( we are so hopeless.
-chem lect test on organic chem. it's relatively easy.
only tt i had made a few careless mistakes. i left out the H-X compound.
didnt complete my step2:propagation sentence and, mixed up reflux with rtp.
but i pray hard tt i would b able to see hope in chem.
in other words, pass my chem lect test of cos! =D
-mroh is serious a very very very very NICE CT&phy teacher.
he even takes the trouble to sms us wishing us happy cny! =D
i was super touched when i saw his msg just now.
-cny performance today. thanks fadee for her encouragement.
it was pretty alright. =D
-yongxin's chinese drums friend so COOL!
-helped peili to catch a glimpse of bosco today too.
haahs. her rxn super funny lah.
-this gurl bumped the wheelchair into me @ the hm & now my leg is swollen n pain.
-i wheelchaired the uncle to the wrong rm n i was super paiseh.
-there was this uncle tt was super enthu! so cute!
-reunion dinner with my relatives just now.and i ate a lot!!! ohno!!!!!!!!!!!!
so im gg to run 8rounds tml morning to burn off everything!

hmms. how 'brief' this summary is. LOLS.

im super irritated by suzanna. ugh.

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what we could have been, 2/07/2008 01:21:00 AM.
Saturday, February 02, 2008

i think i had mood swings ytd.
and it started frm good to bad to worse to worst.
lessons were gg pretty smoothly.
then we had our lantern making activity.
and idk why we ended up having only s6'07 ppl helping.
ohwell. at least the s6'07 ppl stayed and help. =D
we seriously had lots of fun making it.
and we are aiming for the 'MOST UGLIEST lantern' LOLS.
ohman. u shld have seen our lantern. super paiseh leh.
and stupid gary go add some stupid creation of his.
and it ended up looking funny.
and mroh came up with a handle using angbao.
it seriously looks stupid.
and nicole was like, lets do 5fishes to represent S5.
and then 2 'dong dongs' to represent JC2.
and then the handle to represent the pillar of support.
and red angbaos to represent prosperity.
that was super hilarious lah.
and we started complaining to our CT abt the sucky teachers.
esp. mrs sim and AWWA!!!!!!
then zc started saying 'i miss Tan TAU Hwee'
then theo was like 'why u call him Tan TAU Hwee?'
then zc was like his name is Tan TAU Hwee, no meh?
and i corrected him that it's Tan TOH Hwee!
he was like 'aiyah. u knw i meant tan toh hwee can liao'.
LOLS. i couldnt stop laughing lah.
he must be thinking of the 'tau huay' so much. XD

that was when i started to go high.
then on my way home, i got super moody.
it's always like.
i start to think a lot when im alone.
then i start to go moody. sians.
i was super depressed ytd that i almost wanted to cry.
all the pressure building up and everything.
just makes me wanna give up now.
this just sucks.

see how drastic the change of my mood was.
i seriously hate being alone.
T.T

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